urgent!

hey all!

mish writing here A LOT. haha
been super bz lately.
byk nk update. tapi later la ek?
pas abes those so-called 'a-word-per-day-message'. haha :p

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it's urgent btw..
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tah pape kan? hee :p

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haha. layan jelaa..~

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agile. bile nak siap? haizz..~

hi..

tadik tibe2 pening kpala..
haha. tibe2 ker?
mane tak pening. asek pk mende bukan2
sape suruh kan. haha.
ape lg hobi terbaru bile pening.
dlu tdo. skrng shower! haha. kata musim paneh. hee~

waa...
stress..
keje tak siap2..
haha.
tuh pon nak post kan..
rasenye tak tdo la pg neh..
esok sy mahu pegi class..
tamao ponteng dah.
tadik ptg abah pesan

abah: ati jgn ponteng lagi tau. takot nnt nama kene blacklist lak. dahla last sem neh.

atie: yer. yer baek. da insap da neh. heeee~

sian plak kalo x gi kelas fyp sok..
rituh dahla lecturer aku tuh backup student agi..
student tuh a.k.a yg tak dtg...
2 org jek dtg..
yg len lesap. termasok aku..uhuh~
pastu ade mcm org dtg observe tnye mane yg len..
sian lecturer aku....seb bek dia sgt baek hati.
siap backup lagi...kate student yg len xde mslh fyp. hee.
*terharu*
so, tanak dahla ponteng class dia. sbb dia sgt baek hati. hee :D

end of hols~

hey all,

da abes countdown holiday ends.
ohh my.
i actually waited from the first day till the last day.
i just wanna keep my word.
well. how could i?
holiday da abes.
so better i lupekan jek..
da takdir.. hee..~

tibe2 rase nak berkarya..
haha. mcm la pndai sgt..
belasah sudey..
layan jela ek..~

a heart is only for a single soul.
a pure-hearted soul.
my soul had already been contaminated.
not as pure enuf anymore.
that is exactly why not even a single heart
is here in my soul. not even mine. coz i gave it away
for quite sumtimes now. it is so hard for me to let go.
it's sumthin way precious to me. yet, i never regret giving it away.
coz i knew it is at a safe special place. inside a single soul.
one which i trust more than my soul. how can i not be?
i took the risk on giving it away, right?
and everyday, i kept pondering on
is my heart okay? does it beat normally? ~~
how i wish.. i get at least a clue of...... that it beats..~

ohh. i need a donor. sape nak derma? hee :p

210210 - it'd been a YEAR ",

W U H J 1 2?

4 letters..
2 numbers..

haha. mcm ape je.
tak. sbnrnye nak cite.
keenam keypad tuh adelah milik lappyku..
unforch, all six of 'em da selamat tercabut
drpd badan lappynyer..
da bleh maen scrabble lak..huhu :p

sape punye keje?
tak laen tak bukan. anak sedara saya lah.
haha. mereka mmg sunggoh nakal.
seb bek la lappy tuh pon mmg
da agak uzur. so saya tak bape kesah..
huhuu~
emm, bleh ke attach balik?uhuh~~

btw, today's a big day
for that little kiddo yg merupakan salah sorng yg responsible
wat lappy aku cacat tuh. hahaa..

it's Baby Aashir's 1st Burfday =)
big day ke? huhu
tuan punye badan pon x ngerti lagi
arini ari lahir dia. huhuu~

hepi 1st bufday Acir =)
Love, Maksu ",

sape nak lukiskan pelangi tuk saya? hee~

morning!

it's kind of an early post..
i even took a shower at very early in the morning today.
diz is rare. especially on a weekend. ohh. it is so hot nowadays. i just couldnt stand the heat. huhuu~ jom terbang gi Russia nak? sana tgh sejuk. hee :p

tatau la nak cite ape..
emm..
haa..
arituh kan saya bru beli crayon kan..
well..
it's my drug now..
i love it so much~
haha. mcm budak skolah jek. nak color ape ntah aku neh. hehe :D

bila masa aku doodle with the crayons?

bila aku gembira..
bila aku sedih..
bila aku marah..
bila aku bosan..

sangat satisfied lah tgk byk2 colors. hehe.
bile life aku nak color mcm tuh ek?
ehh. da colorful dah..
cuma..
a bit fickle jek..
siang jek pnoh ngn color. malam. hmm~ dan2 ilang ke mane.
mmgla malam kan gelap. hitam je arr tinggal. haha~

wah sama! i used to hav the exact one masa kecik dulu. heee~~

back in here~

hey..

i am back in here..
here..
where..
in this prison of mine..
my freedom ends few hours ago..
well..
looking forward to another freedom again..
i'll just be hoping soon..

ohh. how longer do i hav to wait?
June. June. June.
plz hurry.
another few months.
i hope i wouldnt be burying
myself here for the sake of waiting insanely..
ohh. patience. can be so...tough? huu~



ps: merepek. takpe tak phm. tanak bg sape phm pon.saje nak ease the pain inside. uhuh. hanya Hazrati, hatie, atie je yg paham..~

bad day~

hello..

yes. it's one of my bad day..
dun wanna make a big fuss about it..
luckily, the minute I AM SO PISSED OF..
my torrent downloader popped out.
noticing me smallville has finished downloading.

bile tgk my heart-throb CK tuh..
okayla sket mood..
episode pon besh :)

nasib bek laa..
kurangkan untuk mencarut dah termasuk dlm
azam aku thun neh..
kalo x...tatau lah.. uhuh. my bad~

to all my readers..
please lah..
jgn terasa or what so ever...
saye takde pon taruk nama n said out loud kutuk bagai kan..
so..
please...jgnlah sape2 terase..
and tulun jgn kutuk saya di sineh..
coz obviously ppl will know..sape yg ditujukan utk..
coz sayalah pemilik blognye kan...
saya pon tanaklah satu dunia bace bad things bout me..~~

i am sorry~
i am sorry~
i am sorry~
lastly, thank you
for respecting my memory..~~
i'm glad my writings
had rang ur bell..~
and i got the respect. it's enuf. tqvm =)




this so-called 'do-u-hav-to-stoop-so-low' action, coming from sumone u still heart. it is a rili heartache. i cried out loud inside. as always tq for the blood of tears..~

Domino's @ 12:28 pm

it's a new day.
seems ordinary to me..
in daytime will be colorful.
when night comes. all of the sudden
will be colorless.
so, it's an ordinary day la kan? huu~

i juz got back..
had lunch with Kak Tny@ sec 9.
kami makan pizza!
dia yg tibe2 craving for pizza.
i was like..emm tanak pizza hut leh?
kite makan Domino's nak?
so she's like. WOKAYH! lama kot
x makan domino. hehe. dulu masa
umah kat sec 8 slalu la makan. sbb dekat. huhu~
kesimpulannya, lunch aku for today sgt menyelerakan. hahaa :D




ps: i usually smiled. everytime i stopped by. and looked. okay. i'm relief. i'm glad. despite everything that had happened.it is still there. it is always there. but now, it is still there. only the feeling of mine had changed. coz the story behind had changed. ohh. i so dislike changes =(

ttd.

hello..

my things-to-do list sgt sgt sgt pjg.
jap nak cek. bape da siap.
uhuh.
satu pon blom.
haizz.
troknyer.
tapi tulah.
tanye classmate len.
ape yg da siap?
as usual. standard jwpn student.
satu pon lom. HAHA :p

tak kesahla kiteorg neh last semester student ke ape ke.
yg pasti tak insaf2..drpd mula2 jd student. smpai da
tinggal bape mngu jek agi neh nk grad...still.
gitu lah. sokmo gitu. huhuu~
apela nasib kiteorg naek cuti neh. smyang hajat ek u all! huhu~~


ps: tgh terhegeh wat la neh. huhu. sape2. tulun siapkan? plz. plz. haha :D

69.3 KB~

haa..
kan da kate ade entry lagik...
sah la kan..
mlm neh mereng..
eh. bukan tiap2 mlm ker..
uhuh~

i am pissed at the moment.
i am depressed at the moment.
i am feeling of cursing here and there.
but for what?
nak lepaskan tensen? emm tak perlu kot..
tak perlu tuk saya mencarut mcm dulu lagik..
saya pon mahu menjadi a better me..
kalo i keep on using harsh words..everytime i pissed..
ape different nye saya skrng dgn saya yg dulu..
susah nk ubah. sy tau. tp sy cube tuk kurangkan..~

eventho i cant get the happiness..
but couldnt i get at least a respect?
plz respect my memory. altho it's past.
nama pon memori. mestilah yg dah berlalu.
still it's mine. mine. mine. actually, it's ours. kalau ye pon
not so precious to sum people..it is so precious to me..
so please..
respect my memory..it is the only thing i hav. juz memory. so plz..~
i noe i dun own the single jpeg. i didnt even create it.
but i own the memory. i made it happen. because of
my words. my phrases. my honest feelings. then barulah
that jpeg came in picture. and yes it hurts to see it today.
even so that jpeg is meaningless to sum people..
then juz delete it. i never force anyone to reminisce my memory.
but...by seeing..my memory..turned out to be another memory of
sumone else's happy days. ohh. huu. it is pedih. coz it's mine. mine.
from the start. my memory. our memory. kalo lah tersgt lah amnesia kan..
bleh je tgk kat blog neh punye past entry. to be exact. the title.
'another jiwang post.haha' so it is mine. tulun la respect.
kan dah bahagia buatlah kenangan baru. please dun use my memory.
now that memory seems meaningless..not to me...to that sumone..
i sgt kecewa..coz...it doesnt reminded of me dah...

mmg i make a big dealkan? after all it's only a single jpeg.
but to me..it is a HUGE deal. i have a heart. i guess..that sumone forgot bout that fact.
so xpyhla tnye lagi whether the footmark already fades or not...
obviously...it has faded for that sumone..
sampai dia heartless sgt utk even to juz respect my memory
when we used to be us..~
and yg paling devastated nyer..
i...maseh buta kot. dat sumone hurt me like hell. still. i waited for another couple of days..
coz i'm a person who kept my word. i said yes. so i kene fulfillkan..
unlike him..i dunno..if there will even be a ring/text from him for another couple of days
to fulfill his words..so if there's no ring or text.. that means he is a man of no words~

i talked bout him constantly..
and yes..i byk mengeluh here in shadows of mine..
tapi...i never reveal his identity...
sbb i tanak mengaibkan dia..
tak perlu...even he hurt me badly..
tak pernah ade pun sket perasaan
tak puas hati...atas ape yg terjadik..this is when the
word redha plays a major role...
so i harap....that sumone..plz erase all of ur tak puas hati kat i faraway please..~
coz obviously....everytime i triggered ur mind. surely only two words popped out.
sakit hati. betulkan? i mmg pandai teka. haha. mcm pelik jek. coz everytime
he triggered my mind. only one word. sarangheyo~
yer aku mmg pelik. i am a freak. period.

jom pegi usha web kelip2! hee~

hello reader semua..

arineh. ehh. malam neh. saya tak berapa betul. a.k.a insane-lah.
so mungkin sat2 lagik ade lah entries masok agi...huhuu~
sume kerana ape?
kerana 69.3KB... aper tuh? tuh cite satgi lah..

now nak cite psl arini...saje nk coolkan mood..
cite psl colorful day arini dlu..
bukan tanak tulis dlm diary..
ari2 sy tulis diary...
sbb da x muat..space dia tak cukop tuk
sy bebelkan memori2 yg ader..hee~
jadik. di bloglah kite type..

tadik bgun pg2 bute...watpe?
pi mcD...
i've a rili splendid happy moments..
having breakfast with my sweet darls =)
sgt sonok..
sbb rinduuuu :p
fara ajak i pegi maen ice skating...ohh. sgt nak lah!
tapi..i'd to decline..sbb she invited me mmg last minute..
how can i go..i've to spend the day with Aisar at my home today..
emm ape wat kat mcD...makanlah! hehe. set big breakfast yg sgt lazattt~~
ingat nak order hotcakes jugak. ohh yup. i am a pancake lover!
tapi cukoplah big breakfast tuh. duit pon bukannye byk sgt i neh. huhuu~
kiteorg discuss psl farewell getaway eh ker farewell trip? huu mane2 lah.
looking forward to it! korang decide btul2 tau. nak murah kene booking
tiket kelip2 cepat. baru ade duit nak byr. haha :D

i tapowkan my kembar tuh set yg sama jugak..
arini lepak je ngn dia kat umah...
membuat kerja umah. haha.
mengemas, membasuh, memasak, etc. well, dia tulun tgk je arr. ahaks. sbr je arr~
paling best berfesbuk dgn dia. haha. kelaka lah. tgk blk dak2 skola nye profile..
pastu gelak2. a.k.a sesi ngata. haha. jahat gile.
lupe. my sis came by jugak. dia mmg ade hal kat s.a...so she juz dropped by for awhile..~

mlm..a.k.a skrng lah..
a bit depressed. as always la kan..
tapi ntah..a bit pissed kot..
next entry okayh..~

t w o

i've two homes.
i've two bedrooms.

i've two great sisters.
i've two kind brothers.

i've two nokia cellphones.
i've two bantal bushuks.
i've two computers.
i've two flash drives.

i've two eyes.
i've two ears.
i've two hands.
i've two foots.

i've two dream jobs.
i've two dream cars.

i've two months left to grad.
i've two days left before the hols ends.

eventhough only TWO days left.
and i know it will end soon just as i expected to be.
still.
i want to wait.
because i always kept my word..~

apekah?
haha. takde idea mau post aper..
tapi nak jugak tulis...
saye sunyi. kembar saya tak teman mlm ini.
tuh yg menaip je keje.
bile sy berkarya. ehh. karya ke? ke membebel? haha
sy dpt melupakan yg saya keseorangan. huhu..~
sbb tuh sy sgt syg blog sy..
jadi blog, silalah baek pd saya yek. haha :D

s_ r_ _ g_ _ y _~

exhausted.
dehydrated.
in
the
trail
of
searching
for
the
light.
will
just
keep
the
eye
close
as
close
as
i
can.
seeing
the
world
through
your
eyes
hurt
terribly.
being
blind
is
better
than
getting
the
eye
dried
with
blood.
trust
me
it
is
so
not
nearly
as
much
fun
doin
it
daily.
i
noe
one
day
the
outcome
will
be
tired.
boredom.
i
will
wait
for
that
day
patiently.

color merah ade. color putih ade. eh dua je ke?

i'm proud of me..
i havent text 'stupido' at all today..
i guess i'm preoccupied entertaining my sweet darl, Aimi
here at my home ",
but i doubt that it wont be any..
i'm pretty sure tonite i'll be texting a few..
huu~
dat's juz me..
again n again..~
i'll try to forget...
but as u can see..
i naek rakit...so agak lmbt..
kalo naek jet..cepatlah lupe. haha.
metaphor yg sgt tak seswai. hehe :D

been spending times with her today.
we had lunch together. and then she came by to lepak ",
we didnt do nything actually...
juz LAUGH. haha. seriously. it's like
there's nutin to talk about. but there's PLENTY to juz laugh our heart out. hahaa.
mmg mereng kami neh kan? huhuu~

she went back to college after maghrib..
so since she paksa me to walk her down the bus stop..
how can i resist...she's my bestie. huhuu~
so i juz teman her...a bit scared. haha me as usual la.
nak lalu lorong kegelapan tuh. huhu..
am glad i safely got home walking by my own..
and seriously...only him was on my mind the whole
time i walked. and as usual. i tried hard not to ring him...
and juz continue walking...huu~~

tonite i spent the nite with my bestie, Aisar..
glad she could make it for a sleepover =)
another episode of the giggles and laughter.
ohh my! my day are so filled with colors~~~ ske ske =)

esok pagi another to-be-colorful moments
with my sweet darls!
planning on having breakfast in the morning together ",
so, hash brown. here we comeeee~~ weee :)




ps: sgt colorfulkan hidup saye ditemani all of my sayangs..hee..if only none of them were gone. i'm sure it'll be an eternal colorful. kan? tapi takdirkan. kene watpe. ape lagi. redha, bile ade yg terpaksa hilang dlm hidup . kan kawan2 kan? huu~

everyday? wah. like i dunno la kan. hee :p

up until today i still tak percaye.
aper? emm..
did i juz doodle ade-diz-one-karya-yg-cute for real?
cute-lah! reminded me of my artwork in first grade. haha. so maknanya buruk-lah kan? haha :p
haha. tuhla hasil kerja selepas membeli krayon smlm. huhu.
mmg ade niat nk upload gmbr. tp tulah. da try amek gmbr smlm.
tp camera hp aku neh wat hal. huhu. sy tiada digi cam yek. arap maklom. haha~
jd tak dapek ler nak share ngn u all karya itu. hee~

what am i doin rite now?
breathing freely. YES. AT LAST. FINALLY.
haha. but not for long. only a couple of days..
that's enuf. i kan bukan greedy. haha. yeker?

ohh. sumthin bothered me.
so bleh tak.
nak wat announcement kat sineh.
ckp kuat2 terang2.
bg sume phm. mcm rmai sgt. haha. tulun ah hatie. ngada jek :p

eventho dekat fb i hide my status.
dat doesnt mean.
i am single, in a rship, it's complicated, married, widowed @ les? haha :p
at the moment.
i juz wanna be by myself. baper lama..ehmm..nanti saya ketuk hati saya tnye ek. huhu :D
so go hit on other gurls okayh. heee~
tak berminat langsung even for a scandal. ohh. i nvr believe in dat word. huhu~

okayh lah!
arineh ade lunch date ngn sweet darl, Aimi =)
better get ready now.
hee. *excited*
sbb i missed her so much. haha ",

calendar == elevator

i am immature.
you are immature.
i am standing at the same spot.
but, you are standing at the other spot.
so..
it's the end of my career..
being a lifesaver.
being a stalker.
ohh man!
i'm jobless now. haha.
need to look for a new job.

haa. uitm da kuar iklan jawatan kosong.
ape lagik..nyone out there yg nak mohon..
silalah ke website uitm yek..hee :p

saya nk mohon bleh tak? pkai diploma punye. huhu~
rase mcm nak keje plak. ohh. master. maap yer..
currently mcm takleh nk concentrate ke study..
maybe few years later kite ketemu yek.
hee. but dunno. sume atas rezki..
kalo rezki master. then berjumpalah kite..
leh tak, nak dua2? huhu. kerja n blaja. syiok sket..
ade duit. haha. leh pegi bercuti-cuti. keliling dunia. heee~~

right at diz moment....
i rili cant wait for a new life to begin..
a bit nervous to step into that life..
well how can i not be? books hav been my
frens since headstart? hee.
so walking into a career life...not so sure how.
but i am eager and anxious to find out.
so, June. plz come SOON.
a new life..
a new place..
a new hope..
a new me..


bleh tak calendar tukar jd elevator?
mcm besh kan..tekan jer 6. chang! tros ke June.
up up and away! HEE :D



ps: i need to change my best friend at the moment. can tears switch with smiles in a blink?

pic credits to: google

kotak hijau penoh.

hello...

sorry guys for the few latest entries..
yes i am fickle-minded..
especially when it comes to the
most favorite person..~
i can laugh. i can smile. i can cry...
all within a blink..~

to get my mind off thinkin or more precisely..
dwelling again and again on the never ending misery..
i went out with my bestie, Aisar :)
i was planning on giving her a treat at the green box..
unforch, it was fulled...
instead, i juz bought her lunch...
and she accompanied me on buying pressie
for my sweet darls ",
ade yg belated, and in advance pnye burfday...
hehe. bru nk bagi..sorry yaa~~

and yeah. lupe. takkan beli pressie tuk org jek..
i got myself a set of crayons! weehee~~
now i can start doodling with it. ske ske =)

so...thanks to her..for a very colorful day for me ",
but still that doesnt change the way i felt..
the minute i stepped into my room..

i guess...
now is a perfect time..
for me to juz delete the so-called '24/7' playlist
i've been listening to all these while..it wont bring me any good nymore..
i will only get myself caught in misery..again n again..~
takpon kan. sng2 campak jela iPod tuh...buang dlm laut ker..haha.
sape nak? cepat2 tangkap. nak baling neh. hehe :p

ac milan ke mu? haha. xde kaitan~

cant sleep tonite..
tgk jela bape byk post mlm neh jer..
haizz..

bru abes chatting with my bff..
luckily dia on9..
tq dear for cheering me up..
as always..~

see..
i hate this..
i hate when i'm being irrational and insane..
i cant stop thinking bout unnecessary matters..
keep dwelling on the past. again and again.
stop it lah.
he's having fun. you ended up being a crybaby..so not worth it..
live ur life with a smile too k!
oklah..
kene try jugak get sum sleep..
tomorow date ngn kembarku itu..sure will be smiling a lot kan. heee :)

the infinith hurts..~

tears
of
blood
run
down
the
face
again
and
again


why? is this my 3rd eye surgery?
well you can put it that way..
only this time..
the hurts are too painful..
although this time..
there aren't even a single machine..
to operate the eye..
yet, it is the painful one ever..~
i wouldn't even bother to wear any bandage
to cover the eye like before..
because..
although it had been covered by bandage..
still..
the blood will run down through the cheek..
non-stop...~

definition of loving...~

cukoplah..
previous entry tadik..
and this song..
to picture my moods at the moment..~~

::you pushed me::

right at this moment...
i am standing at a spot..
at my usual spot..
at the edge of a cliff...
waiting for the perfect moment..
to jump off..
i guess now the time has come..
can i jump now?
ohh wait a sec..
i'm already down here..
you pushed me already...
way earlier before..i didn't even realize when..
i guess...i'm too busy waiting
for the right moment to jump..
i didnt even realize..
you had pushed me far down beneath earlier..
i guess..
i'm the one too blind by the thick haze up there...
and cant really see..
cant look thoroughly..
of what actually had happened..
the actual truth..
of the fact that..
you pushed me..
with no hesitation at all..
thank you for the favor of getting me down here..~

scanner wat hal. xdpt upload photos =(

as i promised earlier..
talking bout my days in PLKN..
i'll make it as short as possible. haha.
yelah. 3 bulan punye experience..
mau tak berjela..kan?
tapi kang berjela-jela org bosan laks. HAHA :D

here goes..
6 years ago..
160204 >> my first day being a 'wirawati'. haha.

everyone from KL and Selangor gathered at Car Park Bkt Jalil...
kat sana kiteorg register then naeklah bus masing2..
over there, i bumped into my skewlmate back in skte..
what a coincidence. haha. tak bleh blah. dah nak bertolak pon sempat agi dia ngutuk
another friend of ours. haha. i still ingt okayh. huhu. lawak r. psl baju pon leh kutuk...
he's juz like dat..suke bahan org. haha :p

saye naek bus plusliner. at that time tuh kire bus baru lah. huhu. sukeee..sgttt sejuk. haha!
bermulalah perjalanan berkorban demi negara yg terchenta neh...heee :p
we were heading to Kem Pinggiran Pelangi, Muadzam Shah Pahang..
a great place with a very nice nice nice people...a month over there doesnt seems enuf for me..
miss dat place so much!
kat sane for a month kiteorg kne stayed tuk kursus fizikal. eh tuh ke ek nama dia? haha. lupelah~ ye kot..
byklah pengalaman suka duka..31 days. tapi memories mcm setahun. splendid isnt it? hee :)

- cikgu2 yg sgt besh. hehe. mereka sgt sporting...probably sbb kiteorg 1st batch kan...so x strict mcm skrng kot. hehe. tenkiuuuu sume ",

- tentmates yg mmg sgt cool =)
haha. mereka neh sgt2 gile. keje wajib hari2. skodeng and diskodeng. haha. tent laki seberang jek ngn ours..pastu kiteorg mcm on the hill dieorg lak kat bwh sket..sah2 la nmpk. haha. takde kejekan...biaselah zaman muda mudi. ehh dah tua ker? haha :p

- groupmate yg mmg awesome! u guys rocks laaa!
yup2. sgt2 awesome. naseb bek dpt ngn sume yg sporting2 n kelaka gile..kalo x confirm
sunyi idop. haha..

- living dlm hutan...well what to say. cool experience! and hey i didnt even hav the chance to meet any hantu. haha. kebal la tuh konon. hahaaa! and plus seriously...even first day smpai last day duk situh...mmg tak terpk pon takot la nk pi toilet ke ape...yelah mmg dlm hutan kan...sbb kat sane byk gile aktiviti kot..so x sempat pk takot. pk penat jekkk..haha..

- dpt result spm kat sineh..PK panggil nama sorng2 gi depan amek..mmg tngu sgt lama. yela rmai kan..
aku dpt ape? haha. xyah la up sineh. suatu ketika dahulu aku sgt sgt tak pndai. huhu~
after that sume sibuk2 dok ngisi borang upu dlm khemah...pening pala nk amek ape..masa tuh tatau agi minat ape..so i men taruk jek 1st choice TESL. haha. mcm tak caye jek..seb bek x dpt. haha

- banyak la mende wat...kawad. tuh mmg wajib. ari2 beribu kali kot. hoho. mmg itam la kan. haha. haa my fave. flying fox! hehe. mule2 takot. pastu terlebih excited. i kne puji lg tau. 'perfect landing'. auwww..hee ske ske~~
paling tak caye.. i dpt naek ade this wall..tak ingat dah nama ape..tp berjaya lah..mcm x caye..sbb memerlukan daya tenaga yg cukop kuat kot..huhu..
monkey rack takyah ckp r...bru 2 bar..dah. tenggelam dlm air katak. euwww~~~
ade sesi msok hutan kot mcm explore race...i ngn my fren sesat. uhuh. my fren neh sakit kaki...so i teman dia..so kind of got left behind others...kiteorg sesat tp kiteorg yg smpai checkpoint dlu. haha. lawak x?
tp kne marah r...sbb team leader x alert ade org left behind..huuu~

- makan. emm mmg mcm food heaven laa..padehal hutan kan? haha. mcm2 ade. kata mkn 6 kali..tuh blom campur our midnite supper a.k.a bukan free. kne belilah. huhu~

- surau ader. mule2 aku rajin gak smyang situh. huhu. mule jer? yelah dah lama2 tak larat mau turun ulang alik ke surau..jauh ngn my tent...so i solat dlm tent jer...heee~

-kne denda xyah ckplah..mcm2 kot kne wat...sbr je r..mmg masa2 camtuh rase nk blk KL jek..huhuu..penah kene berjemur kot kawad time2 panas terik tuh..uhuh

- baju! i love them actually. hee. ade gak seludup bwk blk..hehe. baju PT - physical training. baju celoreng yg belang2 tuh xleh seludup. first time i pkai boots. kaki mmg takyah cite r..melecet ke pe bende sume dah rase..first time pkai ape tuh beret. haha. dlu kat skolah i x msok mende2 yg kne pkai mende tuh...so agak jakun.haha.. it looks nice on me though. hee~

- facilities. emm okaylah! takdelah first class. dah nama pon duk dlm tent. adoi. tp okaylah. ade kipas. ade suis nk charge hp. haha. ade bantal selimut sume...okaylaa~tapi bilik air je r x syiok..mane de shower...style mandi yg rmai2 kat luar tuh...so sape2 yg a bit segan kne mandi dlm toilet r...oh yeah. forgot to mention. air dia pagi2...ya allah. sgt sgt sgt lah sejok. tapi mmg r kne mandi..kate aktiviti byk. busuk kot nnt. haha. tp amoi2 rmai jek x mandi. hehe.

- pagi2 ade senam aerobik. hehe. kuar pagi2 buta. mmg gelap. at 530 kot. huhu. pastu sesi nyanyi..i sgt suke okayh lagu khidmat negara...yg time aku dlu laen sket versinye dgn rite now..dieorg tukar lyric sket n the beat..well i like the ori better! hee~~

- ari2 kiteorg ade byk class gak..haha belaja ape? mcm2 r..kelas navigasi..kelas ape ntah nama..yg mcm bulan sabit merah tuh..pastu classadela mcm2 agi..tak hengat laa..

- aktiviti paling tak besh time kursus kenegaraan. haizz. ramai kot ponteng. termasok aku. huhu. maybe sbb cikgu yg sgt bosan kot..sian dia. dieorg slalu ejek nama dia..tapi poor him..he juz lacks of teaching laa..pastu nak ajar bab2 negara. mmglah. aduhh..tapi ade gak aku pegi. take turn ponteng. haha

- karok! yup we did. sbb our pengarah kem sgt suke karok...so ade la sesi karok. siap ade pertandingan agi. cool tak kem saye? HAHA.

- movies. yup we had that too! tgk kat dewan makan mase weekend...those days sume layan cite hantu. hahah..

- ohh lupe. sesi dlm air. i almost got drowned! uhuh. seb bek ade cikgu ensem saved the day. haha :p
masa tuh ade sesi berkayak. i so want to try. tapi ntah nape. lupe sbb pe. i missed it. waaa~~

- sports pon ade..ptg2 kne gi this mini stadium...and larilah. aduhh~ huhuu

- bersuka ria di pantai ria@ bahagia eh ntah lupe. haha. tp besh r. dpt melepak. ingt senang. after many many many days of kerahan tenaga. hahaa :D

- lupe. kat sana ade diz one lorong. between our tents and dewan makan n surau. huhu. lorong ape. lorong dating mlm2. haha. kelaka kan? tmpt i neh mmg terlebih open kot. bleh cikgu2 tak kesah. aduh. huhu.
haha. seb bek aku tak terjebak . haha. adelah first attempt. eh bukan byk kali lagik ke? haha. then i simply said no. bace x previous post? kan dah kate bru break up. haha. aku dahla lama nak kebah dr demam cinta. HAHA :P so maaf yer pd mereka2 yg i tak pat layan. i like u ppl. tapi wrong timing! hee~

- another one. i had an escape to Kuantan Parade kot. huhu ye ke tuh namanya. hehe. pegi ngn one of my tentmate berdrebarkan bf dia dat time a.k.a abg logistic kat situh..curik2 ke gi? taklah! pengarah kem sndiri bagi pegi. baekkan? haha. mmg la bagi..dah kate spek aku patah..so kne pi wat baru..tapi i was surprised PK kiterog bg pegi ngn abg tuh. haha.

- every ahad parent sume dtg visit...well mine tak dptlah..jaoh kot..so sape2 yg budak pahang dtglah...ape lagik..tumpang mkn laaa..ade skali tuh ade fmly bwk barrel kfc! wow! mmg rinduuuu fast food. hahaa :p
tapi penah la skali abah dtg. tuh pon i pakse. haha ngada kan! mmg r. emergency kot..
ade satu week tuh asek hujan je tak renti...so baju2 aku sidai sume tak kering...and aku da takde baju nak pkai. ahaks. so abah dtg bwk all of my baju dlm almari taruk dlm bonnet. then he bukak bonnet n said..nah pilih la mane2. hahaa..TQ sbb dtg all the way. byk onak duri nak dtg upenye....yela jalan teruk kan nk pegi sane..ehh. mmglah. da kate abah sesat. ntah pi jalan mane2 ntah. huhu. hehe :p

in the end. i met a lot new frens and a rili cool people! they brighten my days kat sane. mmg sgt colorful! haha =)

wah..byknye bebel..
bgos tul blog neh..
neh leh jd database memory aku..
sok dah tua agak2 nyanyuk tak hengat dah..bace je blk. hee :p

ade sket agi nk smbung...
pegi la minum ke ape dlu...
penat kan bace dr tadik. haha.

tadik one month duk hutan..
then the journey of being a wirawati goes on..
a couple of month at Kolej Kediaman Kelima - Universiti Malaya..
KK5 =)

-emm kat sineh..besh..tp mule2 tak syiok sgt..
sbb kiteorg kene pecah group..
dieorg saje nk kasi kiteorg knal ngn org len..
group len..rmate len. uhuh.
tp still lepak ngn membe2 lama..huhu

-ade kursus ape ek..lupe r..character building..and community service..
char build tuh okayh jer..a bit boring sbb duk dlm class jek..
dah r outfit tuh kne pkai ngn kasut cinderella tuh.eii x ske. sakit kaki.
aku belasah je pkai kasut sport. haha.

-comm service besh sket..jln2. wee~~
pegi makan angin. taklah. gi wat keje...

-penah i kne sapu smpah tepi jalan kat tgh2 KL tuh. uhuh..

-pegi cat pagar umah org buta...tgh2 hari okayh. paneh. hahaa.

-pegi hospital ampang puteri..berkhidmat la konon. haha. padehal nyebok jek. huhu :p

-pegi bukit nenas.. watpe ek..lupe r..adela aktiviti tgk2 nama pokok. haha.

-haa paling besh. pi KLCC. first time dpt pi skybridge dia...mmg lah sume manusia n kete2 kat bwh nmpk cam semut jek. hehe..
tuh je kot...lupe la pi mane lagik..

-kat KK5 neh besh gak..eventho kolej UM paling lama...mmg buruk la kan. haha
i had fun there..mkn pon besh..dewan makan sana sineh ade astro..huhu. leh la tumpang 2 mata nk tgk. haha
ade gak mcm bilik tv..tmpt lepak. yeke? ke tempat dating kat sofa belakang tuh. HAHA :p
bilik pon..emm..mcm nak ranap je aku tgk almari dia. haha. ske ati je kutuk. haha. bilik aku 3 org..aku msok lmbt..so katil bwh da ade org chop. haizz. first nite je aku tdo atas. sok2 nye tak dah. angkat tilam tdo bwh. nape? sbb pas bgun pagi tdo kat atas..i kan suke mamai pg2 bute. seb bek la kpala tak terputus. tibe2 terjage n bkk mata. kipas dia sgt dekat gile ngn katil aku. uhuh. alhamdulillah aku tak jadik mangsa kipas. huu~~

-mase kat KK5 ade msok pertandingan..i msok choir. haha. kelaka. x penah2 aku msok choir b4..emm nyanyi lagu ape ek.. Sukiyaki- taste of honey. ehh yekot. huhu. lupe lagik. haha.
mcm2 lah ade..dikir barat..boria..singing. hehe. sonok tgk sume perform. huhu

-kat sineh. besh sbb every week ade org dtg tgk aku! mestilah kan kate dekat. ngada la tak dtg. haha. tak sume dtg skali laa..take turn.. abah..sis. bros. Aisar! hehe she came too. dgn Kak Tny...how i missed my kembar tuh so much..yela lama kan tak jmpe...plus she rili had a rough time those days...and sorry i couldnt be there for u that time dear..so bile sume dtg mesti bwk mcm2 mknn kan! hehe suke2...

-pagi2 besh. sbb ade sesi nyanyi lagu KK5 n lagu len jugak r. tapi ntah nape..sgt suke melody lagu tuh. a bit sayu. but nice~~ pastu sesi naikkan flag and bace ikrar. mmg mase neh. berdoa jela tak terpilih. haha. sbb aku x penah hafal pon ikrar dia. huhu~

-penah gak escape. tapi mase first attempt tuh muke chuak gak..lagi2 nk lalu gate a.k.a pak guard yg mcm penjaga penjara gitu. haha. gi mane? gi umah macik area PJ. hehe. follow kak tny. pegi2 mak uda i terkejut. eh bleh plak kuar2. haha. mane leh. wat2 leh jer..then she hidang me laksa! wah lama x mkn. huhu...~

-lagi satu dpt kuar time intebiu TESL. haha. siap blk umah agi..bleh plak layan cd kuliah cinta. ntah pape. haha. i minat gile erra n yusri la time tuh. hahaa. intebiu kat uitm sec 17..ape jadik ngn intebiu? haha. one word. hampeh. mmg la kot. i havent speak english like for yearssss...n masa skolah bukan mcm univ belaja in english..so mmg sgt tak familiar dah in dat languange...so disbbkan speaking pon tunggang terbalik...i didnt get to be short listed. so i decided to pegi matrix johor to further my studies..a week after abes PLKN..ke Johor la pulak. huhu..tuh another sweet moments...bile ade memory trigger aku cite sal KMJ plak k! hehe~

-time dpt duit. hee. lama da tngu sbnrnye. duit ke? taklah. dia bg yg BSN sijil simpanan premium tuh..haha. duit la kan. dpt sket je..3 rat kot..tak blanje ape pon. i wat belanje nk beli things nak msok matrix. haha.

-ohh lupe. ade gak la graduation kat sineh. hehe. siap sume org atasan pkai jubah UM gitu...ngn ade muzik2 gamelan eh yeke? ntah. so sorang2 bile nama dipanggil naek atas stage amek sijil. hehe i graduated. YAY! haha. abes sudah segala penat lelah jd wirawati. hehe. suke suke. aku berjaya. tanpa masok pital. haha.

-last moments. kat DTC. dewan tak cat. haha. masa neh la gmbr aku msok paper the star. hee front page gitu. huhu..bukan sorang. haha pasan jek. rmai2. bergambar. rmai gak reporter dtg..kate last day kiteog. haha. otw balik umah, singgah petronas. i saw my pic. ape lagik. tros beli lah paper tuh. haha. dlu simpan gak..skrng da ilang mane ntah. huhu..tuh actually 2nd time masok paper. 1st mase kecik. dekat slot salam perantauan. hehe. ngada. padehal bkn student pon. ahh. biar r..dpt gak msok kan paper. heee~~

-so bile da abes 2 bulan...time for us to separate our ways..
sedey gile. mmg nangis laa...last day tuh..
eventho i tak terjebak ngn cinta kontrak. haha. still i sedey..
i've made a lot of frens kat sane...tpi skrng sume da lost contact...carik kat FB
x jmpe2...uhuh. hp i kan org curik...so sume org pnye number lost too..uhuh~

FINALLY...
abes sudah cite psl PLKN...
penatlah type..
nak rest jap.
haha.
hope u guys had fun reading through =)

WK >> Wonder Kid >> Wan Kuzain

cool isn't it?
hopefully that kiddo will hav a rili bright future in soccer =)
btw, i knew his parent. a rili kind one. i'm sure they are
proud of him rite now.. way to go, American-Malaysian Kid!

pnc

i'm not referring to private & confidential..

what i meant was..
people never change~

by people..
that includes me too..

ME.
me and only me.
takkan nak kaitkan org len plak..
kang tak psl2 i kene sue kat court...hah camne? haha :D








mmg never change la kan..
sndri wat decision ntah pape..
pastu sendiri tak reti nak adapt..
bek takyah decide camtuh..
ckp mcm2..ulang byk2 kali..
tapi xde pon change nyer..
tuhla..kan da kate..
beribu kali ckp nk move on..
nak let go..
tapi ade bg chance kat diri sndiri?
takde. takde. all u do..
is whine up and tangle on the past..
over n over again..
bile nk ubah camtuh..
let other ppl in okayh...if not..
you'll never change..~~
haha. neh versi saye ckp ngn diri sendri..tanak ckp sal org len dah. nnt kene saman. susah woo~~ haha :p

tentang blog ini..~

hi everyone..

blog neh direka oleh penulis blog a.k.a akulah. huhu
nama dia 'shadows of mine' sbb...
penulis blog neh..
idop dlm negara bayang2..hee. mcm dialog winter sonata jek :p
[saje je post. iklan jap drpd FYP. haha :D ]


shadows of mine..
lost it's spark..
been a while..
while? i think quite sumtime now~

the spark's gone..
due to the missing..
of a die hard fan..

although..
shadows of mine..
is only a blog..
a place to express the owner's blog feels..
still..
it is actually..
more to it..
if only..
things hadn't changed..
it would be rili glad..
to be the first site a person would visit everyday..~

i know by now..
this blog wouldnt be sparkle enuf as before..
but as the writer..i'll try...
writing as long as i can..
for what? to get the spark back goin on?
nahh..
i wouldnt wanna hope on such a thing nymore..
i'll juz write..
bcoz that is the only way..
for that favorite person of mine..
to always be in my mind..~~






itistrueafterall.uhadmovedon.itumpanggembiiraforu.
wishu'llalwaysbehappywithher..andgoodluckwithurfuture..
whateveritisstudycomesfirst.firstclassokayh?hee ",
ijuzwrite..eventhoidunnowhenu'llbestoppingbytoreadthis..~

tee. tuan puteri. sweet memory :)

aku hanya manusia biasa..
aku akan jerit.
aku akan nangis.
bile aku sakit.
aku hanya insan..
bernama Hazrati..
aku hanya mampu memaafkan..
tapi sukar tukku lupakan..


apelah. intro2 je merepek dah. huhu.
abaikan..~~
smlm terlebey suda teringat kat org yg tak sepatot diingat..huu~
okaylah tutop cite hal dia dia dan dia dan dia lagi. itu je dlm pala
otakku setiap kali tulih blog neh kan. sudah2 laa. haha. tgk merepek agi. huhu :p

ape nak cerita arineh..
xde idea r..
15 feb..hmm..~
ohh. sumthin juz rang my bell. a nice memory ",
thun bile ek..
2004 kot..huhu lupe.
sehari sblom aku pegi PLKN. hee.
tuh another sweet memory. sok i cite kat u all tau. kalo rajin
i upload photos skali k! hee =)

okayh back to 150204..
a day..
i've been waiting..at those times laa..
sumone i like so much kinda confess everything..
and chang!~~ dunia terasa indah gitu. hee~~

so drpd aku excited nak pi PLKN tros tanak pi...
huu. tp terpaksa..
ala zaman skola. apela sgt cinta. takde makne kot.
org couple. kite couple. org clash kite clash. haha. trend. huhu

well ape jadik. i went to PLKN..and rili bz with my tight schedule..
so cant rili like layan my tuan putera tuh 24/7..
ended up we broke up. huhu..~
sedey gak time tuh...
he ended with a text. how i wish he could do it over the line..
nangis la jgk..huu~
aku ape mende yg tak get carried away kan. haha. adelah sehari
ponteng aktiviti...duk dlm khemah..huu..
buat2 demam. haha :D
aku pon x phm..mende la nk sedih sgt..xde ape sgt pon..kelaka
lar...pk2 blk...

skrng he's still my fren..tp mmg jarang gile lah contact..
juz tau wujud dlm FB jek..
huhu..
haa.. bru teringat..
aku ske mula sbb no phone dia..ends with 3786. haha.
bleh la plak..sbb no je kan. huhu..~

dahla. dia bukan bace pon blog aku neh..
bleh je nak kutuk. haha. trok btul..takde r..
xde mende pon nk kutuk..he was a nice guy.
perfect for another nice gurl...i'm happy =)

3D >> die. dead. death

ade sape2 pandai gune 3ds max??
meh tulun..
bkn tulun dah..
buatkan tros i punye fyp bleh?? heee :p

stress..
sadis r..
skills xde..
uhuh..
project nk kne siapkan..
sv nk tgk progress..
waa~~

arini sepjg hari..
well up until now..
been sitting mengadap fyp laa..
what a life..~~
agak2 stress td..
layan smallville...hee. ilang gak r sket tensen tuh..

bff texted.
tues. gonna giv her tips for her ielts exam..
wed. karaoke date. heee. cant wait dear =)

been listening to your guardian angel...
for like..the whole day. haha. lagu lama..
tp ntahlaa..teringat kot..huu~
like i said before..
it would mean a world to me if sumone
can play and sing for me that piece..~
love it so much.
feveret song. great melody. good singer. meaningful lyrics..



takpelah xde org men. nnt aku men sndiri lah. haha. dah pndai men ke gitar? jeng3...haha
nnt da agak terer aku upload sineh arr kasi dedicate kat budak mane ntah. haha.
jgn terkejut. huhuu~ mcm terbalik lak. ptot dia nyanyi kat aku. huhu. pasan sunggoh.
haha. merepek agi kan. okay gotta get back to my forever-years-pain :(

smallville + 3 bro

warriors da abes donlod...tngu mase jek
nak layan my hero CK =)

tadik layan 3B kat kbs..emm..
apelah..dlu bukan men gaduh..
so kite sbg penonton pon sedey..
pastu da nak kawen..
kite pon happy..
pastu dtg pulak..
pelakon bru..
a.k.a bakal jd perosak umah tnga org. haizz.
penonton pon aduhh. bile nak hepi ending neh?
aiyo~

the previous one was solely for me.

the current one a.k.a the comeback is solely for him.

there. the actual truth. huu~

one? apekah? hmm..adelah..jeng3..heee ",

sape2 nak sponsor simcard? hee =)

my days are so colorless..
frenz sume balik hometown..
and me?
stucked in my room. arghh~

today menghabiskan masa bersama YouTube..
layan cite? layan lagu?
haha. no no..~~
is dat all YouTube is for? huhu.
i spent my day learning through YouTube..
tgk tutorials to help me out with my fyp..

late in the evening..
the family gathered..
it's nice ",
spending time with the cute little kiddos =)

i thought of crashing the library tomorrow..
tapi tulah..keje2 aku sume kne gune pc..
nak pi library wat ape kan..
nak study tuk test..hmm..notes pon x print agi..
hampeh kan? haha..nk bwk lappy..
hmm..mcm x idop je lappy aku tuh..terbiar jek atas meja.
huu..sowii~~ been using pc all these while..
tak terjaga dah lappy..sape nak? sape nak?
haha. mcm i sampai hati nk jual..huhu. syg woo~~ sudah tua usianye..
da 5 thon rasenye..huhu..nak rent bleh r. haha. xpenah dibuat org. hehe~

xpelah tgk la camne nnt..nk gi ke x library..
mcm xde life plak kalo cuti seminggu neh
dok dpn pc 24/7. HAHA.
looking forward to meet Aisar, luvly bff of mine tuh..
rituh dia mintak tulun aku with her IELTS exam..
tp bile ntah nk jmpe. huhu..i hope soon! getting bored here
althou bru bape hours cuti. haha.



kak ina gave me back my old cell. well..
the inbox are filled with messages yg tak bape lama dlu..
ouhh~
the minute i clicked the inbox. i smiled. it's been quite sumtime
i heard the 3 precious words..~

rise and shine =)

it's Saturday morning..
my 1st day of mid term break.
time to get out of bed.
and start the day with works! works!
assignments, study for test, fyp are all waiting. HAHA.
talking bout these things rili made me wanna
get back cuddling in my comforter..huhu~~

ehh. sabtu kan? yay!
pasni leh donlod smallville. haha. tuh jugak
yg aku dok ingat. hehe.
pastu mlm neh leh tgk 3B kat kbs. weee~~


every single morning.
the hope died.
by juz sliding through the cellphone..
yet, i'm more than bless..
more than thankful..
coz i'm not dead.
i'm alive..
still breathing..
still holding on..
for how long..
i hope long.
till i can make the most
of my time here in this world
making good deeds..~~

one of my faves, YGA :)

an episode of mickey and minnie mouse~

mickey: really miss u..

minnie: dun be. i'm not worth for u to miss.

mickey: i'll prove u wrong..




words..
are juz words..
in the end..
the dialogue..
are actually..
the other way around..
imu terribly~

his red shoe~

words on my mind at 2 am....

can i feel ur pain?
can i taste ur hurts?
can i drink ur tears?
can i smell ur worries?
can i sense ur sickness?
can i gaze in ur burden?
can i hear ur thoughts?

although my burden are way too hurtful for now..
still...
it'll be great if i get to wear ur shoe for one day..
at least..
i've the clue of ur feelings even for only 24 hours..~





dun wori..
i'm more than sober to realize..
i dun fit in ur shoe..
i can never be..
but i'm glad..
knowing..
sumone else fits in it..
happy for u ",

mane kapak? nak kne ketuk again-lah! huhu~

i had awoke from a nested dream half an hour ago..
nested dream? dreamed in a dream. haha. pndai2 jek bg nama nested.
yelaa. mcm if dlm if. jadik nested if. huhu. sape x amek programming
wat2 phm2 je arr. haha :p

mmg mcm real. smpai bile da bgun..aku terpk blk..eh tadik tuh real ke ape?
hahaa..yela mule2 mimpi scene jumpe org..excited gak r..
pastu bru sedar tuh mimpi jer..bkn real..
pastu scene bgun tdo, sms la kat org tadik tuh tanye ehh, btol ke kite jmpe tadik? sbb x caye kan..
mcm mimpi..
last2..upenye..yang sms tuh pon MIMPI lah! haha. bukan real pon..huhu..

kesimpulannya, tak jumpe. tak sms. sume mimpi belaka.
ended up me awaking in..
a bit irrational and insane..
thinking bout org tadik dlm mimpi tuh..
ape aku buat?
texting to 'stupido'...
listening to 'i live my life for u'..
here, updating my blog..
pasni nak take a shower..
in hoping..
it'll all go away...
away...
dreams are juz dreams..


b4 i take a nap juz now..all i could ever think of are my FYP and those overloads of work all of my lecturer kesygan kasi..yup. a bit stress today. but ended up me dreaming of u. again and again...i guess...although the mind tried to get rid of u..still the heart always trigger a memory of u thus, making me dreamed of u..~

ice-skating postpone.. T_T

sunggoh panas yah kat luar!
ahaks. mmg r. sah2 la tgk la jam kul baper. huhu.
td tngu bas agak lama. maybe sbb org pi smyng jumaat kan..
uhuh. so dikesempatan itu adela aku berkenalan ngn sorang budak neh..
dah bosan. aku ringankn jela mulut bertegur sapa. huhu

cite punye cite. psl pe? emm. psl study laa...dia nmpk aku pegang buku
3ds max. dia tnye la mende tuh..dia plak dok ngadu la kat aku psl
java. pastu bru aku pasan dia pegang buku OOP..dia bru je part 2...
n sgt x suke java..so tnyela aku psl java..
aku ckplaa..dun wori..lama2 nnt okaylah..mule mmg ssh. ape2 pon kan..
last2 sng jer. heee :p

smpai atas bus cite lagik. haha. mcm2 dia cite..aku kan ske bertanye..dia plak melayan..huhu
tapi out of sume discussion tuh. dialog di bwh adlh feveret aku. HAHA :p

girl: laa..awak neh akak ke? sorilah. x pasan. tgk muka sebaya jek..
aku: huhu. xpe2. adek neh bape umor?
girl: saye 20..

* haha. i get that a lot. saje nak up muda kat blog sndiri. weehee =) *

arini hari yg ditunggu-tunggu..
knapa? aku nk pi konsert FT Aizat CT ker?
haha. taklah. i wish i hav the chance. tp xde sape
nk sponsor tiket. huhu. tngu gak kot2 ade yg hulurkan. haha. pasan :p

aku tngu sbb x sbr nak CUTI..
sok start cuti. YAY!
yeker yay? emm..
td bru pas jmpe sv. mmg dan2 la kne basuh sume..
uhuh..fyp..fyp..
ckp psl my Forever-Years-Pain tuh..ohh.
mmg cuti neh. kene la siapkan.
plus homework yg mcm2 tuh
pon kne gak. haa...lupe naek cuti test pon ade gak. adehh~
kesimpulannye holiday = masa siapkan keje. bukan cuti bersuka ria ek. T_T
huh!
sgt tak besh :(


ps: arineh muka diana dicapapkan (btol ke eja? hhaha) kat bulletin board. huhu. nak je aku tag kat FB. tp confirm mengamuk setahun ngn aku nanti. HAHA :p my sweet darls! ice skating postpone bile? next week? next two weeks? uhuh~~

burfday gal. burfday boy.

it's February!

11th Feb = Hepi 24th Burfday to Aasiah!

my ex-roomie back in KMJ =)
a cool-to-be doctor.
good luck for everything dear!

12th Feb = Hepi 25th Burfday Din!

one of my feveret cuzzy ",
it's been a long time since we met up and catch up..
whatever u're doin now, good luck for ur future!

lagenda pkai baju batik! suda jd staffkah?

hey..

i'll make diz short.
kinda exhausted today..
my day went well..
daily routine as a student..
today ade incident kat tangga
bukit tonggek tuh.
agak sadis gak la tgk mamat tuh..
sian dia..penat sgt kot naek tangga yg
a.k.a mcm batu caves tuh. huhu.
smpai dia sesak nafas gile2..
terduduk dia. n membe dia kne papah
all the way up..
asthma perhaps? i dunno. but i do pity
juz seeing him sitting down at the stairs..
holding his heart..and try to breathe ..huu~
whoever u are..hope u'll be fine..
and avoid la from taking those stairs
kalo mmg takleh tahan..~

had a heart-to-heart conversation
with my bestie. i'm rili glad she's happy =)
made me ponder awhile after lepak-ing with her..
would i want my future to be like that?
fighting for sumthing that isnt mine?
or should i juz follow her footsteps..
and keep on driving to the road of uncertainty happiness
which actually are the happiness that guarantees a bright future....guarantee? there's no such thing rite. huhu.well..time will tell~~
peningkan bace? takpelah..only dia dan saye yg phm. haha

starting to ramble la neh. aduh.
kata td nak make it short.
last2 pjg jugak bebel. huhu :p

lupe. td blk. jln2 otw ke umah.
tibe2 mcm tersedar. mcm mane ek nk describe..
haa..mcm amek kapak pegi pukul kepala sndiri..gitu ahh. haha.
pukul bkn sbb nk commit suicide ke ape.
sbb nk bg sedar yang hello, this is the 21st century. anything is possible.
anything. so quit thinking of the how, why and what....u wont get the answer
anywhere..u'll be wasting time only..searching for answers that actually dun matter at all..~

i'll live well. i talked like diz. bcoz now i'm being rational and sane. well, u might nvr noe..
probably for another couple of hours i'll be turning the opposite way.
so being in mental state of insane and irrational sucks big time..
coz where would u find me by then? simple. nowhere~and..needing u always~
so back to the whole me having to find another kapak to hit me bagi sedar balik..
and again. the routine goes on..every moments~~
ohh. how i am tired.
lama2 kepala pon pecah tros.
asek kne pukul ngn kapak jek. hahaha :D



ps: arineh mlm jumaat. pegilah surau tuh. jgn lupe bace Yaasin tau! recite it for sumone i truly love okayh..i weren't telling u bout 0111 for no reasons. i told u so dat u'll rmbrr that person too every single time u prayed. a surah is always a gift for that luvly person of mine..tq~

sejenak..~

ape yg sejenak?
intro lagu laa...hee~
i heard diz one particular song..
for quite sumtime..
non stop..ehh yeke. mcm tipu la plak. haha.
xde la non stop sgt. adela stop sket2. hee.
ade plak dlm hp.. xpasan selama neh..
lagu lama. tp aku suke sbb..
penyanyi dia nyanyi sedap-lah! haha :D
huhu. sbb lirik dia kene sgt kot....
ngn my emotion all these while.
lagu aper?
adelahh..
haha. mengada. bek takyah post. heee :p

tgk. entry pagi2 buta neh..
melalut2 merepek ntah pape2..
sape2 yg tanak bace
atau benci ke bace
atau meluat ke
silalah layari blog laen..huhu.
saye sbnrnye ngntuk..
tapi kne siapkn asemen yg nk submit sok.
haizz. later y'all~~




jenguk. jenguk.
tipulah x jenguk langsong.
tapi da kurang la jenguk.
sbb tanak jd minah perasan. huhu.
what a coincidence.
i heard the same song too.
huhu~
sape tiru sape neh. haha :p

P = F/A [ingat x? fiziklah! hee]

pressure.
tekanan.
huhu.
samalah tuh.
sakit kepala lah.
kenape.
ohh.
kenape.
aku neh men sukati jek.
haizz.
mende penting.
wat remeh.
aduh.
apela nasib.
kecewa sesgt dgn diri sndri.
huh.
life as a student can sumtime be terribly PAIN.



howiwishyouwereherewithme.
ohh. hatie!
wake up!
this isnt a dream. it's reality. ohh. rili? okay~

ohh. grow up hatie.

i hate her.
no.
i hate me.
i dun hate her.
no.
i dun hate me.
i hate her again.
no.
i hate me again.
why?
because
i am
not matured enuf.
i can never be.
if
only
i can
stop being a
crybaby..~~~

kami bersuka-ria! next week...cepat-lah dtg!

introducing...the kebayan's family. huhu :p

empat hitam. dua putih. heee~~

ohhhh. melts my heart big time! haha :D

lunch juge disponsor. hehe. THANKS =)

treat of the day for all of us. BR. thank youuuuu!

kami. kami. kami.

nice day out!
memorable one.
cant wait for our next one...
u guys colored me. da mcm rainbow hatiku
bile having FUN with all of my favorite person. HEE =)
looking forward for diz weekend!

100210~

cantikkan no kat atas neh?
saje je aku pilih date yg lawa
utk ape?
xde ape.
juz to dial a number.
nnt sng nk ingat..sbb date lawa.
100110. lawa lah kan. 100210. 100310. bile2 pon.
lawalah. xde kaitan haha :p

a month.
31 days.
since
i heard.
i listened.
to the
voice of heart.
for the last time.
started with the heart beats rapidly fast.
and me sighing inside all the way
from beginning till the end.
which ended up with
a heartache.
why?
because
of one word.
unappreciated.

even for a finale one. yes. dat deaf version of me is still on. haha.
nak wat camno. huhu.
so since takde sapela yg rajin nk ulang byk
kali bagi aku neh dgr, better aku lah yg letak.
huhu. sng je kan. haha :D
segan kot nk suh ulang.
dahla the person on the line was so reluctant to speak.
neh aku nk suh repeat laks. huhu
confirm tak dilayan. ahaks~

ps: knape singgah tapi tak berkata. mesti tatau nk kata ape kan. eh tak suh kata pon. suh type jek :p

renungkan..~

sungai dalam laut..

nak tau lebih lanjut mengenai keajaiban kekuasaan Allah ini?

ohtidak.com

tazkirah sejenak..

everyday we live.
everyday we breathe.
everyday we smile.
what if one day.
we can no longer live like usual?
we can no longer breathe normally?
we can no longer smile at all?
no matter
which of those conditions
leads our future ahead..
we must not forget to
be grateful..
for everything..
despite it is happiness..
or sadness..
because..
both of the feelings..
are the precious gift Allah gave us..
because He loves us. Always~
Alhamdulillah~~

remember time do not await us.
once the heartbeat stop beating.
it's an eternal goodbye for this world~
do what is right.
do what is necessary.
when there is still time.
in order to strive for the rewards.
Allah promised all of us.
InshaAllah~~

KP yg baek hati. saye careless. maap ya..

hey all,

arineh i rasmi kasot baru..
haha. baru ke?
tak-lah!
baru BASUH. heee :p

saye pegi skola everyday, kalo x ponteng lah,
pkai kasut croc warna putih..
dgn satu button bunga pink belah kanan. satu belah kiri.
nnt nk beli lagiklah button chomel2. hee~~
disbbkan da kotor n tibe2 mood rajin dtg..
i basuhla last weekend..
tak saba nk rasmi smlm..tapi i skipped class kan. again? huh.

arineh kwn2 saya puji. putihnye kasot! hee. ske ske~~
haha.
apelah. post psl kasot. adoi..
maaplah..pala otak x btol sket tika saat ini. hee.
inspirasi. ohh. dimane kamo sorok. says perlukan kamo.
i meant NOW. huhu..

oklah..i wanna go ring company2 yg malang right now..
nk tnye sal prac lah ape lagik. huhu.
nak ckp ape ekk..
Hello, emm..emm *speechless* haha :p
saye kan tak pndai speaking mcm u all. haha. mengada jek :D

ptg neh kak tny dtg nk bwk i pegi psr mlm..
yeah..mencarik juadah berbuka. huhu.

dahlah. kang lmbt2 org blk keje lak..
aku tepon kang xde sape nk layan. hehe.
em nk tepon company mane ek dlu...hmm..ntahlaa~~

ps: gitar. gitar. gitar. tuhla dlm pale otak aku skrng neh. ade bakat ke aku jd guitarist? haha :p
lupekan hal gitar jap. ade mende agi penting neh. bru sedar neh. aku lupe nak validate subject!
waaa~~~dah tutop pon. dia bg mase seminggu.aku tatau ape pon.tuhlaaa..careless agi.
uhuh. camne neh..waa..aku nk amek exam..huhu. harap2 sok jmpe KP dia x marah laa..

malam ini..~

Tuhan kirimkanlah aku,
kekasih yang, baik hati,
yang mencintai aku,
apa adanya..

above are the few of the lines from
Munajat Cinta lyric...
it kinda got stuck in my head
for awhile. huu~

i can move on.
i will move on.
i wanna move on.
i hav faith in me.
i believe me.
me who?
the gurl who is hard in letting go.
will try hard to
move on..
altho i am reluctant to do so..~~

posto! posto!

hello everyone,

arineh lunch ngn Kak Tny =)
otw mencarik parking..i found it!
tapi tak sempat snap photo. ape yg aku jumpe?
VIN number yg dicari-cari selama neh. haha.
[VIN = vehicle identification number a.k.a no plat kete-lah!]
kete putih laks tuh! huhu i loike~
nombor ape yg aku carik selama neh...
haaa..jeng3. haha :D

ohh. lupe lak.
sbnrnye nk cite psl surat yg smpai td.
nama penerima bukan diriku neh..
tapi akakku..
so?
ade ape dlm envelope tuh?
satu majalah!
hehe.
latest mjlh dara.com - cover depan Heliza AF [ feveret artis sape ntah. hee :p]
kot sape2 dah beli tuh..
selak2 lah the pages.
ade gambar aku. hahaa. leh plak nak up kat sineh.
kot besar xpe gak. neh kecik cam semut je kot
gmbr tuh...kecoh je lebey. haha :D
well, neway bukan aku saje2 pegi ek that bengkel
anjuran dara tuh.
aku kne paksa! diulang paksa. haha.
terpakse ganti membe akak yg dah byr. so, pegi je-lah! haha

ps: newspaper penah. front page agi tuh. haha. the star kot. x hengat dah. haha (bile? nnt post laen i cite kat u all.huhu)
majalah penah.
television je blom. HAHA :P

love, tak jual kat kedai-lah! :p

i let him down.
down.
way so down.
down mane lagik? takkan beneath kot. haha.
i hope.
i can make up to him
somewhere along
the future ahead.
i know
every single day i let him down.
i know.
all i am able to do for now is
apologize...
i am just me.
a human being.
with ignorance inside.
of which i hope it'll fades away
forever.
i wanna be good to u.
coz u deserve it..
i know i'm good for now.
but not great kan?
haha.

sapekah?
haha.
mesti ingt kisah cintan aku yg ntah
season bape nak abes tuh kan.. huhu.
bukanlah.
bukan.
i was talking bout my one and only precious 'Abahku' (",)

aku seorg budak yg lost. pinjam compass bleh?

awake.
after a nine hours of sleep.
*sigh..~

aku dah set dah alarm..
nk bgun at midnite..
aiyaa..
pesal la x bgun..
keje dah r x siap2 agi..

sbb tgh mamai..
n pala otak pon x btol..
dah mimpi lama bangat. hhaha.
layan jela~~

i am lost.
in this lost world.
a world where only
people who are lost but
refuse to be found lives.

i lost.
i am not a winner.
being a champion
holds a bigger risk.
risks is sumthin i feared of.
i used to avoid it so much.
but once i've
taken a deep thought on the risk.
i ended up losing.
again.
so i dun think.
risk will ever be a friend of mine again.
i've lost trust in it.

i am a loser.
loser is a -ve words.
and i'm proud in using it.
once in life
u need to feel being a loser.
only after that.
success is only a mile away..~

i am lost in this deep dark lost world because i am being a loser for still waiting for the light to shine although i've already lost it.~

jom men solitaire. haha. xde kaitan!

been dwelling on unnecessary matters for the past few hours..
not dat proud at all..
but that is just me.
luckily, i got my colors back every time
i watched my favorite hero in action. hee :p
another 2 hour event of smallville this week
had made me end my day with a bit of smiling. tengs to CK! haha ",

i added one vocab today in my so-not-filled-with-vocabs library inside the mind up here. huhuu~

solitary = seorang diri
haha. baru tau makna. malunye i. kahkah..

Chloe: " phone tag implies two people. i've been playing phone solitary, not nearly as much fun. "


Carter talking to Oliver: "You dun wanna noe how important dey are to u, so u act like a jackass! "
haha. my fave line this week :D

tiada lagi...~

ape yang tiada lagi??
nama lagu?
haha. ohh lagu tuh sgt sedey woo..mau TWO bucket of tears plak kang. haha. two. takleh blah. mini bucket lerh. huhu.
abes ape? tiada lagi ubat sblh neh?
huhuu..lebey kuang r..
haha :D
sape2 yg terase nk beli diet supplementary neh silalah carik wakil amway terdekat yek. oopss. bukan saye tau! :p

knape ade gmbr neh??
mau menjual ubatkah aku neh?
ehh. sejak bile aku dealer amway lak neh?
hahaha. dua2 salah.
saje suke2 taruk.
leh tak gitu? huhuu.
pelik r aku neh.
padehal mood takde r bape hepi sgt.
tp leh plak tulih gini. haha.

nape gmbr disblh?
emm.
nutin much to tell.
yes. i do write personal stuffs everyday.
but there are sumthin..
i wanna express out loud..
but i cant..
so diz is one of 'em..
[ bek x pyh post kan? haha. ngada jek. :p]

the heart stop beating a second.
as soon as i saw dat bottle of tablets today.
the mind trigger a memory.
magnificent isnt it?
hanya disbbkan botol ini....
everything came back...
a past decade moments..
i didnt even hav to press the rewind button.
huu~~

pic credits to : google

ps: sbb tulah. arineh takde post psl hariku bercolor ke ape ke...sbb...teringat. uhh. sgt teringat. sekian~

tea@three am

woke up in the middle of the nite..

zeroonemaxisnineeightzerofiveoneblabla.

how i wish i can juz...

but i cant...

not anymore...

will make some hot tea...

and get back to sleep..~~


pic courtesy of google

twenty happy pic of us =)

us all. dey colored my life ",

again. camwhoring b4 balik. hee~

after a 3 cup of kickapoo! hee. lama x minum :)

mane2 pic pon dieorg ade. topek and ijat :D

tikar terbang nik & sue. haha :p

the place. tasik sect 7. nice one~

burfday surprise for ina n kak wawa =)

us singing the burfday song :)

makan time. melantak ayam jela aku. kata dok sblh jek bekasnye. haha :d

the guys yg bertungkus lumus panggang. hee~

bru sampai ptg tuh~~

at nite: guys pnye turn. haha/

at ptg: gurls punye turn. haha. yoyo-o jek. hee.

colors of my heart. *wink*

what-a-picturesque view ",

colorful tak baju saye? hee. resembles the heart yang penoh ngn color!

kyree sang us 'more than words'! i love it =)

ayuuuu~~~ nama dia-lah! bukan aku ayu pon kan. haha

ani and kak min!

lastly. faveret pic ku. haha. terlebey senyum kot. haha. i bersama nik ",

BBQ yg besh.
foods yg sdap gile.
blk ngn perot yg sgt kenyang.
sedey tak dpt merempit around tasek ngn len. ceh. aku tertinggal. waa~~
memori yg indah.
hee.
hee.
indah sgtlah!
hatiku ceria sgt. macehhh sume kerana sudi
bg satu memori yg besh =)

ps: haha. terlebih byk plak upload. dlu malas sgt. huhu. skrng terlebih rajin plak. hee :)
x sbr nk upload pic BR treat plak with my sweet darls ",