dear frens. i so am RINDU korang..~

owh. i'm a mess. am rili in a major mess.
i need to tidy up myself.
plz dun let ur priorities get distracted.
u noe how much diz means.
it's what u worked hard for all diz entire time.
i noe it brings u joy and happiness still
u better get urself togeda and figure out
which are more important at the moment.

apekah yg aku dok taip neh..haihh..
x saba esok. yer btol. sgt x saba.
bkn sbb nk pegi kelas. sgtla tak kan. sbb keje x siap.huhu
x saba sbb nk jmpe kwn2. RINDU~~

a glimpse of a face in mind~

who's face?
ahaks. lagenda. again n again n again. ohh. yan. aimi. diana. fara. nk jmpe korang. RINDU.

it's raining heavily outside..
it's sunday already. ahh. damn. how time flies super fast.huu~
i'm kinda freak out a bit coz my fyp proposal is not even near done. still a long way to go.
ohh. i hope i can get it done b4 my weekly meeting with my sv..
*sighhhh~~~

hatred::

i hate myself for getting older so quickly.
becoz as days goes by, i kept forgetting things.
and i mostly fear of forgetting every single details
about the most special person that i truly love~~

althou the one we love alwaz in the heart still
by living a thousand miles faraway can actually
makes u forget all those tiny bits of characters
of that person.
ohh. God, please dun take away those precious
memories from diz so-not-gigantic brain memory of mine.
i so need to keep those memories alive to keep me on going living.

budak shah alam rindu seseorg ^_^

hey,

while waiting for heroes- orientation to be completely finish downloading
i tot of writing diz new post..
well i dunno what to write actually..

what's on my mind at diz very moment @ 1210am..
-loads of asemen to do but dun hav any clue when to start one. ohh. i need to find the mood soon.
-apela nabil membebel kat tv sblh aku neh..heee
-esok tot of puase sunat. ape yer mahu sahur arineh?
-feels like chatting tonite. tapi org yg mahu aku chatting with tiada. haizz.
-dah2la tuh taip kat sineh. tatau dah ape nak bebel. haha

better get goin now. i surely dunno what i be rambling next if i dun sign out from diz blogger.com
alrite, daaa~

what had crossed on my mind at 23:18

i starred through the window

i can tell it was a cold breezy nite

with a thick snow

covering the backyard

i was mesmerized with the view

with no footstep or what so ever mark

on the pure white snow

yes. it was a hell of a picturesque view

for me indeed. since it was the first time

i sat there starring

for the whole nite

it was a wonderful moment

yup. a rili memorable one

becoz i sat there with

my love one beside me

hugging me tightly..~

nice pleasant hari raya indeed.

salam aidilfitri everyone!

diz year aku tak balik kg.
hanya beraya di sineh Shah Alam..
had so much fun with the love ones =)
thun dpn di kampong pule..
biaselah selang seli..
lagipon diz year siblings byk blk umah mertua..
tapi everytime beraye di shah alam..
ia adalah moments yg sgt bermakne..
walaupon di bandar..tetap bermakne..
kerana..
aku mempunyai peluang utk melawati pusara org2 yg tersyg di pagi raye..
and that is sumtin way too precious that i'll be
missing each time i spend my raya back in kampong..~

h a p p y

hello..

i'm glad.
when seeing everyone dat i love is happy.

cite.cite.lame da tngu.

Season premiere

Smallville S9 - Sept 25th
Heroes S4 - Sept 21st
Merlin S2 - Sept 19th

Cant wait! (",)

ohh. what a crap.

i'm a no magic wizard.
but i was wondering..
why is there need to be a start off to something..
when the ending is already clearly seen..

i trust my guts. my instincts. almost daily.
i juz simply cant ignore those feelings
that had been inside of me all these while i'm living..

maybe the timing is not rite.
i juz couldnt possibly be a great company
at times when it is so hectic till i myself
feel suffocates inside.
i sure am dun want nyone else to feel
the same becoz of me..

ohh. what da heck am i babbling here..
i juz love to write..
afta all diz is my blog..
whether i wanna post sumthin personal or not.
hey, who cares. afta all it's not like i state every single
personal things that i wrote here clearly..
it's juz a matter of losing sum burdens inside here..
plus at the same time keeping the story of mine still
a private matter. coz in the end i dun think
there are readers out there who truly understand what i wrote.

i write based on which letters in my qwerty keyboard here that my fingers feels pressing on..
and of course based on what my heart really wants to convey to myself out loud.

baris......baris sedia!

hello people!

hey, it's 090909!
cool huh~~

i stayed up late last nite workin on few stuffs a.k.a my nvrending assignments..huu~
so tadik pas sahur n subuh bru la nak tdo..althou class at 8 still got sumtimes for me to take a nap.
baru je hopped on my comfy bed, and juz about to close my eyes i heard...
"Baris....baris sedia.." it was loud and clear. then i starred at my roomie then we both bkk langsir n tgk kat tingkap....upe2nyer bdk2 palapes dah ade dpn bilik neh berkawad pagi2 bute...
siap nyanyi mcm2 lagu...lagu negaraku, uitm, jalur gemilang..haizzz. i baru nak tdo la kamo sume...heee..ganggu jer...haha..takdela. dah nak wat camne dok kolej dak2 koko gini la nasebku...

but diz is the first time i heard. ntah tataula ade event ape...ke sempena sambut 090909. haha. ade2 jer ako neh..hee~

ape lagik. dgr komander tuh bg arahan n suare2 mereka yg sdp2 belaka nyanyi lagu neh...tetibe my mind flew sumplace else. mane lagik. zaman dlu2 kala.

i so teringat and missed gile my moments back in muadzam shah and 5th college UM. tmpat aku menjalani pkn for the first time it was held kat ngara kite..mmg sgt rindu. kat sane sgt best. dari pg subuh tuh dah kuar and the activities goes on until late nite...wah...sgt besh..althou kene torture gile2 still in the end we had loads of great memories and made lots of cool people! unforch, sume cam da lost contact...sedey gile.. tried to carik dlm fb..but susah laa...mane tau dieorgnye real name..kat sane men pngil nickname jer...huhuu..

tot of uploading my pics with my best buddies there. but hey aku kat hostel neh. zaman tuh mane ade digi cam. sume photo 4R yg dicuci di kedai2..hehe.. so album2 kat umah ler. plus mcm la aku rajin sgt nak scan gamba2 itu sume.haha.

okay. in the end. saye sgt merindui mereka. sume sekali. cool tent mates. guy buddies yg lawak gile. cikgu2 yg sporting abes. ohh. rindu sgt. bile mau jmpe lagik ya. hoping SOON =)

f i r s t

it was with him i first start gayut-ing on the phone.
it was with him i first received love letters.
it was with him i first received a valentine card.
it was with him i first start go on dating.
it was him the first and only one whom i shared stories with my most beloved person.(refer dialog di bawah)

Me: Mak..mak.. tgk la kat sane tuh..
Mak: tgk mane?
Me: tuh kat padang depan tuh..
Mak: hah..kenape..ade ape?
Me: hah...tgk btul2..yg pakai seluar hijau tuh la yg atie suke ^_^
Mak: ohh yg tuh..tak nmpk sgtlaa..huhu
Me: die la mak yg atie selalu tgk kat skola..die kan..bla..bla..bla..

those were the days. the year that i cherished the most in my life.

all in all..
althou he was not my first luv..
still he made my kisah cinta monyet sgt bermakna..
thanks for the memories dear ",

a year late? ohh dope.

mornin'...

i juz realized dat my cell calendar weren't set correctly...
it was a year late. back in 2008. ohh
how i've been living in the past all these while..
i guess the other day i accidentally set it to 2008..

well, talking bout me livin' in the past..
three words. true. definitely. totally.

considering everything dat i went through so far..
it seems dat i'm comfy enuf back in the past..
i so hate the present where the tense is so way up high..
and yeah. i tend to rmbrr most of the things happened
back over the years..compared to the current daily routines i've
been doing now. i guess my ram built inside my brain here
is only great at storing past memories compared to the latest one.huhu

and one more.
yes, i've been living in the past.
since dat is the only way i get to be with
those dat i love..~~

drowning in workloads!~~

hey..
i'm drowning in bunch of workloads..*sigh~
ohhh...
i so need a source of inspiration right now...
i guess it had gone so far away..
dun seem to even see any shadows of 'em at all..

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arghh...i'm so fuck up mixed with all of unwanted feelings inside~~

masterpiece ka? mcm tak.haha

hey..
tgh2 burn data in cd sbb nk kosongkn hard disk yg da begitu nazak..tup2 terjmpe
suatu masterpiece yg aku telah tulih suatu ketika dahulu...
oh yes. those times. zaman di mane aku belajar and feels almost everything for the first time in life..agak rindu juge mahu kembali ke zaman itu. tapi biasela kan mase mane leh putar balik. tunggulah i invent a machine dat can. hee~

something i wrote not long ago..

WORDS OF LIFE

Life is full of happiness
if the people you love
are there to look out for you..

The colorful of life is
actually how you plan
to make it fills with colors..

Life needs to have sacrifices
because not everyday you
will have options to choose..

The hardship in life is when
you can't overcome the fear
in yourself..

Life is more worthy if you
are surrounded by the people
who loves you..

The patience in life will give
happiness in return..

Life is full of surprises
it is the way you handle them
that makes it a great strength to live..

The strength in life is
actually the powerful of
love..~