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i am useless.

i am irresponsible.

i am useless.

i am irresponsible.

i am useless.

i am irresponsible.




dizziness days,

i heart me.

kau rindu aku ke?

salam everyone..

ok. first nak cakap. saye RINDU cik som. haha.
padehal baru away few days. hee :p

maapla yer. saye bukan bz mane pon smpai xleh update.
tp blk keje je trus tido. lupe nk update. huhu
knape saye tdo awal?
sbb saye penat pk. huu~
saye penatlah pk itu pk ini. emm. i sux la being
a decision maker. future tuh. bukan mende main2
leh pk sambil lewa jek. uhuh.
sbb penat pk n tak reti decide, tuh yg tido. haha.

ape ek nak cite?
hmm..

sunday lepaking with my bestie. ptg2 lepak dc minum air gelas besar. fresh orange.
huu. sgt sedap. rindu, lama xlepak situh. lepas tu pegi cili merah mkn. lepas kenyang balik tumpang smyang kat kolej dia.

monday watpe ek.
keje. ade class. ajar budak2 pakai sound forge. mcm2 version mixing aku kene evaluate. hehe.
puase hari pertama. hee.

today.
menghabiskan masa di opis bersama miss2 yg sungguh retard. haha :D
gi wat med check up.
dieorg dtg beraya mah aku.
layan merlin kat opis. yg mane endingnye aku pon xphm sbb mata aku tutup rapat layan tido ptg2 mase ujan. hehe. padehal aku yg beriya nak tgk. haha.
abeskan isi borang keselamatan yg tersgtlah pjg. huh.

oklah, since they colored my life for now,
i juz wanna say out loud here.
THANKS u people for making me laugh every single day!
i lost my student's smile, but i'm glad i'm still smiling because
of korang punye perangai yg entah pape tuh. HAHA ;P

retard. mental. terencat.

tak sabar esok.
nak angkat sumpah. tak sbr nk msuk kandang. kandang la sgt.
dlm mimpi jela. haha =p
aku tak sabar sbb nk donlod cite! haha. one tree hill & ncis: los angeles :)




nurse berkata,

bp aku rendah.

100 truths.

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: air masak

2. Last phone call: Alya

3. Last text message: Abahku ",

4. Last song you listened to: Storm - Lifehouse

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice: nope

7. Been cheated on: yup

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: yup and nvr regret

9. Lost someone special: yup

10. Been depressed: yup

11. Been drunk and threw up: never

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS :

12. white

13. purple

14. blue

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)

15. Made a new friend: yup, many :)

16. Fallen out of love: yup

17. Laughed until you cried: yup

18. Met someone who changed you: nope.

19. Found out who your true friends were: yup

20. Found out someone was talking about you: like i care.

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: nope

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: most of them

23. How many kids do you want to have: dun mind, syukur if ade rezeki :)

24. Do you have any pets: nope

25. Do you want to change your name: nope

26. What did you do for your last birthday?: nothing

27. What time did you wake up today: o-three-hundred hours

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: dreaming

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: vacation with the besties

30. Last time you saw your Father: few minutes ago

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: nvr thought of one. just redha~

32. What are you listening to right now: Menunggu - Akim

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Nope

34. What's getting on your nerves right now: nothing

35. Most visited webpage: blogger

36. What's your real name: Hazrati Zaini

37. Nicknames: hatie

38. Relationship Status: single

39. Zodiac sign: cancer

40. Male or female : female

41. Elementary?: SKTE, Unity Point Elementary School

42. Middle School?: SMKTE, SMKSSAAS

43. High school/college?: Kolej Matrikulasi Johor, UiTM Perak, UiTM Shah Alam

44. Hair colour: what's the point of wearing tudung if you can imagine what my hair looks like.

45. Long or short: same as above.

46. Height: 157

47. Do you have a crush on someone?: nope

48: What do you like about yourself?: the sensitivity in me

49. Piercings: ear

50. Tattoos: never

51. Righty or lefty: righty

51b. Innie or Outie: innie

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery: 19 January 2006

53. First piercing: entah. 1st grade?

54. First best friend: Suzai

55. First sport you joined: Basketball

56. First vacation: entah. memory loss.

58. First pair of trainers: apekah?

RIGHT NOW

59. Eating: Blueberry muffin

60. Drinking: air masak

61. I'm about to: bukak excel kira carrymark

62. Listening: favorite playlist. as always.

63. Waiting: a friend request

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids?: yup

65. Get Married?: yup

66. Career?: lecturer

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes: eyes

68. Hugs or kisses: kisses

69. Shorter or taller: taller

70. Older or Younger: older

71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: nice arms

73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive

74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship.

75. Trouble-maker or hesitant: trouble-maker

HAVE YOU EVER:

76. Kissed a stranger: nope

77. Drank hard liquor: never

78. Lost glasses/contacts: always

79. Sex on first date : nope

80. Broken someone's heart: yup

82. Been arrested: nope

83. Turned someone down: yup

84. Cried when someone died: depends on who

85. Fallen for a friend?: yup

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself: yup

87. Miracles: yup

88. Love at first sight: nope

89. Heaven: yup

90. Santa Claus: never .

91. Kiss on the first date: nope

92. Angels: yup

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: nope. honesty is a precious key

95. Did you sing today?: yup

96. Ever cheated on somebody?: yup

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: during my childhood days

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: 03 December 2009

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: currently yes.

100. Posting this as 100 truths?: yup

ps: malas nak tag anyone. haha. asek jawab yup, nope, never. tuh malas la namanya. hee ;P

a persona.

started off the morning feeling a bit dull.
dun ask whose face appeared in my dream last nite.
=.=

at noon, a fren of mine, invite
for an open hse @ D'Kayangan.
yela tuh. umah org kaya2 tuh. haha.
rasenye out of sume org yg park situh,
aku je kot yg pakai kancil gi open hse. huu~~
well, it turned out to be a great day.
pegi accompanied ngan 2 org. thanks teman ;)
and yeah, we enjoyed your lifetime stories. hee ;P
makanan superb. hee :D

on my way, i saw a scene of a terrible accident.
kat depan bus stop sec 2 tuh.
dunno what had happened, i just glanced for a few secs,
then just drive off. gipun byk kete, xleh nak usha lama2
kang aku pulak kne langgar. huu~
i saw a persona remuk. and then ade ambulance.
uhuh.
hari ini aku memandu dgn penuh berhati-hati.
sebab takut accident? ye jugak.
tapi sbnrnye risau, sbb brake aku mcm da kurang mkn.
huu~

arrived home. penat.
cehh. padehal dekat jek. haha.
treat myself with an ice-cream and M&M's yg aku sgt craving hari ape ntah. haha.
pastu bantai tido. padehal keje melambak. huhu.
and baru bangun. seb bek tersedar aku blom
Isyak agi. huhu~

better get goin.
i got better things to do rather than
ngadap my cik som every single day. haha. tau pon.




ps: kpd pemandu WRB ape ntah. silalah berhati-hati. aku tgk persona mesti ingat kau. tak kesahla kau memandu ke kau jadik pejalan kaki ke, just be careful dear :)

hari malaysia aku.

spring cleaning day :)
i love how my room smells lemon. hee.
thx sis for a packet of potpourri!

remember how i always say people always leave?
well, now it's not a who. it's an it.
my pc da mati.
i tried hidupkan dia, but it won't wake up.
i dunno what went wrong.
riwayat hidup tamat, probably?
huu~
eventho itu adalah pc pinjam from abgku,
still, i heart jugak la. byk mende i kept inside.
and bukan sume i did a backup pon.
huu~

now, it is just stranded by the wall at a corner in my bedroom.
luckily, abahku lemme borrow his lappy.
i need a computer to do my freelance job,
bukan facebooking 24/7 ekk. haha ;P

ohh. i da ingat.
nak cite yg cite merlin is getting interesting.
i knew dat the dragon would come in handy one day. hee~
seriously, cant wait for the next epi this saturday :)
and oth. it's the other way around.
although mmg lah i'm quite anxious to know
what rili did happen to clay and guin.
but, the show started off this season with a bit lame~
tuh pendapat aku jela. so lame~ here referring to,
do you rili need to hav an every minute scene of romance?
ok. i know it's a romantic series. still, ohh so cliche.

ok. byk plak bebel kan.
haha.
hey, aku ade buat perkara yg sungguh
mengarut tadik. haha.
aku gi google nama aku sendiri.
try it out lah..
see for yourself. hehe. mcm2 ade.
tergelak aku tgk nama2 aku serata dunia ade.
kat malaysia ok lagik la, sume girls je.
masok arab2 tuh dah, it's a guy name. huhu~
sila la try google. tapi bukan nama aku lah.
nama korang la. hee~
you'll be surprise to know how famous ur name really is. hehe :D




Hari Malaysia,

syukur masih berpijak ditanah milik org. =.=

from scofield to redfield.

again.
uitm sepi.
sume staff xnak blk keje ka?
haih.
bz di opis key in carrymark mereka.
at lunch hour,
cabut pegi tonton salah seorg aku punye heartthrob. haha.
super wednesday everyone. ape lagi. hee ;P

Resident Evil: Afterlife, syok gak r! i enjoyed it =)
hero prison break berlakon. huhu. ske ske!~~
he's the perfect guy for the role. prison break again? hee.
well, looking forward to another sequel~

prison break da lama tamat.
merlin and one tree hill masih kat dlm list torrent. huu. cepat sket bleh?
smallville premieres 24th sept. cant wait! the finale season i'll be watching CK :(
yeah. tv series is back!






3 magic words,

unheard.

uitm yg sepi.

roti canai + teh ais.
nama, restoran ceria. the only kedai yg bukak. huh.

kotak hijau.
melalak bersama rkn sekerja yg sgt berbakat ngn lagu2 sedeynye. hehe

pizza hut.
last choice. old town nmpk mase nk balik. ceh.

jalan2 carik kete kat car park.
haha. lupe park katne. mmg penat mencarik. huhh.

itulah hari aku yg warna-warni :)



ps: bln pose da abes. leh la kembali pada karok n movieeee. ngeeee :p

n e w s :)

Salam Aidilfitri everyone!

back here in shah alam already.
spent a great aidilfitri with family and relatives in Kedah ",

i'll update my raya stories later k,
sebab ade satu gambar i nak share with u people.
gambar aku? huhu. gambar lemang la. haha.
lemang made by us. hee ",

hmm..wondering what news i'm gonna share?
cerita datuk kne bakar?
cerita si paderi yg tangguh nk bakar Quran?
uhuh. tuh je 2 cerita bakar yg aku tau.
yg aku nak cerita bukan berita2 di atas. kalo awak semua nak
tahu google jela, belambak sumber2 yg menceritakan
berita2 di atas. hee.

ape ek?
haha. rahsia.
huhu. serupa xyah kecoh kan? hee :p

i got a great news today. one word. alhamdulillah~
and i'm hoping for another great news in a couple of months. inshaAllah~

i hope what i had decided is the right path.
i dunno which path is the right one.
all i can do is berdoa moga ia adalah yang terbaik buat aku.

ape2 pun, deep down inside.
i know i shouldn't. but, i insist in doing so.
bukan kerana kau.
aku ulang sekali lagi.
bukan kerana kau.
aku memilih kerana
akulah pembuat keputusan.
apa kau mahu fikir itu
belakang cerita.
aku tak mahu fikir sebab nanti
otak aku semak.
aku cuma tahu
aku hendak mencapai
kejayaan yang belum aku
kecapi dahulu.
kalau ditakdirkan kau
menjadi sebahagian drpd bakal
kejayaan aku, aku akan senyum.
jika tidak, aku akan senyum jua,
kerana itu kejayaan aku.

ohh man~
i always merepek here in shadows of mine.
as if i am speaking to sumone.
whom eventually, isnt reading anymore.
well, my bad~
my finger still wanna type nonsense. haha.
itulah tujuan berblogging kan?
merepek 24/7. haha :D



berita gembira,

surat berdaftar :)

i talk a lot. hee :)

Ramadhan has come to its end..
Honestly, i felt really sad
because i didn't make most of time
in this holy month to pay
for the price ticket to heaven.
Unlike every other years...
Well, i guess i do have to
adjust my time of being a workaholic
gal for next Ramadhan.
Will i be there for next Ramadhan?
InshaAllah~

One R is saying gudbye,
the other R is making their way to share the happiness.
it's RAYA people!
Eventhough, this raya aidilfitri
doesn't seem like a raya, here i'm referring
to the preparation. can i say zero? ok, tipulah. adela
10% only. hee.
I'm hoping for a colorful Raya with dearest family and friends ^_^

I better start packing.
Plans had been changed at the very last minute.
Ok, blame my freelance job.
In the end, it's me who doesn't hav the chance
to even go for my shopping raya.

Since abah is feeling feverish this morning,
I wouldn't want to burden him
with me whining to go for a shopping raya later in
the morning.
Instead, i just simply said, "pakai jelah ape yg ader.."
and he replied, " gud girl."
ahaks. i didn't even feel anything. haha.
well, it hasn't been the mood of nak-raya-sgt-sampai-nak-hepi-bergaya-gile-kan.
hanya kerana....? gaji takde. sekian. haha.

so, before i'm off on my journey heading up North,
i just wanna say out loud here
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI
and of course,
MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN.
for sure lah,
i made mistakes all the time.
so for those whom i've hurt in the past and present,
i do apologize for everything.
Please forgive all my wrongdoings.
Only because i am one imperfect human being.
and yah, you are too. hee :p

Will be writing here again as soon as i'm
back here in Shah Alam.
Well, it's raya. The door is open
for anyone to come and raya at my home.
But please la call. otherwise, i would still be in bed.
haha. how i wish i would be. hee ;P

I'm gonna miss cik som badly.
Ya Rabbi pjg gile post. mcm aku nak pegi berjuang kat perang mane jek. ngee :D
seriously yah.
i'm sure i'm gonna be pretty melancholic during pagi raya.
as always. and this year, well let's just put a period there.
if i'm here, surely i would spend my time writing
all those melancholic moment down here right?
well, i guess i'm just gonna keep it to myself.
the number 24 isn't just a two digit.
i need to start being independent, internally i mean.
inshaAllah~








ps: rindu gitarku. rindu my D4D6. haha. doakan aku selamat sampai kg. i'm gonna be driving abah's volvo. scary. haha.

Islam :)

Discover the beauty of Al-Quran
while you still have the chance
to breathe in this beautiful world of Allah's creation.
May our life always lead to Islam. InshaAllah~

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kepala hotak kau.

"jangan kerana nila setitik rosak susu sebalang"


aku tak faham.
tapi tidak mengapalah.
yg dah berlalu biarkan.
aku cuma risau.

jgn kerana salah faham
persahabatan kita
yg jadi mangsa.

aku tahu aku salah.
tapi tak bermaksud
aku akan terus dipandang hina.

aku juga masih seperti dulu.
seorang yang masih perlukan
kau sebagai kawan.

aku harap.
masa akan menyebelahi aku.
aku sudah memberi masa yg begitu lama.
aku cuma rindu kau, kawanku~

aku mencuba sedaya upaya.
utk lupakan segalanya.
percayalah,
segalanya akan lebih
mudah berlalu
bila kau menjadi
kau yang mula aku kenal dulu.







kepala hotak kau,

aku rindu ungkapan itu.

iftar gath ",

akan aku ingat sampai bila2.
ingat apa?
berbuka di pizza hut pada pukul 9.
uhuh.
disbbkan servis pekerja disituh yg tersgt excellent.
order at 7 and dpt at 9. ngoks!
ehh. aku bru teringat. neh first time aku msok
pizza hut balik. haha. see, aku da lupe. da move on, yay!
ok, abaikan. iklan. haha.
hari neh iftar with the ex-classmate.
ramai yg xdpt dtg. tapi to those who came,
thanks! it was nice catching up stories
with u people. although balik2, the word yang
i heard in the conversation tak len tak bukan, MODULE. ohh.
haha. alergik r word tuh. nk give up je rase keje tuh.
bak kate kwn aku, review ngn jpk mmg tensen.
dah kata, jabatan pening kepala. haha :p
kesimpulan, jgn pergi pizza hut section 7.
bleh kot dtg, bila pekerja dia da cukop. haha :D


tibe2
nak
tulih
mende
mengarot
agak2
tanak
bace
takyah
scroll
tak
suruh
pon


aku terfikir.
tadi.
semasa memandu pulang ke rumah.
selalu begitu.
lagi2 pabila aku takut keseorangan di mlm hari.
aku.
aku.
aku.
tak seperti orang lain.
yang tak boleh hidup
dlm negara bayang2.
aku dah lama tinggal di negara itu.
aku selesa.
sgt selesa.
aku pernah keluar dgn harapan
tidak kembali.
tapi aku kembali jua.
lebih elok aku tinggal
lama sedikit kali ini.
aku suke. negara bayang2 aku
indah di mata aku.
aku kasihan sama orang itu.
yang tidak dpt tinggal dlm negara bayang2
walaupun sehari.
tidak perlu utk kita keluar dari negara itu
kalau kita belum bersedia.


ntah apekan aku merepek kat atas tuh.
aku rindu seorang kawan.
aku tak suke hilang kawan.
sbb aku tak reti.
sbb tak penah aku ade kawan yg anggap aku musuh.
huu~










ape yg dicari,

tiada disini.

cik som. saye penat.

yesterday.
hari driving sedunia.

today.
hari duduk-depan-pc sedunia.

tomorrow.
hari tak-tido sedunia.

day after tomorrow.
hari kritik sedunia.

conclusion.
nak pinjam pintu doraemon, gi tempat jauh dari kl bleh tak?




dugaan Ramadhan,

aku redha.

chord yg susah.

dari pagi ke malam.

sungguh penat.

mcm2 berlaku dlm tempoh hampir 24 jam. uhh.

sampai tak larat nk type.

ok. tibe2 mcm nak dgr lagu neh.

yga :)





si pemain gitar,

tiada.

a colorful day :) :) :)

quite a hectic morning.
running some errands here and there.
thx to a fren who's willing enuf to accompany me
running from one bank to another. huhu~

iftar with my sweet darls!
unfortunately yan n diana couldn't make it.
but it was fun just the three of us + amal ",
i received a kad raye!! hee. excited. lama dah xdpt kad raye yg ori ;P
and a souvenir all the way from sarawak! thanks all :)

today is my last gudbye.
and guess what, one of their
group presentation was the best among all
of my students. and i'm glad they
did a great job.
i enjoyed it so much ^_^

i dunno what the future will write for me.
but i do hope i'll still be teaching at Faculty of Law.
i'm so gonna miss that place..
and of course, them. those that i heart at this moment ",

i hate gudbye.
and yeah, one of my fave phrase, people always leave.

next week gonna be a tough week. ohh~
baju raye pon x beli agi. apela nasibku..
busy with my freelance job yg tgh kejar dateline.
ngan nk settle kan students carrymarks.
pastu dgn my master application, 15th sept due date.
ohh. dahla remeh tul nk kene anta tuh neh byr agi.
bru pas isi borang. upenye mcm2 agi kne wat. ohh~
bile ntah nk settle. huu~ n one more, aku tak amek
agi exam toefl,ielts. leh ke apply master? :-?







ps: he waved and smiled from faraway. and aku tahan je nk nanges. tibe2 teringat first time mengajar dia kat lab. uhuh. and i'm gonna miss his handwriting saying "i will smile" on his paper.
ohh. i'm being so melancholic rite? T.T

T.T

rili, deep down inside..
i cried out loud inside.

dunno how to put into words.

tomolo is the last one.
the last gudbye i've to go through.

ohh~~

luckily there's cik som.
i guess whenever in days ahead,

i'll be missing them badly,
i'll just write some of the precious memories i had with them..




their smiles made my heart smiled,

i meant every word.

mereka =)

a great day with them :) :) :)

i enjoyed their presentation.

i rili do. thanks for all the laughter ^_^

i'll cherish the memories in heart.

rili gonna miss u people T.T

my days won't be the same anymore...

without you guys~



happiness,

the sound of their giggles ",

c e a::

cause: a dream filled with hatred.

effect: emotion disorder.

action: reading through older posts.


it's ONLY a dream.
but hey,
it had already became a reality.

hi sept.

dari section ke section
finally, baru jumpe jua aiskrimku.

dari jam ke jam
finally, baru finish donlod flash CS5.

hari yg bukan merdeka bagi aku.
selagi kerja freelance neh tak siap,
mmg terseksa. argh.
hari merdeka pon kene gi kerje, tak merdeka lah kan?

hari yg pnuh ngan tekan emergency brake.
sila salahkan mereka yg bodoh2 kat jln raya tuh.
mmg bodohla kan ade patut tibe2 benti kat tgh2 jalan.
mmg benti tak bersebab.
ngok! nak kata P tak pulak. adoi.

dahla.
mahu buka fridge.
dan mkn aiskrim yang i so am
craving for since last nite
and abeskan marking paper.
another nite of staying up.
as always.
dari jadik student smpai jadik
pekerja yg tak dijaga kebajikan
oleh majikan. oops.
mmg takde rehat.
xyah cite bykla.
date konvo da kua.
thesis hardcover tak buat2.
bile ntah nak submit.
procrastinate. err, yang tak sengaja ok. hee :p

byk plak aku bebel kat cik som neh.
tersgt penat kot.
mane lagik nk ngeluh kan. sineh la tmptnye.
maaplah kalo readers yg bace pon
turut penat membace.
kalo tak suke sila jgn view dan bace hingga akhir.
haha.

terasa mcm nk akhiri ngan pantun.
jgn gelak ok, ini amatur nye version.

kais pagi makan pagi
kais ptg mkn ptg
kalo da kawan pon tak sudi
ape kes asek singgah dan dtg?

pagi yg terik
mlm yg gelita
aku da serik
silalah jgn buta

enjin kete kadang mampus
tuan drebar suka cuak
silalah berambus
aku da muak.


new month,

the same 'ol me.