the truth.

i do..

i really do..

i believed..

unfortunately,

my heart won't believe..

i have to bring my heart..

at least once..

to look in the eyes..

so that my heart believe~

the truth of the present.


a year ago.





pic credits to: google





ps: i pressed rewind. ohh~ fast forward please~

cik som emo~

tanak jenguk cik som dah pon xpe...
takkan nak pakse pulakkan..
cik som sedar..
sapelah cik som neh..
hanya sebuah blog..
yang berkata-kata melalui
penulisan cik penulis..
takpelah..
cik som nak membawa dirilah..

haha.
tetibe gelak.
sadis x ayat kat atas? hee ;P
da mcm hidop plak cik som neh.
padehal blog yg bisu jek. huhu~

tuhje post neh.
luahan cik som semata-mata.
haha.




ps: jam ohh jam. cepat sket ke lunch hour. ade date ngn both of my lovely sis ;)

demam ayam ;P

salam everyone..

sorry..lupe nk update smlm.
i got stuck in my dream world.
from balik keje till now. gile lama. haha~

disbbkan smlm i sesat kat highway mane ntah.
n sgt chuak kat jln raya. balik2 da mcm demam. ohh~
tuh yg tido jela pengubatnye..
pagi neh da okay, n xpyh mc. hee :)

btul tau. smlm super chuak.
ntah cemane ntah leh sesat pi highway.
i was just driving through seksyen seberang tuh, a.k.a belas2 puloh2 tuh..
adela i'm looking for a place. lama xgi smpai da sesat msok highway baru.
super chuak sbb, dlm hp no credits.
dlm wallet ade singgit jer. uhuh~
seb bek toll pkai TnG.
minyak plak hampir E.
ok, mmg patot la kan super chuak.
ohh one more, i was busy with my cell
gune ask-a topup tuh. tup2 kne hon ngan
diz big n super huge lorry. uhuh.
ok. again, xske elaborate kalo kejadian ngeri di jalan raya.
and, yeah it was pukol 6++. seriously byk kete. uhuh~

above all, my day was okay..
as always they made me smileeee ;)




ps: super chuak pon, him was on my mind the whole time on the road. tapi kalo dia ade pon, bukan leh wat ape pon kan. huhuu~ syukur, i was able to find a way back home :)

born month ",

July 2010 has come to its end..

a lot has happened..
not so colorful memories..
but a memory is still a memory..
n i'll cherish each and every bit although
it is a multi colors or dull ones..

world cup finale held in July.
haha. tibe2. cite bola.
so glad Spain had won!
oii oii. WC fever had ended laa. hehe

kk. iklan jek tadik. hee.
July. hmm~~
meant a lot to me.
got a job :)
got a car :)
got some pressies from fwens :)
syukur~
alhamdulillah~
sgt hepi~
dgn hadiah, rezeki dan kurniaan dari Ilahi :)

hepi, hepi jugak.
tp ade gak sedey nyer.
saye kan manusia biase.
mestilah ade various of feels.
bukan robot, leh programkan
chip hepi utk sentiasa hepi. hehe =p
tapi xpe, dugaan tuh byk mengajar kan.
inilah kehidupan. hee~

july twenty ten.
the month in my whole life (kecuali mase babylah! hehe=p)
i waited for a birthday wish.
never have i waited like this year.
ohh~

i kept saying till today.
it's just a wish.
a two words.
what the heck is so special bout it,
till i wanna wait for it?
sape2 ade jawapan?
haha. leh kite share2. huhuu~~

dah r. satgi mule merepek tah pape.
alrite, i'm eager to meet August.
mmg xkan ade pelangi,
tapi saye still nk jmpe August jugaks. huhuu~
moga byk kenangan indah lagi akan tercipta ^_~



ps: umo suda 24, tapi kenape fikiran saye masih tak matang2? uhh. pls think wisely, and stop thinking like a kiddo~

just another Tues.

kiss the rain.
what a soothing instrumental.
love 'em a lot.
nak try dgr? click la kat bwh tuh.
hehe.

another great day with my so-called them.
i heart u people a lot lah..
hee~
hope they'll be doin their best
on their upcoming test this Sunday..
saye kene jage 150+- students on dat day..
anyone willing to accompany me?
hee. leh usha my students yg cute miut tuh. huhu~

arineh ari warna warni saye.
spent some great times with
both of my sweet darls! ;)
syok2. lama x jmpeee. hehe
we had fun kan naek my D4D6. hee :)

ohh lupe.
in the morning tadi otw gi keje
i almost got hit by a taxi. uhuh.
xnak elaborate. s c a r y~
n saye da try pkai seat belt today.
tuhpon masa da ptg. bru tringt azam bru. haha




ps: my guitar is out of tune. tibe2 tuning larik. sayelah gatal pi tukar2 mende pusing2 tuh. uhuh. luckily, ade student nk tulun. Sunday, please hurry. huhu~

saya dan mereka ",

he kept saying this over and over again..

" Abah suke lah. gembira anak abah jadik mcm abah. "

with his face yang sesgt terharu me becoming sumone he dreamed of.

ohh~~

this is like my gift to you for raising me up with love~

i'll try hard to be the best in what i've become.

thank you for raising me up the best you can ",


intro je tuh.
hehe.
oklah, time to share with cik som
and the rest of my fans. hehe

for a month now, i've been appointed
as a lecturer. mane lagik, uitm lah. kan uitm dihatiku. haha :p
i'm glad, xsempat pon tanam anggur, sudah dpt job.
rezeki. syukur alhamdulillah~

so far, saye sgt hepi menjadik pendidik.
mereka, the so-called 'them' i've been talking about
really had made me smiled all the way to heart :)
students saye ramai. adelah nk dkat 200. hehe. seronok, hari2 ade je
gelagat mereka yg leh wat saye tertawa, dan lupe
seketika tentang kehidupan sy yg tiada bf neh. haha.
kecoh, nak gak up single sineh. hehe =p

saye ajar budak2 asasi law, and degree sains polisi.
they are so cool u know. hehe =)
ajar 2 subject jer.
-computer & information processing
-introduction to interactive multimedia

oklah tuh kan for starter. hehe
mcm2 gak pengalaman dilalui sebln neh.
hehe. yg for sure, sore kelaka lah
time kasi lecture. haha. i hate the mic lah ;p
haha~
xpe2. pasni akan slalu dishare ngn cik som
dan fans yg len pengalaman2 yg menarik. hehe

surat lantikan sy masih xdpt. uhuh~
lama dah tngu~
xpelah ade hikmah kot dpt lmbt..
emm~~
kalo kite ade terniat dlm hati nk buat something,
and then for some reason kite x buat, camne ek?
uhuh~~ pening saye~
saye pon tatau.
tgklah when the day comes,
if i think i should pursue with my niat tuh, i'll
do it confidently. ape pulak aku merepek neh kan?
haha. abaikan~
adela sumthin yg terniat tuk buat suatu tika dahulu.
but now, ntahlaa...payahla nk cakap. huhu.
so senyap. titik. hee :D












from gokusen: fightho- OHH! :)






ps: saye mahu menjadik cikgu dihati mereka dan mengajar ilmu yg berguna, miss atie ^_~

surprises...

a day fulls of surprises.
uhuh. not a gud one though.

i almost hit a motorcyclist.
ok. tanak elaborate. n g e r i~~

i told myself a hundred times by now,
to wear a seat belt. seat belt. seat belt.
ohh~~ i hate 'em. rili.
until now pon mmg lg comfortable
drive xpkai seat belt. huu~
tapi memandangkan keadaan di jln raya
yg ntah pape, n bleh mengundang maut
spt kejadian di atas tuh..
better saye pakai.
esok saye cuba tuk sesuaikan diri pakai. huu~~

another surprise.
psl meeting tadik.
ohh~
serious dead meat.
kene redo balik.
dieorg byk gile komen.
uhh~
i hate keje ngn org yg byk songeh. sekian.

and the deadline is like what? another 2 weeks. uhh >.<
aku rase graphic yg kiteorg wat da ckop ok dah.
hello, what do u people want huh??
uhh. seb bek bkn aku yg gi meeting tuh td.
mau x nye aku emo n tros ngamuk kat abg2 tuh. haizz~~
dieorg ingt sng nk wat sume tuh n siapkan in 2 weeks?
SIGH~~~~~~~~~

da smpai umah,
bru je nk rehat.
lupe. lupe aper?
nak punch card. adesss~~
seb bek umah sejengkal.
tuhla tadik agak kalut sket psl budak2
mau beli buku. huu~
smpai lupe nk punch.
x sal2 patah balik.
lagi worse.
after punch nk balik,
kete takleh start.
arghh~
chuak gak.
then tibe2 bleh plak. after a
few attempts of trying.
alhamdulillah~~

ok dat was the last surprise of the day.
ehh lupe.
another one.
both of my pendrives and
external hd kene serang virus
yg merbahaya. menchi lab 317 tuh.
uhh~

conclusion.
a bad day kan.
tah pape.
but alhamdulillah.
i'm safe home.
and although it's been a
long tiring day..
still..just thinking
bout their smiles today in
making me laugh
just made my day more complete.
thank you all ",


ps: b4 start class saye mesti suruh sumone bacekan doa. n versi today sgt kelaka. i tried so hard not to laugh. hee. thanks guys, how creative. well, a doa is still a doa kan :)

Wad D7..

hey..

just got back home..
what a rainy and windy nite..
went to visit abgku
he got admitted at hosp sg blh diz evening..
kne demam denggi.
pity him =(
his first time msok wad. huhu~~
dia sama mcm sayelah, xpenah msok wad..
a bit sadis nk tinggal dia tadik..sbb dia mcm
wat drama sedih..huhu
drama ape? ala xpela. takkn saye nk cite lebey2 lak.
marah dia kang.
kalo cite psl saye takpela kan saye cite. huhu~~

oklah, saye takleh bebel pjg.
sbb sy kesuntukan masa.
mmg stay up agi mlm neh..
nk siapkan keje saye tuh.
bos besar terlantar kat pital.
tapi keje still kne siap gaks. huhu

pape pon syukur~
esok ade kawan saye yg sudi
wakilkan saye gi meeting tuh.
uhuh. maap yek kalo kne marah nnt
ngn org atasan..saye mmg xdpt hadir
sbb ade class. uhuh~

arap project neh cpat2 la settle.
serious mau resign.
xreti ah nk keje byk2. masa xckop.
mungkin to some ppl freelance neh gud,
leh tmbh income..tapi kalo dieorg ckup mase
then go ahead la kan...saye? em saye da try..
tapi mmg xleh bg komitmen. huhu~~
better sy just concentrate satu keje jek. huhu~
maybe i'll try some light job for a freelance next time.
this one that i'm doin agak heavy lah.
tngjwb sgt berat~huu~
mase sy accept offer dlu i was jobless, tuh yg excited accept. huhu~
now, regret? hell yeah! haha =p
xpelah, experience~~

oklah..xnak bebel. last2 pjg gaks. huhu
ohh da midnite ekk.
saye bru nk dinner.
i love tonite..rainy nite~
satgi sy makan and will be accompany
by the sounds of raindrops.. hee. great~~

pic courtesy of google


ps: smells of the rains. sounds of the raindrops. ohh~ all i can think of in the car tonite is the long lost rain of my life~~~ T.T

midnite babble~

ade agi post?
haha.
tgk terlebih syg cik som camni lah.
jgn fan lari sudah.
sehari byk tul post, dieorg pon
muak nk bace. ehh ehh. kalo awak meluat,
jgn view in the first place. hehe =p

tak retilah nk bg tazkirah.
tp just nk ingatkanlah.
malam nisfu Syaaban da nk dkat..
watlah ape yg ptot. huhu~
saye pon bukan arif sgt.
yg slalu dgr org puase,
then bace Yaasin 3x.
so, ape lagik,
selamat beramal!

haa. mata saye kan da hampir
nk pulih 100%. hee! happy.
tak melayang 3rat. haha =p
awak sume tau kan, saye kan da 2x
jadik pirate. uhuh. so recently,
mata sy sakit agi, sy ingt sy neh
bakal jd pirate agi.
alhamdulillah after taruk ubat yg
doc dlu bagi, da hampir pulih. yay!
kalo x, mane nk cekup 3rat wat operation agi. huhu
dlu xpe ahh. abahku byrkan. hee.
skrng da keje, malu ahh i kalo dia byr agi. hehe
kesimpulannya, mata da baek. hee.
3rat selamat. kalo x, abeh elaun prac saye. haha :D

cam biase ah. kembali pd keje yg ntah thun bile nk siap.
confirm org atasan menyumpah aku x siap2 agi.
monday presentation courseware.
ohh~ aku keje.
sape mau ganti? haiyaa~~

ok2. sblm my stress get any worse,
wanna tatap sepuasnye gmbr dibwh.
haha. he made me smile today ",

acir hepi tok abah bought him a car ^_^

ihateclickingpublishpost.

as much as i miss calling out the Y word,

i actually miss calling out the M word much more..~~

sorry fans..
the blog theme clearly stated up there..
people always leave and the shadows always stays.

whether you people like it or not,
these kinda post about me missing
those that had left..
about me winding up on the past..
will be seen a lot more..
ohh~
you dunno how my life is..
yeah, i do really
appreciate the past A LOT ;)

my most lovely person alive in the past.
my favorite person stays temporary in the past.
there, period.

sounds of happiness ",

a weekend at home.
with the family.
the baby of the family is around.
ohh.~~
sweet moments ",

i just love waking up
in the morning...
hearing the laughter..
of all the people i heart..
i dunno for how long..
i'll be hearing..
the sound of the happiness
in this family..
hoping for longer..
longer..
and longer..
i cant live without hearing those sounds~~

but a thought had occur this morning..
as i heard..
baby acir is having fun playing
with his tok abah..
abahku so enjoyed himself,
feeling happy being around that little
kiddo..what a sweet moment~

will my baby one day have that same
moment too?
ohh~~~
Ya Allah, please do grant my wish
on giving Abahku, a longer healthy life ahead..Ameen~
I so want to share my happiness with him in the future life..~~~


ps: i'm being melancholy diz morning. yup, i dreamed of him again. as always~~

~!@#$%^&

urgh.
sedih.
tensen.
ohh~

xske.
haizz~

sume neh psl kejelah.
uhh~~

nk tdolah!
satgi bgun smbung.
uhh >.<




ps: asal rough moments jek, msti mau text. luckily, i dun hav the new number. haizz~ be independent lah hatie. pleaseeeeee move on~
luckily, ade guitar. ade gak nk kasi hepi. tp sket je r. tgk monitor ingt blk keje tros ahhh~~~

cik drebar ",

arineh pendek jela ek.
takde mood lak nk bebel kat cik som. haha
yela tuh. satgi tgk2 pjg gaks. hee =p

today pi keje sonok. sbb sy anta dan balik
membawa penumpang yg sgt bermakna dlm hidupku.
haha. ayat~
saye bwk abahku! hehe. mcm besh lak.
mmg da slalu nek ngn dia.
tp arineh rase best. sbb sy yg anta dia gi keje.
n pulang ke rumah. huhuu~
terasa mcm anak yg berguna tibe2. hehe.
slalu asek aku je penumpang yg kat sblh/blkng
dok wat taik mata je keje. hehe.

tuh jelah. hehe.
xdo gapo nk kabo dah. huhu
only few more days to go.
uhuh~~
cepatlah cepatlah~
ohh~
haha.
suke wat suspense kan?
haha. xde mende lah.
saye menunggu hari
utk ke suatu tempat..
tempat yg bleh membuat hatiku sgt
peace gitu. uhuh~
the place i so wanna visit
every weekend..
with my D4D6 ;)

knape x pegi lagik?
haha. takkn nk cite kat sineh jugak.
malu la i ;p
haha ngada~
serupa xyah cite.
hee. xpe2. only few more days.
nnt leh la pegi. hee~

oklah. back to those freaking flash thingy. uhh~
rase cam nk terjun laut jer. malassssss ok nk siapkan. manyak tul.
ahaks. sah pasni resign jadik GD. sape nk ganti tmpt aku, dialu-alukan sgt2.
sila ek call 013-3333573, Mr Harizan.
for those yg ade basic Flash n berminat jadik graphic designer. keje sng jek.
wat courseware pkai Adobe Flash~

aku ske keje neh. besh. tp mcm xdpt bahagikan masa lah.
saye kan mmg sesgt bad at time management. seriously.
punch card takyah ckp lah x penah nye pagi tak merah. haha.
ehh. tapi i blk sgt lmbt okayh. nk dkat 7, bkn kul 5. huhu. ganti blk dtg lmbt pagi2. haha
padehal, duduk mane? seksyen 2 jer. 2 mane? shah alam jek. bukan bangi. haha.

ohh tibe2 teringat. akakku ajak pindah ngn dia. ohh~~
saye sgt dilemma. saye kan sgt susah nk say no to all of my sayangs~
tapi...dah kalo dok sec 2 pon gi kje lmbt. inikan dr sg blh.
maunye sy kne tolak kul 6. dahla ngn jem agi. uhuh~~
still x decide agi...i hope i can make the best choice..~

maaplah yek. mostly few entries neh asek cite psl keje. psl kete. huhu~
tuh je two new stuffs yg currently freshing in my life..
huhu~



ps: flash, cpt siap leh x? computer sila operate sndiri. haha. aku penat dah ngadap comp 24/7. huhu. mau men guitar. dah bape ari x men. wat keje nye pasal lah! rindu rindu rindu gitarku~~ haha.
dah2. gi smbung cptkan siap. leh men lagu baruuuuu. weeee~~ ;)

ohh..broga~~

supposedly, at this hour i would be
walking at the broga hills...

ohh my.
i waited for so long..
to watch the sunrise over there..

rili need to be there..
and watch the picturesque view
with my own naked eyes~

unforch, i had to decline again..
i've to finish up this freelance deadlines
thingy that i've been doin.
ohh~
again the broga hills plan is delay..

hav to wait a little longer lah.
Ramadhan is just around the corner.

rili hope..
will be going SOON~~


pic courtesy of google

seriously xde cite ape2 =p

salam everyone!

hehe. ske lah. ske lah. haha
x abes2 ske. omg, tatau nk express camne.
rase mcm best sgt dpt kembali pd cik som kite neh.
hehe. rindu bangat. padehal blog cuti xsmpai pon sebln. haha.
pape pun thanks to the BFF yg sudi bg green light
so that cik som leh operasi spt biase. haha.
she was the reason in the first place i stopped writing. uhuh.
pakse i stopped writing. huhu. macik yg gawang. hee =p
jgn marah dear, i noe u did it coz u cared too much for me. thx for
all the episodes of calming me down :)
rili, deep down inside, you'll always be my need much =)

ahaks, udahla. kang satgi nk termuntah laks dia bace. huhu
ape ek nk cite. emm..
saye ade spaghetti kat sblh neh. saye xske mkn spaghetti.
kalo nasik x abes bg burung kat blkng mkn.
spaghetti nk bg saper? haha. u all nak? hehe =p
tetibe cite psl spaghetti. hahaha

oklah, xde ape r nk cite. ohh ader2.
td sy blk keje, bru terokai satu perkara. huhu. terokai. ayat~ haha =p
saye akan ilang tumpuan seketika semasa memandu
tatkala kat radio, ade lagu yg menyentuh jiwa. haha. ayat lagi~~
sentuh jiwa sy lah! uhuh. tibe2 ntah ke mane2 pk.
arap2 pasni dptlah sy control keadaan bile berlaku lagik.
confirm lah occurs lagik. byk kot lagu yg bg kenangan. uhuhuh~~
sbg pemandu yg sgt berhemah a.k.a yg da 5 thun x bwk kete. haha.
saye sgt berhati-hati. uhuh. ckp jela takot. haha.
penatlah~ nk tgk side mirror lah, depan lah, blkng lah. haizz~~one more. stereng berat!
haha. tuh pon nk ngeluh, ngada kan saye neh?
tapi sonok bwk kete, satu. saye da hafal jln sket2. dua. saye tak ngantuk! ahaks, sgt
miracle sy berada dlm kenderaan dan x tdo. huhu~~

ya rabbi. pjgnye cite psl driving. hehe.
kete sy bukan kete bawuuu. mcmane nk order, pay slip pon tadak agi. haha
kancil aje yg mampu dibeli wat tika ini. hehe.
da kaye, mini cooper trus ahh. aci x? haha =p

oklah, da x ngntuk dah. smngt bercerita mmg la ngntuk pon ilang. haha.
mau sambung wat keje flash tuh.
uhuh. arap siap r. bos da asek call je mintak update. uhuh~

ohh. xcite kan agi kan episode saye dan kerjaya saye. huhu.
nxt wk k cite, diz week the so-called 'them'
cuti. mid break sem. hehe.

burfday sy pon xcite kan..ahaks. byk tul nk share ngn cik som neh.
huhu. ntah fans bace ke x. yela sume org kan ingt blog neh cuti. huhu.
ala xbace pon xpe. x rugi ape pon. huhu.
em burfday xyah cite r. my worst year kot. ahaks. xpelah tutup citelah.
arap2 3 july 2011 lebih bermakna =)

oii oii. sudahlah. pjg dah post neh. maap yer pembace sekalian.
apb penulis da syok sndri membebel kat blog sndiri
ginilah citenyer. huhu.


ps: blk keje wajib gi kdai beli ILT. hee. kat sane arineh rmai yg lalu sblh saye mostly, mid 40s women holding their daughter's hand and walked togeda. hee. sweet. i just smiled. missed those days. a lot. tuhan saje yg tahu. childhood days sgt sgt sgt bermakna pd saye. knape? only those at heart knows..huhu~~

kasih yang pergi :)

haha. start2 da gelak.
smngt x saye smpai upload kat sineh jugak?
kat FB pon upload. huhu
besh2. haha
penemanku membuat
flash yg x siap2 agi neh. uhuh~
nak resign jd freelancer leh?
haha. abeh je project neh,
sah resign. penat~

jom2. karok skali.
lagu neh bru msok dlm list
fave song tuk karok.
hee.
sape2 nk duet ngn sy nnt,
mesti lagu neh tau! haha.
huhu. susah nk bwk, kne tarik
mmg sore tah pape. peduli ape kan
bkn aku wat konsert pon. hehe :D

eii. sonoknye da bkk blk blog.
penat wat keje je leh ngeluh sineh.
hee. sian fans yg bace.
penat skali. haha.

penat dgn D4D6. haha =p

a hectic day.
seriously.
dari pg smpai ke ptg.
huu~

pengajaran ayat.
hargailah zaman belajar.
bile keje, no life lah. uhuh~

mcm2 berlaku.
sgt byk.
tak perlu kot nak update
setiap satu.
lama dah kan saye cuti dari menulis.
hehe.

i'm back.
hehe.
suke ",

ok. arini penat sgt.
luckily, at the end of the day i
spent times with my BFF.

kasih yang pergi really nice wasn't it?
haha~
syok tarik bagai. hee~
gonna be my 2nd song
with my fave thing~
my guitar! hee~

my 1st one lagu ape?
haa. jeng3~~
xdela pro. tp bleh la layan feeling main. haha
nantikannn. hehe :p

ps: balik nmpk my fave VIN. lama xnmpk. hee. whatever things that used to be my fave will always stays as it is. i dun hav the plan on replacing any of 'em. but i'm sure my list of favorites akan bertmbh byk in the future. hee :)

a dream.

a great picture..
a breathtaking view..
an image of his loneliness..
an on/off wallpaper..

gave the inspiration
to create
this nice image
called
a dream.

especially for
shadows of mine..

a dream.

credits to google

credits to google

credits to google