so long..two-o-o-nine~~

2|0|0|9

a year dat i'll nvr forget.
surrounded by unforgettable happiness.
thank you for the people
that share their loves and cares for me.
i appreciate it so much.
here i wanna wish
a warmful thank you for
the nice exciting memories i hav with
everyone i love during our days
together in 2009. it was a lot of
exciting stuffs we've gone through together.

i found my true love in two-o-o-nine. really am thankful for that. even for a short while it was an exciting moment for him to be in my memory.
now it's the end of the year, will it also be an official good bye for him...?how i hate good bye. because, i dun think a memory without him in 2010
would be a great one. .well, ape pun takdir..redha~~

countdown ends.

finally it's the end
of my countdown to
the NEW YEAR!
hehe.
so da abeh countdown
maka berakhirlah
segala-gala
lyrics n vid clips
yg dah i upload previously..

so new year huh..
mesti ade new resolution right..
well i have mine too.
tapi lemme juz keep it to myself..
i wouldnt want the whole wide world
knowing what i wanna achieve..
okay, hav fun guys!

Day 1

SECONDHAND SERENADE - FALL FOR YOU

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Oh

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

Source: azlyrics.com

rebound? i take a pass~

december ohh december..
new year is just around the corner..
rmbbr, i've said once
how i dislike december..
where relationship are tumbling down..

well, my mind starting to ponder half an hour ago..
as i explore my FB looking here and there..
i found out..of how
people can easily change for their
own happiness..
here i'm referring to both male n female..

i mean like..
u walked out of a relationship
rili in a short period of time..
and then juz in a blink
you can start a new one..
sort of a simple switch..
and when i asked why?
they answered of that is their way
of shutting the sadness and loneliness..
and juz forget bout sad history..
and move on..
so i was like okay. cool move~

how i wish i can be like dat..
i juz dun believe in rebound..
coz i might ended up hurting them..
and yes. i do take such a long time
to heal if i'm hurt..
i guess that is juz me..
i cant simply switch to another person
within a short period of time..
after all..to me the word love is such a precious word.
i juz couldnt simply give them to everyone
that cares and need...only the chosen one that deserve it.

but i'm happy though..
for those that can move on and let go of
everything in a short time..
at least they have the strength to do so..
and most importantly, they put themselves
in the first place..
they wanna keep on smiling..
and refuse to keep on grieving
the past..so they find new love =)

love shrink? haha.

hey i'm glad!

i started my day with loads of laughter. haha
my bff stopped by. we talked a while. n laugh a lot more. huhuu~

actually i felt great..
i guess thanks to a love shrink [ ade ke pkr sakit jiwa cinta? haha.] that i went to
last nite. haha. it helps a lot.
now i noe, the side of me dat i myself nvr known of.

n i also felt happy
bcoz i get to be a love shrink to few ppl last nite.
huhu. aku mmg. bg tips kat org pndai jek..nak apply
kat diri sendiri...hmm~~ haha.
well, all in all felt great dpt tulun org n dgr mslh org..
kawan kite kan..sape lg nk tulun kalo bkn kawan. huu~

Day 2

SAVAGE GARDEN - I Knew I Loved You

Maybe it's intuition
But some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes
I see my future in an instant
And there it goes
I think I've found my best friend
I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

There's just no rhyme or reason
Only this sense of completion
And in your eyes
I see the missing pieces
I'm searching for
I think I've found my way home

I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life
(add the whos here)

A thousand angels dance around you
(and the whos here)
I am complete now that I've found you
(and the whos here)

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life
(and the whos here)

Repeat chorus 3x with chorus

Source: sing365.com

::four::

four more days to go..
eventho i can already sense
the silence of urs till dat very last day..
still i wanna count.

Lucy mati.

tadik tgk ER..
yela ngah mkn xde cite per. layan jela hallmark..
aku ske tgk cite tuh wpon da berzaman. huu~
epi tadik..Lucy medical student mati...sedey~

huu~~
huuuu~~

sedihkan kalo muda2 da mati..
uhh...
cukop ke bekalan..
hmm..
mcm sgt tak..
tapi tulah..
sume takdir kan..
dah kalo sudah didiagnoskan sakit.
sakitlah kite.
mmg byk tech moden nowadays in medical..
still..

kalo da smpai ajal..
operate la byk kali pon..
mesti ke kubur jua akhirnye..
how i wonder..
sapelah yg akan ziarah aku nanti..
thinkin bout dat je leh wat aku pour out a dozen liters of T_T

terasa sgt masa tuh sgt singkat..
hargailah setiap masa yg ada..
jgn menyesal kemudian hari..
sbb tak menggunakan masa yg ada sebaiknya..
especially time kita sihat dan bertenaga..
renung2kan dan selamat beramal~

dun like this dream lah!

what-a-nightmare.
well this isnt an episode of dreams with
goblins, ghost and etc. hehe.
not dat kind of nitemare..

i dreamt of sumthin i fear most
dat would happen in reality..

actually it started few years back then..
but i'm the one who decided to
lay back on dat matters..
i guess..
i'm juz afraid to noe of any negative outcomes..
by then all of my dreams would rili vanish in thin air..

i hope dreams only stay in dream.
dun walk out into reality okay. i dun need diz one.

Day 3

STEELHEART - She's Gone

She's gone,
Out of my life.
I was wrong,
I'm to blame,
I was so untrue.
I can't live without her love.

In my life
There's just an empty space.
All my dreams are lost,
I'm wasting away.
Forgive me, girl.

(Chorus)

Lady, won't you save me?
My heart belongs to you.
Lady, can you forgive me?
For all I've done to you.
Lady, oh, lady.

She's gone,
Out of my life.
Oh, she's gone.
I find it so hard to go on.
I really miss that girl, my love.

Come back into my arms.
I'm so alone,
I'm begging you,
I'm down on my knees.
Forgive me, girl.

(Chorus x2)

Lady, oh, lady.
My heart belongs to you.
Lady, can you forgive me?
For all I've done to you.

Source: stlyrics.com

::empty::

ohh.
i never been this humiliated before..
T_T

60++

i juz realized.
in December was my most posts i'd published.
huhu.
a devastated month. ended up me rambling here and there
in shadows of mine.

i know it's been a while..
he hasn't read my blog..
well before, my blog was the
first site he used to open..
i guess..
now everything changed.
why do ppl changed?? huh~~

ohh. what a long night. i am sleepy tho.
juz...
uhuh. nvm. i'll try to get sum sleep.
nite everyone!

imu~

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ohh. here i go again. imu dear~

Day 4

EXTREME - More Than Words

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words
Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words

Source: lyrics007.com

robotku~~

aku lah robot itu. HEE .
xde pelah..
saje nk ngarut ptg2 neh..haha.

sonok gak idop jd robot neh.
xyah ssh2 nak jage hati org len..
sbb hati aku pon da lame mati..
idop pon semata-mata
tuk melakukan pekerjaan.
ibadat pon kerja la kan.
no more feelings or what-so-ever.
so robotlah kan? haha.

yup. i hate the me now.
i noe. i hurt few of those that i heart.
sorry..
sumone juz shot me through the heart..
so i hav no other feelings right here.
only an empty hole.
for the time being, i luv being juz a robot..
i noe i'll be returning back to the 'ol gud Hatie..
one day..~~

picture credits to google.

tido. sleep.

can i have a nice sleep?
wouldnt there be any days
that i just lay my head and get on
dreaming?
ohh. miss my busy ever days.
letak pala tros tido.
xyah pk pape. huhu.
xpe2. hari2 bz ku bakal bermula
x lama lagik. cant wait. haha.

ohh...seven more days to go~~
yes. i'm counting.
every single nite.
as my clock struck 12.
as usual i tried getting myself bz
the whole day. saje nk get off my mind
from thinkin the same thing over and over again.
but at nite.
ended up. me doin stupido things.
like nyone cares la kan. haih~

Day 5

AIMAN - Cinta Terakhir

Kau cinta pertamaku
Engkau cinta terakhirku
Tiada apa yang bisa menafikan kasih kita...

Kau ayu dimataku
Satu antara seribu
Tiada tara didunia...

Mungkin kan terputus di tengah jalan
Mungkin kan terlerai tanpa ikatan
Usah ragu dengan takdir...

Mungkin kitakan berbeza haluan
Berakhirnya cerita percintaan
Segalanya ketentuan Tuhan....

Source: liriksemualagu.blogspot.com

g8 day out =)

hi!
i juz got back.
tak gi mane pon.
juz ronda2 sacc with my sister ",
excited terlebih sbb nasik lemak. haha.
ntah nape rineh mcm teringin sgt
nk mkn ns lmk. tup2 jln2 kat uncle k kopitiam td
nmpk gmbr ns lemak. tros msok. hoho
n sgt sedap la kan. terlebih licin sudah aku mkn. huhu
ngn air kelapa lak. huhu.. ske ske~~

oh yup. lately aku sgt ske msok mph.
n by masok xdela kuar tgn kosong je kan. hehe.
mestila buy few books.
tadik beli 3. hehe.
satu buku ilmiah.
satu komik.
satu diary 2010!
ske plak tgk diary tuh td.
byk gile info psl islamic neh.
so agak interesting. angkat jela. hee.
k lah penat. nak rest jap.
freedomku tinggal bbrp jam shj lagi.
wuuuu~~

<3 candles~

i'm backing off now
not coz i'm tired
i'll nvr get tired
when it comes to u
but bcoz
i'm a girl with pride
i've tried my best
to save us
well it is
still worthless
to save
if u already
blew off our love candles..

Day 6

NORA - Renungan Terakhir

Sebelumnya kau pergi
Renunglah ku di sini
Kerna mungkin terjadi
Kita takkan bersua lagi
Anggaplah pertemuan ini
Mungkin yang terakhir
Dan tak usah
Kita kesali
Atas apa yang terjadi

Banyaknya pengorbanan
Telah ku pertaruhkan
Mungkin tiada bermakna
Telah banyak mengguris rasa
Untuk itu maafkanku
Kiranya menggangu ketenagan
Dalam hidup mu yang tak perlu kehadiranku

Dugaan…
Inikah dugaan untukku
Hujungnya yang tak seindah mimpi
Hanyalah igauan ngeri
Kau yang pernah ku rindu
Mudahnya berlaku
Mengapa begitu
Berubah layu
Aku menerima
Salam perpisahan
Segalanya sebagai ingatan
Biarlah impian kan berlalu dengan mu

stupido lah aku neh.

i love the taste of freedom i'm having now..
it's better than a holiday..
i juz love everytime i get
the house to all by myself..
i feel free to do my own stuffs..
well tomorrow it will comes to an end..
i'm gonna be back to the stressful-me. huh.

but these couple of nights Aisar kembarku
cant make it for a sleepover.
she got plans too..
so kinda a bit bored without having
her around..
bored tuh leh tahan agi kot..
yg takleh tahannye..
bile i'm alone..
i tend to do sum stupid things.
yup. stupido for me la. but i cant help it.
so ended up a regret? hmm.
a so-so.
oklah, got a few stuffs that is still
unchecked in my list..better do it now
before the freedom ends.
later~

Day 7

JOE JONAS - Gotta Find You

Everytime I think I'm closer to the heart
Of what it means to know just who I am
I think I've finally found a better place to start
But no one ever seems to understand

I need to try to get to where you are
Could it be, your not that far

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing
I need to find you
I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need, the song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you

Oh yeah
Yeah yeah

You're the remedy I'm searching hard to find
To fix the puzzle that I see inside
Painting all my dreams the color of your smile
When I find you I'll be alright
I need to try to get to where you are
Could it be, your not that far

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing
I need to find you
I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need, the song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you

Been feeling lost, can't find the words to say
Spending all my time stuck in yesterday
Where you are is where I want to be
Oh next to you... and you next to me
Oh I need to find you... yeah

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing
I need to find you
I gotta find you (yeah)
You're the missing piece I need, the song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing
I need to find you (I need to find you)
I gotta find you (I gotta find you)
You're the missing piece I need, the song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you

Yeah, yeah... I gotta find you

Source: lyricsmania.com

f r e e d o m

freedom nearly comes to an end soon.
how bad.
i wish for it to be longer.
huu~

Day 8

AJAI & TUNKU MIMI - Kayangan

Bukan aku tak cinta padamu
Bukan aku tak sayang padamu
Tapi harus ku berdiam diri
Kerna itu yang terbaik

Telah ku tunjuk kepadamu
Telah ku katakan pada hatiku
Tapi tak pernah ku nyatakanya
Kepadamu sejujurnya

(Korus)
Bukan niat untuk mengecewakan mu kasih
Tapi kau tahu
Cinta sukar bersama
Kerana diriku
Tidak dapat lafazkan kata-kata cinta

Kita hanya bertentang mata
Hati pun mula bicara cinta
Cintamu dan cintaku
Tak ada hujungnya
Tuhan saja yang akan akhirkan cerita

Akhirkan cerita cinta
Cerita cinta kayangan
Ikut saja kata hati
Mungkin cinta kan bersemi
Antara engkau

Bukan aku tak cinta padamu
Bukan aku tak sayang padamu
Ikut saja kata hati
Mungkin cinta kan bersemi
Antara engkau dan aku

Cinta kayangan kita
Cinta kau dan aku

Source: kotaklirik.blogsome.com

selamat hari lahir~

to my dear Abah,

selamat hari lahir ke-63

may Allah always bless ur life.

semoga pjg umur murah rezeki.

i'll nvr stop doakan yg terbaik utk abah.

ikhlas,

Hazrati.

puzzle~

life is a puzzle..
a combination of every pieces
makes it a great picture..
but once there are pieces
missing..
there will be holes..
and no longer a great image..
till the pieces are yet to be found..
the puzzle is worthless..~

pic courtesy of google

Day 9

SCORPION - Still Loving You

Time, it needs time
To win back your love again.
I will be there, I will be there.

Love, only love
Can bring back your love someday.
I will be there, I will be there.

Fight, babe, I'll fight
To win back your love again.
I will be there, I will be there.

Love, only love
Can break down the walls someday.
I will be there, I will be there.

If we'd go again
All the way from the start,
I would try to change
The things that killed our love.

Your pride has build a wall, so strong
That I can't get through.
Is there really no chance
To start once again?
I'm loving you.

Try, baby try
To trust in my love again.
I will be there, I will be there.

Love, your love
Just shouldn't be thrown away.
I will be there, I will be there.

If we'd go again
All the way from the start,
I would try to change
The things that killed our love.

Your pride has build a wall, so strong
That I can't get through.
Is there really no chance
To start once again?

If we'd go again
All the way from the start,
I would try to change
The things that killed our love.

Yes I've hurt your pride, and I know
What you've been through.
You should give me a chance
This can't be the end.

I'm still loving you.
I'm still loving you,
I need your love.
I'm still loving you.
Still loving you, baby...

Source: lyrics007.com

boringlah post neh.

da mcm diary la plak.
ari2 update kat sineh. huhu.
ntahla..
tibe2 terase cam nk terminate
teros shadows of mine..
so berbekalkan bbrp hari jek tngal
kat two-o-o-nine neh..
ari2 lah kite tulih..
kang da xde blog..
xde tempat lak nk berkarya. haha.

today duk umah jek.
x settle pon tpm.
sok bru nk pi uitm..
tadi whole day sakit pewot. huhu.
adeh. tahan jela.
seb bek da okay..
luckily, kembarku itu ade jer
meneman aku bergelak tawa.
haha. ngn dia mmg.
asek dahaga jek.
padahal ngn org len gelak gak.
tp ngn dia..terextra mengong
kami berdua neh. hoho.

oklah. perutku dah lapa.
arini dinner umah jela.
duit da xde. haha.
ok off i wanna go masak.
well not everyday i get the kitchen
to all by myself! hee. excited. haha.
k lah tuh si kembar busuk tuh
da text ckp lapa nk makan.
better i cepat prepare.
daa!

stalker

i noe i'm jobless.
but i sure am need to stop
being a stalker.
it hurts.
ohh whatever.
man, can't 4th Jan 2010 come any faster??

Day 10

RAMLI SARIP - Istilah Bercinta

Kau kata kau cinta
Kau kata kau sayang
Kini entah di mana
Tiada lagi kemesraan

Kau kata setia
Hanya aku saja
Tapi hilang ke mana
Tiada lagi kenangan

Ku tabahkan hati
Ku genggam azimat
Untuk ku balut luka semakin mendalam
Biarku hadapi walaupun tergugat
Akan ku benamkan biar jadi debu

Kini ku mengerti
Istilah sebenar
Di dalam bercinta
Tiada kepastian
Tiada penentuan
Akan kebahagiaan
Semua percintaan
Haruslah berkorban
Tiada batasan

Source: ilirik.com

what-a-day

how my day turned out

morning:

again. i regret. sorry. i hope this so-called being the 21st century version of si tanggang will gone soon. sorry. dats all i can say now. everything needs time. yes time.

evening:

preoccupied running here and there settling the tpm.
but lucks juz wasnt there for me today.
i forgot to make a photocopy of my own IC. damn.
how could i be so careless. so tomorrow kene pegi blk
lari sana sineh mintak cop tuk ic tuh ajer. huh.
i hope esok leh settle everything. tros anta ke fac..

nite:

dinner ngn Aisar kembarku itu..
mane lg.. our fave place, ani sup utara.
haha. aku ske pon sbb bubur dia. hee.
she spent the nite at my place.
so terharu dia nk temankan.
as always la kan dear. sape lg. hehe.

cold-hearted me

bcoz of dat single moment.
i became who i am today
a cold hearted person.
tq for dat moment.
u hurt me by insulting my beloved one.
and i juz couldnt pretend
everything's juz okay.
i guess
i deserved to get
no supports from anyone.
so much for wanting to make
u proud. ohh.
tired already.
it's okay.
i'll choose my own path.
based on my instincts.
eventho not a single soul
supports.
but i'll live.
wasnt it all these time
i've been livin' with only the shadows
of mine by my side?
all the other souls are juz there.
but.
actually.
they werent at all.
ohh. how i miss everything back then..~

thank you

a simple gratitude..
for reading my blog..
for texting me this morning..

juz as i tot..
u are turning the blame on me..
but..
i'm glad.
at least u still care about
what i wanna achieve..

but dear..
u wouldnt hav to
ignore me completely..
and juz ditch me away..
only bcoz of my priority..

come on..
we both noe this isnt the real case..
i couldnt say it out loud..
it'll juz hurt me more..
but i'll be more than
relieve if u could juz admit it..~

Day 11

THE RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS - Your Guardian Angel

When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
[to fade]

Source: plyrics.com

nobody's perfect

nobody's perfect.
true.
it took me quite sumtime
to realize juz dat.
after a season of
thinking and considering
every aspects.
yes i've made my mind.
the heart here recognize
the owner of the present.
and so not the past.
those are all behind us now.
but i guess.
it's too late.
the moment i realize it.
everything's juz gone.
disappear in a thin air..
so, every obstacles that we
went through all these while..
to get to the episode of happiness
dat rili bring joyful moment to us..
doesn't mean anything anymore.

IRIS cool~~

my latest addiction!
korean drama IRIS
so enjoyable with all the suspense moods. haha.
AND it is not another love story dat
used to be my addiction from korean dramas. hee.
dun need dat one for now.
secret agents drama is better for the time being. ahaks.
alrite, you can watch it here though.
enjoy!

dramacrazy.net

hari kalah mereka

ape cer?
sume kalah.
huhu.
liv kalah.
mu kalah.
ahaks.
xpela. x penting pon sape mng.
overall game td was great.
i tak ngantuk tgk. haha.
mmgla.
terpegun tgk kekacakan torres
dgn kasut ijaunye. HAHA :p
okeh mau tdo.
ngantuk.
terlmbt lak tdo arineh. huhu.
slmt mlm mesia =)

Day 12

AIZAT - Lagu Kita

Deras hati ku berdetar
Di langit aku terlihatkanmu
Terang malam.... teman kita
Dengan angin meniup sayu

Ku petik gitar akustik ini
Dengan harapan dia mendengar
Melodi indah yang ku cipta
Hanya untuk luahkan rinduku padanya

CHO: Dan aku terus...
Menyanyi lagu ini untukmu
Walau berjuta mendengar
Lagu ini hanya untukmu
Arah hidup kita
Digambar bintang di angkasa
Dan berkelip melukis cinta
Terciptalah Lagu Kita

Melodi indah yang ku cipta
Hanya untuk luahkan rinduku padanya

( ulang cho 1x)

Terciptalah Lagu Kita

Source: rizkyonline.com

another morning crap

i'm starting to listen to another playlist.
i'm glad. at least, it's a good start for me ".

juz finished checking my fb. as usual la.
but dunno why..
i felt sumthin missing..
but when i rewind back what had
happened..sigh~~
he removed me with juz a simple click.
thinking bout dat made me turned into
so-full-of-pride hatie.
and also after dat last text i gave on new yr.
obviously la dat text was juz a reminder.
not like my other so-called text filled with words
of mine. and even dat kind of text there is no thank you.
oh yeah. me looking for u, it is over. i've tried.
i so still have pride inside u noe.

drama. drama. drama.

laaa..
tak pasan..
da posts ke 204 upenye..
x sangka da reached 200 ekk. hee.
byk tul bebel di sineh. haha.

td tgk tv..
rase cam da lama gila je x tgk tv..huu~
biasela i'm avoiding ppl lately..
so lebih comfy enuf juz staying in ma rooms..

so mcm2 cita tgk..haha. ape lagi..
drama la. huhu.

jap mula tgk boys over flowers. cite korea yg besh tuh.
bru tau 8tv ade tayang. pastu tkr2 jap

tgk tv1 cite lama. kutub utara kutub selatan.
mmg feveret masa kecik2 dlu..

pastu tgk korea agi. kat kbs lak. tajuk three brothers..
sedey gak epi tadik. kdng2 layan gak cite neh..

last skali yg ditunggu tunggu. haha. cite kekasihku is setan
kat astro ria. hee. sgt suke. haha. cite biase je. tp ending sedey woo~~
sbb mati. uhuh. yg excited terlebey sbb budak bangi a.k.a kamal adli
jd hero. hee.

tgh google2 tutorials..tibe2 trjmpe tutorials 3D daisy. hee. tros smngt mencuba.
tp ade satu step tuh aku mcm kurang phm. so x jadik2. xpela. sok cube lagi.
sbb mata pon da mcm ngntuk. huhu. kalo jadik la bunga tuh. waaa..mesti chantek. ske ske~~


budak bangi. ohh. sgt lama nama tuh x muncul. mmgla. dah kata tkr nama len. ala. kalo tak tkr pon. sure tak muncul. huu. huu.

Day 13

ONE REPUBLIC - Apologize

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground,
And I'm hearing what you say,
But I just can't make a sound,
You tell me that you need me,
Then you go and cut me down, away,
You tell me that you're sorry,
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say

[Chorus]
That it's too late to apologize,
It's too late,
I said it's too late to apologize,
It's too late,
(Too late)
Ooooooohhh

I take another chance,
take a fall, take a shot for you,
i need you like a heart needs a beat,
But it's nothing new, yeahhh yeahhh
I loved you with the fire red,
Now it's turning blue, and you said
Sorry like the angel,
Heaven let me think was you,
But I'm afraid

[Chorus]

[Guitar Solo]

It's too late to apologize,
It's too late,
I said it's too late to apologize,
It's too late
I said it's too late to apologize,
(Too late)
I said it's too late to apologize,
(Too late)

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground

Source: seekalyric.com

24 messages gone. sedey wooo~~

wah. hari ni jek 4 entries. gile ape. haha.
saje. nak lepaskan perasaan.
bru dpt blk hp.
rituh anta pi repair.
gara-gara msok dlm air teh. uhuh.
bru dpt blk neh.
mula yg osak lampu jek.
pastu sistem pon osak skali.
ended up..
ade one folder yg i saved dlm messages
ilang..
sayangnye..
aku bukan jenis yg slalu save msg.
tapi..
dat one single folder inside 24 msgs x silap..
is TOO PRECIOUS..
now dat it's lost..
farewell~~

Maal Hijrah. Awal Muharram. 1431H

haha.
leh plak i forgot today public hols.
my bad. hee.
watpe nk gi uitm bkn ade org keje pon. huhu
well, i guess i'll juz get the tpm settle
next week before 28th la..
dat is the due date. huhu.

so to every Muslims out there,
SALAM MAAL HIJRAH 1431 (",)


p/s: a simple tq would be nice. after all it's maal hijrah. and i sent it juz for wanting to mengingatkan u. am i dat bad. till i dun even deserve a tq?

lets learn ABC. hee.

i went through the text in fb. well that's all left. i sent the others couple of days ago to the owner.

nak tergelak bc pon ade. sbb sgtla tak synchronize dgn ape yg actually happened now.

sumone said to me he wont lepaskan i semudah abc if i were to change sumhow. omg. HAHA.

juz look now. he didnt lepaskan i semudah abc. dia lepaskan TERLEBIH MUDAH dari abc..

a
b
c
d
e
f
g
h
i

why did i stop at 'i'?

ohh. wth. i for his name. and the fact dat i wanna say diz out loud. i miss u..~

Day 14

LIFEHOUSE - Blind

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

Source: azlyrics.com

rain, moon, light

i went to uitm to get my mini transcript.
what for?
yup i noe i havent grad yet..
it is for my TPM application.
i mintak jer..ade rezeki ader..
xde..cube lagi..
i went by myself today.
tamao lift from nyone..
juz felt like walking on my own..
and juz as i tot..
everywhere i go..
whenever i see that car..
with the exact color..
only with a differ VIN..
the feels are juz....pilu? huu~

i havent fill out the form yet.
tonite will do kot..n sok gi fotostat sijil2
n sah sume..then anta la trus ke
jbtn ape ntah. huhu.

ohh lupe. td bru pas bc doa akhir n awal tahun..
it's Maal Hijrah.
new year huh..
so i hav to be a new me?
not so new laa..huhu
but i'm glad if i can change to be
a better person..inshaAllah~
that is what hijrah is all about..


since it is tahun baru..
i wanna grab sum semangat baru..
for me to live onwards..in a new year..
i hope i can achieve what i want all these while..
not much actually..
juz a future filled with happiness..
i dun think dat is too much to ask for..
maybe God doesnt fulfill me yet becoz of a reason..
after all everything dat happens surely ade hikmah disebaliknya kan..

it had been a fortnight i waited.
and i got nutin. not even a word.
so i dunno..
yeah i noe..
ade hikmah why things happened like diz..
why dia diam seribu bahasa..
only he knows why..
and i'm here..alwaz n alwaz..
waiting dgn hati yg serba serbi tak faham..
his heart already chose sumone else..
what more does he want..
juz tell me clearly..
and let me go..
i dun wanna say we r apart coz xde jodoh..
since either of us are not married yet..
so kita pnye jodoh tatau lagik kan..
ohh my. my ayat above is so am looking
me as sumone yg berharap lagik..
i shouldnt. i know.
but still..
the heart is not for bargain..
it takes time. a lot of time..
for me to heal..
and hoping i hav the strength for
another episode of love..

in the meantime..
i nak try to control my emotion..
sedey mmg sedey..
sape tak kan..if dlm my condition..
tapi bile pk blk..
i 24/7 tot of him..
and ended up crying..
him? does he ever tot of me..
i dunno. at first i tot so too.
i tot he's hurting bcoz of us too..
eventually..when i noe
he got sumone else by his side..
i dun need another explanation
on whether he tot bout me or not..
huu..

omg.
i got carried away..
sorry yaa.
i noe diz isnt my diary..
still i cant seem to control
my finger typing..again n again..
when it comes to him..
alrite, i'll stop now.

it's pagi. morning!

as usual..
every single morning
as i awake..
dat face appeared in my mind..
emm..the car too actually.
i hell of a dunno why the car part. haha.
ohh.
diz hav to stop.
how?
hmm..
i am so clueless..
i nvr believe in rebound. so no for dat.
okaylah.
it's azan subuh already.
hav a great day everyone ",

Day 15

DEWA 19 - Larut

mungkin aku pernah juga merasakan cinta
tapi tak pernah seindah ini
mungkin aku juga pernah merasakan rindu
tapi tak pernah sedalam ini

mungkin kamu takkan pernah percaya
bahwa sesungguhnya
aku telah terjatuh

ku akui aku telah larut
larut ke dalam kamu
yang ku cintai

Source: metrolyrics.com

the foot mark remains. i'm glad.

yesterday i was pissed.
today i missed badly.
now..
face turning red..
tears running down..
eye bags everywhere..
ohh.
why is it so hard to let go?
so am not typing diz for nyone's symphatize..
juz to ease the pain..ohh how it hurts so much..
tomorrow and days onwards..
i couldnt possibly noe how my life
would turn out..
with a face missing..
be strong hatie.
you can beat this..
you already lost sumone forever.
this is surely nutin comparable.
so be strong.
rmmbr, this is juz temporary..
juz try to focus on ur studies..
eventho it's hard. but u hav to endure it..

storm warriors + green box = (",)

today is my bestie day out.
went to bkt tinggi.
watch storm warriors. so awesome =)
karaoke for 3 hours. yup. i so need that! hee.
went straight home.
perform solah asar.
on pc.
check email. a bit depressed. dun ask why.
check fb. reply comments.
update blog.
alrite, that's it for now.

Day 16

JONAS BROTHERS - When You Look Me In The Eyes

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head up high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms,
I know that it's forever.
I just gotta let you know,
I never wanna let you go.

When you look me in the eyes.

And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Oh

Source: azlyrics.com

ohh. its blackout. damn. lagi la teringat. huh~

ohh. how i am pissed to know everything..
it's 1512. ohh. gimme a break.
emm. what to do. at least i knew already.
alhamdulillah. God loves me so much.
He wanted me to realize it soon
before it's too late..

i wouldnt want to posts any other songs nymore..
but it is already being scheduled here in blogger.
so the countdown still on..

juz so u noe..
u are so not worth to own my heart in the first place..
what u did behind my back is rili
unacceptable.
beriya suruh i setia and at the end u curang big time. ohh. what-a-jackass.

what u did now..
i guess..i should thank you..
coz if i were to noe later..
than i dun even think i'll be able to stand up again..
juz rmmbr la..
u treat me like this..
it's not impossible u'll get
the same one day..
i juz hope i'll nvr see dat face of urs ever again.
eventho we both hav to attend
our fren's wed, i'll pray hard that
we won't bump into each other..

i so hate u..
after knowing everything..
i thought everything u shared
was real.. was honest..
eventually..
there were all juz lies..
i was the one too blind to believe in all those bullshits..
thank you for being such a big fat fucking liar.

oh yes. i noe i'm using the internet as a place
to burst out my anger. well i cant help it..
after all these time..ohh. how could you.
i should hav nvr even giv u a single chance..
i should have trust my instinct back days.
and so not trusting u. well my bad. i made a wrong
decision.

hey, dun wori. after all that u did..eventho it hurts badly
and the fact dat u didnt even say a word and say sorry..
i still forgive u..coz i'm a forgiver. so long then..
be happy with all of ur so-called aweks, Mr. Heartbreaker.

"an assurance of a full stop would be great rather than driving through a deep dark path with a silent melody.."

1512

i felt like writing on this date..
here goes..

today is the birthday of the most beloved
person in my life..

i'm thankful for having her as my mother..
she raised me up with loads of love and supports..
she will always remain living and breathing
here in my heart and soul. always will be..
because..
i could never live without her..

with everything that had occurred recently..
i couldn't be more happier..
every time i went driving through a heartbroken road..
she's always there sitting next to me
accompanying me all the way to my
unknown destination..
i'm glad..~

Day 17

ROSSA & PASHA - Terlanjur Cinta

waktu bergulir lambat
merantai langkah perjalanan kita
berjuta cerita terukir dalam
menjadi sebuah dilema
mengertikah engkau
perasaanku tak terhapuskan

malam menangis
tetes embun membasahi mata hatiku
mencoba bertahan di atas puing-puing
cinta yang tlah rapuh

apa yang ku genggam
tak mudah untuk aku lepaskan

reff:
aku terlanjur cinta kepadamu
dan tlah kuberikan seluruh hatiku
tapi mengapa baru kini kau pertanyakan cintaku

aku pun tak mengerti yang terjadi
apa salah dan kurang ku padamu
kini terlambat sudah untuk dipersalahkan
karna sekali cinta, aku tetap cinta

mencoba bertahan di atas puing-puing
cinta yang tlah rapuh

apa yang ku genggam
tak mudah untuk aku lepaskan

repeat reff

source: liriklaguindonesia.net

Day 18

MICHAEL BOLTON - How Am I Supposed To Live Without You

I could hardly believe it
When I heard the news today
I had to come and get it straight from you
They said you were leavin'
Someone swept you heart away
From the look upon your face I see it's true
So tell me all about it, tell me 'bout the plans you're makin'
Then tell me one thing more before I go

Tell me how am I supposed to live without you
Now that I've been lovin' you so long
How am I supposed to live without you
How am I supposed to carry on
When all that I've been livin' for is gone

I didn't come here for cryin'
Didn't come here to breakdown
It's just a dream of mine is coming to an end
An how can I blame you
When I built my world around
The hope that someday we'd be so much more than friends
And I don't wanna know the price I'm gonna pay for dreaming
When even now it's more than I can take

And I don't wanna face the price I'm gonna pay for dreaming
Now that your dream has come true

Day 19

AIZAT - Pergi

Sayu terpisah
hikayat indah kini hanya kini tinggal sejarah
berhembus angin rindu
begitu nyamannya
terhidu wangian kasihmu

*hujan lebat mencurah kini
bagaikan tiada henti
kau lah laguku kau irama terindah
tak lagi ku dengari

kau pergi
pergi...

sepi tanpa kata
terdiam dan kaku tak daya kau kulupa
apapun kata mereka
biarkan kenangan
berbunga di ranting usia

Day 20

FIREHOUSE - I Live My Life For You

Y'know you're everything to me and I could never see
The two of us apart
And you know I give myself to you and no matter what you do
I promise you my heart
I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before

Chorus:
I live my life for you
I want to be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you
I dedicate my life to you, you know that I would die for you
But our love would last forever

And I will always be with you and there is nothing we can't do
As long as we're together
I just can't live without you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before
Chorus
I live my life for you

Source: www.musicsonglyrics.com