merdekakah kita?

smlm afta balik terawih aku dok depan tv...
smpai la ke pagi..
ohh tak sedar i fell asleep in front of the tv..
huhu..
i spent my midnite ambang merdeka nonton
tv2..cite hati malaya~
what a great piece from...err...tatau sape..hee~
well anyhow the storyline was good..
rugi aku x tgk dr mule...
blk terawih pon da kol bape..
kire after tgk mlm tadik..recall la blk sejarah2 yg pernah aku belaja di skola
pd suatu ketika dlu...
mmg sgt payah perjuangan pemimpin2 kite untuk mendapat kemerdekaan...
mungkin bagi kite yg mmg sedia lahir selepas kemerdekaan
tak dapat rase seperti mane yg mereka rase sebenar2 kesusahan...

diz morning as usual bace paper...
agak sedey tuk bace diz one news..
lagi2 on a merdeka morning..
The title was 'Gapena bantah hapus identiti bangsa, kaum, agama'

ouch...i wonder why do those kind of ppl who cadangkan mende neh leh terpikirkan isu neh.
i mean what da heck. nape nak susah2 nak hapuskan those identity...
without those identity hilanglah segala2nya...
i noe of how we want one malaysia to work. but still i think identiti bangsa, kaum and agama is so penting tuk kite pertahankan. i guess that's the only thing that left.
look at around u dahla...sket2 one by one everythin had been taken away...stolen in silence...
i juz hope everyone is not blinded by the true reality..keep ur eyes wide open..so in the end, persoalannye merdekakah kita?

ok. baek aku benti. nnt ntah ke mane membebel.haha. pape pon ini hanye pendapatku saje. aku bkn org penting pon. hanye seorg rakyat yg mahu meluah rase tibe2 pade pagi merdeka di dalam blog nye. tidak bermaksud mahu mengenekan mane2 pihak.

no exit door or no entry? haha.

i'm glad.
thanks for understanding.
although it is back to basic
still, what had gone inside will remain inside.
i guess i forgot to build an exit door here inside my heart.
u're lucky enuf to get an entrance whereas it had been a no entry sign for quite sumtime.
thanks again ",

post ke 101...wahh~

wahh...
xsangke da reached 100 posts..
diz is my 101 post.
at first i created diz blog was juz a try2 thingy..hehe
nvr tot i kept it diz far..
cool~

well as what everyone are saying in the facebook..
"Happy Fasting"
to all the muslims out there..
who would be starting their fasting routine
tomorrow..and yup dun 4get to perform
ur terawih tonite...lame da x terawih...beshnyer..hee~

words on my mind at the moment after replying a message at my facebook.

why am i being so selfish
ohh i so hate dat part of me
well i guess
there is no point on being one.
but sumtime i juz hav to.damn me

if u have one crystal on ur left
and a diamond on ur right
surely u'll choose the diamond
i can see myself to u as juz a crystal
and nvr will be a diamond
so u better go find ur diamond
and juz leave ur crystal here

i'm being selfish now
coz i noe u'll
find the real diamond soon
and i so am aware of
my existence is juz a wind passing by..
so dear plz open ur eyes n see..
i'm not the diamond u r needing now..

keje.lapa.cerite pukol 1213pm.

keje byk..
sgt tensen..
huu..~

ohh..lupe ku mahu update mengenai 'lagenda'..
well..
what can i say..
i guess it's a waste of a year..
so officially it is a full period
for the name of lagenda to appear in my blog.
sure gonna miss the once in a blue moon moments.
and yeah. the me smiling with all my heart.
ahh.damn.

apela ku membebel ketika ini..
agaknye sbb perot da mule bergendang tuh
yg tulih pon merapu meraban..
oklar i'm off for my lunch meal..

risaunyeee~

H1N1..
semakin hari semakin ramai yg terkorban...
ntah knape..
risau sgt..

cruel me~

*sigh

i started diz post with a sigh..
u can tell of how my moods are tumbling down rite now..
i sort of juz did sumthin unplanned..
i guess it juz came out from the heart.
and trust me i do not pro at doin diz kind of thingy.
i juz felt it's the right thing to do..
u noe how dey say to alwaz follow ur intuition..

to u noe who..
if u ever read diz..
emm..
sorry again n again..
i noe i'm being so cruel to u at the moment..
juz leave things without a single period..
but do trust me..
i'm doin diz for the better..
the actions dat i took is to avoid me
from being more cruel to u in the future
which might results u into a heartache.
and i so dun want any one my fren to ever feel dat way
especially if it's bcoz of me..
and yes you will alwaz remain a fren to me juz like before..
i'm not planning to juz erase u in my life..
this is juz temporary..
plz understand..~

once in a blue moon::

hello all...

i've been away for a while
due to my condition at the college...
yup. no internet connection. so damn freaking missed fb. haha.lol

for my first 5 days at the college, after
a year staying at home i felt good i guess.
i felt myself as a student. if i stayed home i felt more
being a daughter rather than a student. and yup at home
i do used the tv, and internet for wrongly purpose all the times..hehe

the changes i went through for the first week
-less sleeping hours.
-more study time.
-etc.etc.etc.heee~

ohh...the title..
emm..
yup. i do so missed the once in a blue moon moments~
rili am hoping we are going to see each other again
eventho it was alwaz a once in a blue moon moments still
it worth me to smiled with all my heart ",

teman2 hidopku ^_^

smlm my BFFs ajak gi pc fair...
ohh..i had to pass sbb xde duit maa..
pnat je gi nnt..
instead i helped ani moved out her stuffs
to the college..
thanks to my dearies...nik, ani and aimi
coz dieorg temankan aku
dey overnite at ma place since my folks
are out of town..

arineh plak..kuar ngn aisar kembarku itu..
she want me to accompany her for a karok session..hehe
penat gak melalak tons of songs tadik..haha
but it was enjoyable..i had fun dear~
and yeah i luv the big apple too ",

words at 2 in the morning..~

i guess i did overreacted a bit...
well it's juz who i am..
i cant change of how i act on things..
i'm totally lost if i try to be one that i'm not...
i only mastered to be me..
the plain me..
the simply me..
i hope one can accept the truly me..