='(

current mode: T_T

only because of two reasons.

first.
had a midnite chat with abahku.
suddenly, i felt dat i'm not dat brilliant enuf..
he asked on my job hunting activities..
ntah nape..
sy tetibe sedey..
sy tkot nnt sy x dpt keje kat co. best2..
sy xnak dia kecewa.
sy nak dia tgk sy berjaya..
mampukah saye?
saye juge sedey bile..
bila dia...
titik. tak perlu saye elaborate lagik..

last.
as always.
i miss my favorite person~
every single nite..
i waited for him..~
and as always..
i couldn't say the right thing.
what the heart really wants to convey..~
i'm..
a f r a i d~~

kecewa kecewi. huu~

separuh hari today..
i've been doin spring cleaning
for my home..
sempena menyambut
kepulangan abahku from
umrah..

felt great. breathing in
a cleaning environment. hehe.
emm..
i'm glad he safely came home..

but i'm not dat happy tho..
coz i let him down..
altho he's fine. smiling and everything..
but i can tell his disappointment in me.
so transparent.
sorry...i did my best. just not my very best.
i knew my result is gonna be
the first thing he would ask on..

ohh..~~
now i felt so down~~
i let him down.
i'll try my best for my postgrad..
and pursue his dream of me
continuing his career..
inshaAllah~~

numbers revealed...

rite now i'm typing here..
with the feeling of..
resah x senang duduk..
huu~~
mane aisar? aisar mane? mane aisar? aisar mane? plz angkat my calls~~~
knape?
emm...
my BFF punye konvo kan today...
it's her big day!
and i didnt come to share the joy with her..
bukan saye sengaja..
tapi da mmg..
late ptg tadik..
ujan mmg lebat gile..
ngn thunder sume..
saye nak pegi mcmmane..
takkan nk redah pkai payung kan..
huuu~~~
sori dear. rili am...
i noe i didnt come masa diploma..
unfortunately, degree pon sama...
s o r r y~~
i hope i can be there on ur master okay =)
anyway, i'm so proud of what u had achieved.
CONGRATS ^_~

i juz got back..
tadik gi celebrate my fren's belated burfday.
so , kpd cik suhada kite...HAPPY BELATED BURFDAY!
awak muda lagik. bru 21...jauh lg perjalanan..gud luck okayh =)

oklah tuh je kot..nak update today..
i managed to siapkan my keje diz morning...
tapi still ade lagik next keje..
tp mlm neh mcm nak rest. huhu~
arineh mlm terakhir kemerdekaan saye...
last nite my frens sleepover ngn saye..
gonna miss all those moments we shared for these couple
of weeks...~

i'll end this post with..
someone made me smiled today =)
but...as always..he..~~
i dunno~~

kerja kerji :(

i hate do things yang i x phm...waaa~~
knape kne wat kerje kerji neh. huu~~
ohh cpat abes prac bleh?
oklah. saje stop by. saye sbrnye tgh sleepy gile neh.
tapi kne email asap keje neh. uhuh.
xtdo laa...
uhuh~
sok lebam la mata saye.
xnak. xnak. nnt xlawa dlm gamba. huhu.
da mcm brung hantu. hehe.
esok adlh my BFF big day =)
so saye kne beli a bouquet of flowers for her..
she made it.
her dreams came true.
i am so proud of her. rili am :)
sape nak teman saye pi konvo sok?
jom jom. meramaikan org yg da mmg ramai kat dewan tuh. haha.
dahla late ptg. huhu.
sok sy update her big day okay.
knape big? haaa..sok ek. tata :)

suda kembali =)

atas permintaan ramai blog neh kembali
beroperasi. HAHA =p
padehal bape kerat jek yg mintak..hehe~

emm..
emmmm..
honestly, i dunno how to start..where to start..
lama sgt kot tinggal blog..
hee. padehal bru bape weeks ek. huhu..
actually, recently ade i update satu post.
tapi ntah nape. terclick delete plak. haha. dan2 terclick =p

oklah..
knape saye tak update blog?
1) impian saye selama neh musnah.
2) harapan utk hatiku kembali berwarna hanya palsu.
3) saye terperangkap dalam dimensi hidup yang sibuk.

bleh x nk gelak jap. haha. ayat kat atas kelaka kan? BM saye 3 je. huhu

saye cube ringkaskan perkara di atas ek..
cube je tau. kalo still pjg jgn buhsan ek bace =p

impian. mmg la bukan sumenye musnah.
tapi one of' em which is my impian yg sbnrnye aku
leh kecapi dlm masa terdekat neh..unforch, takde rezeki ='(
i already knew my result..
and...
T_T
huhu...tuh yg x smngt tuh..i didnt get what i dreamed of all these while..
xpelah...ape2 pon..saye still syukur sbb..
saye sudah tamat belajar tuk degree...
inshaAllah ade rezeki, saye cube rebuild my dream for master =)

hati ade warna? hehe.
em tulah. recently, saye je kot perasan. ntah ape ntah nasib.
asek jd budak perasan jek. haha.
saya sangka kan hati saya akan penuh ngan warna-warni
seperti dulu...tapi tulah..takde rezeki jugak..
for my heart to be as colorful as the rainbow..
harapan sy yg menggunung tuk kembali berwarna nmpknye..
semakin tipis...saye da letih tuk berharap..suda lama
sy usahakan tuk ia menjadi realiti...tp ternyata
ia hanya mimpi saye jek...yang tak akan bertukar jd realiti..
saye sudah sedar akan realiti..
baru je sedar..
huhu..
trust me..
it wasnt easy..ive to think about it thoroughly...
i've hid my status the minute someone locked my heart..
so it took me a long time..
to realize my real status. trust me..it wasnt easy for me to just
display it back..not as simple as a one mouse click.
i guess..some things are just better left unsaid.
i'll live well and move on happily =)

life really is busy as a bee. *sigh~~
mmg penat.
saye skrng praktikal..
jadik mcm2 dateline kne kejar. waa~
nama jek budak prac tapi da keje
mcm staff btul2..
tapi a cool experience..
lepas tuh plak..
siang keje.
mlm mcm2 kerjaya ade.
smlm jadik plumber. HAHA =p
mngu dpn lak saye start keje part time saye.
tatau la plak ape nasib. lagi bz kot. haha
smpai nk blaja maen guitar saye pon x sempat.
huhu..
lupe ek nk cite. sy da ade guitar. ari2 sy tido
bertemankan guitar saye. so hepi la sket hati ini =)
ohh lupe. last week jek.
dua tiga kali ulang alik gi lawat org sakit.
sy teman jek. membe kawan saye yg sakit.
penat. tapi hepi. sbb sy dpt pegi tmpt
yg saye lahir. hehe ",
hmm...
byk lagi sbnrynye nk cite. kelaka kebykannye..
tapi kang pjg sgt lak. haha.
maklum la cite seminggu nk cramp one post. gile.
sape ntah nk bace. haha :D

oklah..ape pon..
i wanna thank my life. hehe. sbb life sy sgt hectic skrng neh.
saye suke. ske ske! sbb bile sy bz. saye takde mase nak
duduk2 dgr lagu tuh la lagu neh la. pikir sana pikir sineh..
diary pon da nk dkat sebln kosong. baguslah! takdela
saye meleret-leret cite bukan2 yg ternyata takkan jd realiti pon. huhu
so life, thanks! i love the busyness in my life at the moment.
dapat sy lupekan kebahagiaan yg hilang selama neh. heee~

i'll end this post with..
pesanan khas dr penaja. haha.

penatlah hire co-author neh~~
x reti2 nak tulih. haha. potong gaji kang bru tau. hee =p
nnt bace offer letter k, siap tulih gaji bape. huhu~
tulis tau. saye busy. nnt fan saye nak bace ape.
maap la. saye mmg suke paksa awak wat mende yg awak tak suke. haha:D
hehe. good luck ",

again..be back soon :)

hey y'all..

macam biase. blog saye neh kan
ade musim rehatnye. ade musim
muncul kembali. haha..

today hari sy xbape besh..
mood ntah ilang ke mane.
adoi..~
kalo x, mesti tak rehatkan blog neh.
huhu~
ended up the whole day
drpd pagi smpai tgh mlm..
i wat keje dpn tv..
so mmg mcm2 cite tgk arineh..
haha. pnye la lama x layan tv.
bru sedar mcm2 ada kat tv. lol :D

meeting x jd arineh. so mmg stayed home jek..
sok mcm biase. kne pi opis..
dateline keje yg aku tgh wat neh kan..
adeh~
so mmg kne stay up la siapkan.. :(

oklar..
i'll be back soon..
x lama kot..
saye kan mane leh lama2 pisah ngn blog sy neh..
hehe..

to my dear co-author,
kalo rajin tuh...write la sumthin
while i'm gone..
anything is fine...asalkan
my fans ade mende nk bace..
well, it's up to you =)

oklah..padi da dtg. ku tunggu pagar drpd pagi. neh yg dtgnye padi. ohh~~~
pagar ohh pagar. HAHA =p

4th attempt~

this is my 4th attempt writing a post for today..
the previous 3 have been published earlier..
but i decided to delete them all..

dunno why...
i guess..
i dunno what to guess anymore..

whatever~
i'll be fine..
as always..

fantasy~

my 501th post..

i screwed up.

i messed up.

yes, my fault.

i know.

i realized now.

fairy tale really do never come true.

i wanna keep on dreaming.

even though you had wake me up to the reality.

still i wanna keep on dreaming.

after all.

i love my dream.

coz it's you...

~~

pe....nat.LAH =(

heyo sume..

ok. nak start bebel tuk mlm neh. haha
rase2 malas nk bace. atau malas nk amek tau.
cpat2 kuar dr blog neh yek. haha :p

arineh 1st day saye prac.
xbape jauh dan xbape dekat. hee.
kat subang jaya..

how do i feel? penat. haha~
mmgla.
jauh kot. penat tau nak nek bus la
komuter la. bwk lappy lagik. huu~
nak panggil heroku CK, da injured
kan dia da kne tikam ngn blue kryptonite.
haha. iklan jap =p

agak jakun jugak rineh nek ktm.
hehe. bru tau ade ladies coach! cool~
nmpk sgt da lama x nek ktm. hehe
saye tak riso psl tmbang. sbb sy ade auto reload touch n go.
pkai jela byk mane pon. automatik reload. cool isnt it? haha.
tp sian membe sy neh. arineh je abes RM 10 kat TnG dia..
dia la pi touch tiap2 kali twice. haa camne tuh. phm2 je r.
tuh yg leh abes 10 hengget today. haha.

ape yg sy riso cume. penat. haha. x abes agi cite penat.
sbb company tuh jauhhhhhhh sgt drpd ktm.
kaki penat. bahu penat. sume penat. haha.
kan da kate td nak bebel. huhuu~

lunch kelaka. situh byk mamak stall jek.
okay. satu fakta mengenai Hazrati.
dia tak suke pegi mamak stall. hehe.
unless terpakse as if ramai2 nak pi,
takkan nk ngada say no kan? huhu~
bukan demand ape, saye makan jek gerai2 tepi
jalan tuh. x kesah. asalkan kedai melayu.
hehe. so citenye. terpakse la sy dan kwn2 saye
pegi carik kedai melayu nk lunch td.
adela satu kedai ape ntah nama. org n9 la..
msok jela. gile kau. sekali mkn 10 hengget lebih sorang.
ok. pas byr. sume ckp. xnak msok agi kedai tuh. haha
menghabiskan duit jek. haha :D

kat opis. watpe agi. keje lah kan! takkan wat tahi mata laks.
hahaa. penat. aii bape kali ntah dah ulang penat. huhu
sbb nk kejar dateline khamis neh. tapi ade plak mase bebel kat sineh.
haha. kan da ckp post sblm neh. saye sunyi. takde teman berbicara.
drpd ckp ngn dinding, kipas, pintu. bek ckp kat sineh kan.
haa mule la. nak dtg insane dia tuh. haha :p

balik tadik. part paling best arineh.
penat. huh. sekali lagik. yela kne redah hujan tuuhh. huhu
tapi besh! hepi! sbb...
FOODS ;)
haha. otw blk lalu subang parade. then ternmpk kat entrance tuh..
auntie anne's. omg. omg. lama gile kot xmkn.
Sar, jgn jeleshhh aku mkn tadik. hee. sok nk beli lagik.
ari2 pon xpe. feverotos la katekan ;)
pastu smpai komuter. akhirnye~~~
i jumpe karipap! haha.
seyes dok ngidam dr pagi lagik. hehe.
pastu g la kdai nk beli air. nk amek cam biase la ILT..
tup2 i nmpk air neh. mountain dew. omg! lama dah tak minum...
jarang nmpk kat kdai. tibe2 td ader. heee. suke dpt minum.
membe i lagik kelaka. dia mule tkot nk minum.
dia ingt beer ke ape. sbb kaler hijau.
gile kau! takde makne aku nk minum air kencing setan itu. haha :D

tadik kat opis saye dpt panggilan jauh dr Abahku ;)
alhamdulillah semuanya selamat sampai :)
moga aku disineh pon selamat. inshaAllah~~

ok. tamat da episod 1st day prac saye degree neh.
even tak sebest prac dip dlu..tapi experience kan? hee :)
saye pon da tersgt penat arineh. termsok la penat menaip. haha.
byk agi mende nak wat kat umah.
OT di umah. haha.
jadik guard kat umah.
jadik chef kat umah.
jadik cleaner kat umah.
ok. sejak bile i transform jd supergirl neh? lol =p
ya rabbi. bru scroll nek atas. gile pjg bebel.
mmg penangan PENAT tul. haha.
maap yer readers saye sume.
kdng2 sy pnye tahap mereng mmg tak terkawal =p

baeklah kalian semua..
arineh je pjg. 1st day la katekan. sok2 ok kot.
normal jek postnye. haha.
sok xyah gi opis. kami just meeting
ngn prjct manager di McD sec 3. yay! dekat jek ;)

saye akhiri post ini dgn..
ku harapkan pagar. padi yg datang. HAHA. sah2 BM bukan A. ngeee =p
padi leh jadi beras. leh makan. kan aku ske makan. tapi.
xnak padi lah!
nak jugak pagar tuhhhh. haha. mereng lagik. tata u all ;)

naaaaak itu kuih =.=

skrng jam di lappy pukol 5:55 pm
maseh di opis..
uhuh. keje byk.
dateline thursday. haizz~
oklah. saje singgah sineh.
kot2 ade posts dr co-author.
ok xde jugak.
xpelah. sy berhenti berharap. haha. ayat.
bukan nk cite tuh.
nak cite.
aku teringin
KARIPAP!!
drpd pagi lagik.
waaa~~~
dahla ujan kat luar..
dapnye dpt mkn karipap ngn air teh..hee~~
ujan, bile mau benti?
sape nk anta saye balik...
dahla jauh..
payung x bwk..
sbb kne bwk lappy yg berat neh. huh~
haha.
k abes da bebel. hee. ngadakan saye? =p

a missing face for 10 days~

hey everyone..

firstly, nak wish hepi burfday kat my blogger frens, Liza n Alan!
HEPI BURFDAY GUYS, have a great one yah =)

mcm2 happened kat saye arineh.
quite a hectic day.
tp mcm takleh cite sume.
some stuffs are quite personal.
tapi it was quite A DAY. lah. haizz~~
xpelah, juz forget la..trying here~~ hee~

saye x pegi keje arineh.
ptot first day prac.
due to some complications,
i juz cant make it.
not my fault okayyyyy. huh~

saye xdpt lagik result thesis.
pegi uitm lecturer takde.
jumpe sv jek tadik..

arineh saye dan kakak saye
wat drama kat klia.
yup. it was a hell of a dramatic drama. hehe
pasan mcm jd pelakon laks =p
moga segalanya selamat.
selamat pergi dan selamat kembali =)

oklah, nk kene pk satu lawak tuk
diz one contest i masok dlm mjlh gila2. haha
pening pk. tp nak menang. dpt duit. hehe $$$

hari on9 sedunia ",

punyelah sejam pikir..
still kosong kat sineh..
haizz~
sejak2 abes blaja neh..
makin xde idea lak nk tulih..
huhuu~
tuh yg smpai i decided nak
invite co-author tuh..
mane tau dia leh tulun2 tmbhkan
posts2 yg menarik..
dah kalo aku yg tulih balik2 psl aku...
bkn ade pon psl isu semasa. hehe
tapi my invitation tuh mcm senyap je..
ikutlah...kalo sudi nk tulun write..
u're always welcome here in blogger..
tak sudi, takpe..ignore je invitation tuh.
huhu~~
saye harap dia sudi nak kongsi cerita ;)

ape ntah nk cite..
emm arineh.
tgk smallville. season finale. tp ade smbungan
nxt week. pastu break. uhuh. nk tngu season 10 mmg la
lama. huu~
sgt best episode tadik. FINALLY, lois tau the blur is CK ;)

pastu wat ape lagik. arineh ari on9 sedunia agaknye.

mencarik pasal kat fb.
hampir kne mrh. pdn muke. tuhla nyebok lagik...huu~
niat mau tulun saje, i got an extra one here. bkn nk nyibuk x tentu psl..
hrp maklom..~

mencarik keje di jobstreet. mcm2 company aku
anta resume. ntah bape je balik yg akan
bg feedback nnt. huhu~

mencarik info di upm. smpai x phm2 camne nk apply master.
sgt byklah instruction. malas nk bc, leh x? haha.

mencarik gelak tawa di youtube.
hehe. bile terasa mcm seakan mood bertukar ke arah
hampir2 mendung gitu, cepat2 la carik vids yg leh gelak2. hehe. kelaka
tgk vids johan ngn zizan. johan sebijik gile imitated eric, chef wan n dr fadzillah kamsah. haha :D

mencarik senyuman yg ilang di ym. haha ayat.
tadik dpt conference ngn my besties. sgt best...rinduuu lama x jumpe.
masing2 da bz ngn practical. huhu~
bru je few mins, ade org terkejut. aku tima kasih kat dia sbb suatu pertanyaan. hehe.
dia just tnye "present ko camne?"
i guess.. i've waited for this sumone to ask. tp x tnye2. haha
and when diz fren asked me tadik. tros mcm.
hey, thanks :)

sgt byk mencarik psl kan kat tenet ini hari. haha
esok hari sibuk. ehh ke kalut. haha.
esok pnye cite, esok lah yer.
oklah sy akhiri post neh dgn..

td sy lupe login id jobstreet.
pastu dia anta la verification code kat hp.
seakan nombor tepon umah sy dlu.
my home sweet home
6360203 (",)

hee tuhjela. tata mesia!

9264::

24 hour to go~

hmm...
hmm......
mmg hari yg memenatkan..
physically n mentally~

mmg nk sgt luahkan kat sineh..
tapi tibe2 saye takde idea
camne nk luahkan ape yg ada dlm
hati neh..

it hurts..a lot.
xpela.
hadap jela..
ape lagi leh wat kan..
sabar. sabar. sabar.
one more day.
only one.

jaguh lari =p

sgt panas kan arineh?
ohh~
in the morning i made a
chop chip cookies ;)
sedap la jugak. hee~

juz got back home...
yup. i did ran away from home for one day.
bace kan previous post.
btullah, i lari.
cool attempt though. haha =p
i'm sure akan ade next other episode
of lari. neh da attempt ke bape pon ntahla.
tak terkira dah. haha.

oklah. kne go n prepare dinner.
mlm neh ade kenduri tahlil..
sempena my family mau berangkat ke umrah
on Monday morning..
teringin juge mahu pergi..
i guess tak smpai lagi seru..
tp adela planning..
inshaAllah ckop duit..
thun dpn or maybe next other year..
jejak la kaki saye..
inshaAllah...~~

so, umrah la next target tuk saving.
skrng kete. hee.
kawen? haha. tuh next next next ntah bile nye next target ntah. haha =p
saye bru terima satu undangan kad perkahwinan. hehe.
my skewlmate nak kawen. happy for her..
tapi lmbt lagik. bulan 6. huhuu~
so another reU la tuk dak saas. cant wait nk jmpe
baby ayez & hariz. hehe ;)

ehh. ehh. melalut lagik. oklar. my sister
tuh da terpekik panggil nama i. x msok2 dpur.
haha. salah sape? salah blogger. haha. ngada, padehal
slh diri sndri. hehe.

jwpnnye tiga..~

kalo dah 1 + 2 = 3,
3 la kan jawapannye..

takkan bleh jadik 1 ke 2 ke 4 ke..
dah mmg sah2 jawapan dia 3..
kira la pkai tgn ke..
pkai abacus ke..
pkai calculator ke..
still 3 kan?
sbb tulah jawapannye :p

haha..apelah mepek pagi2 buta neh..
ntahla..
biarlah..
saye da malas..
maybe saye da terlebih penat kot..
sudah2 la tuh..
da dpt jawapan kan..
so terima jela dgn redhanye..
tak perlu nk mnghrpkan jwpn tuh
tibe2 bertkr jd 1 ke 2 ke 4 ke..
dah 3...so 3 lah..
deal with it hatie.
yes, it hurts everything..
ur heart ur soul.
but live on..
being alive sesungguhnya satu nikmat
yg sgt sgt sgt berharga..
make use of it..
focus on ur career, hatie.
just put aside the happiness.
taruk tepi je.
yer tepi selekoh tuh je.
mmg perlu..sgt perlu kan kebahagiaan itu..
tapi...jika ia lebih kpd mengundang
ketidaksempurnaan...
lupekan jela.
be proud of urself.
at least u tried.
so, smile ^_^

18 above please~

perhatian. post ini mengandungi kata2 atau bahasa
yang agak kurang sopan.
hanya 18 tahun ke atas boleh membacanya.
harap maklum.

masa kite kecik2..
mak kata..
abah kata..
wan kata..
tok kata..
cikgu kata..

kita kene hormat pada orang tua..
tak kira apa jua jenis situasi..

kan? betulkan?

ok. abes psl tuh. satgi smbung blk..

semua org ade kawan kan..
tak kawan pon.. kawan kepada kawan kan..
so kalo sape2 lah..tak kira kawan ke sape ke..
buat taik kat kite. sakit hati kan..
dlm hati nk je wat taik balik. tapi perlu ker?
cukoplah dlm hati kuat2 ckp..
sial lah!

itu kalo yg wat taik org2 muda mcm kite neh...
tapikan..
kalo org tua yg buat taik kat kite..
sah2 la sakit jugakkan...
sgt sakit kot..
tapi ape yg kite leh wat..
hanya..
wat bodo. dan diam.
sbb per.
kan da ckp tadik.
HORMAT.

tapi kalo da selalu sgt.
selalu disineh refer kepada..
lebih drpd 100 hari..
wat taik ngn kite. sape yg tahan kan.
manusia ade hati kot.
lain lah vampire kan.
adoi.
sakit.
sbb tak tahan sgt.
hanya satu jelah.
lari.

okay. post ini da abes.
tak payah la yer kawan nk teka meneka
saye ckp psl aper.
sy cuma nk luahkan ape yg terbuku. ternovel dalam hati saye ini.

lagi ssh dari java kot =p

i need to enroll myself
in a language class.
what kind of language?
emm ntahla.
i pon tatau the exact name..
bile da blaja bru phm kot.
sbb saye mmg xphm..
kalo bleh sy nak phm..
tp sy cube tp sy still xphm..
jadik bile u try to communicate
with me using dat language..
all i can do is just smile.
coz i've no clue
of what so ever u're trying to say..
ohh no. satu..~
so i've to start looking for a class..
a teacher that can guide me..
so dat i'll be able to communicate in dat
language..
well i dunno la kan..
if it's intentional to use dat language..
to just sort of..make me
clueless..
n nvr understandable..
ohh no. dua~
i wanna speak..
in ur language..
the language u understand well enuf..
the one u're comfortable to use..
when talking to me..
ohh no. tiga..~
merepek ape ntah mlm2 buta neh..
haha.
dahla.
takde ohh dah.
abeh dah =p

bfast-lunch: palm garden, dinner: mcd =) =)

hello..

maap yer. lmbt sket update mlm neh..
pnat je view ek tgk2 xde cite agi . hee~

arineh last day workshop kat palm garden tuh..
my presentation went well..
biase jek sbnrnye..
x present sgt pon..more to discussing
with the clients..
lunch was awesome!
cheese cake! ice cream! wahh~~ feverotos. haha
tuh dessert la. overall lunch pon besh..variety sgt =)

penat sgt. sbb tngu boss nk amek sket pnye lama.
huhu. jalan jam.
adela after tngu dlm 1.5 hours bru dia smpai. haizz~~
haha ngeluh je keje. dahla ngada. pegi balik boss jd drebar. haha
haruslah kan!
sbb boss tuh abg saya =p

arineh wpon penat. saye tak tido dlm kete.
sbb nk tgk jalan. haha. tamao la sesat cam smlm
agi. hehe. inshaAllah duit saye pon makin lama
makin menggunung. haha. duit ape?
duit monopoly. haha =p
haruslah kan saving. dah lama saye saving.
tuk masa dpn sy yg memerlukan
kete tuk bekerja. ayat. haha :D
jadik kne la tau jalan. hp sy takde gps.
huhu~

xlama saje lagik..puff! muncullah kete idamanku~~
haha. gile ke. kete idaman. xdpt la. haha.
tngu jela yek. kete ape yg muncul.
kete sorong ke. kete mainan ke. haha~
by dat time, i need a tourist guide utk tnjuk jalan.
gaji bleh nego. haha =p

ok ok. mane ntah melencong.
arineh best. da abes. leh la sok aku rehat.
arituh abes fyp x abes agi rehat. nnt senin da start prac.
uhuh~ emm..still..esok. ohh~~ t a k o t~ result thesis..
jangan TL. PLEASE~~~~doakan i berjaya k =)

syok workshop 2 ari neh. byk mende blaja.
lagi2 hal2 yg berkaitan ngn dealing ngn org2 bekerjaya neh. hehe
agak awkward la mule2. sbb maseh pasan diri neh student jek. huhu
so it was a nice experience =)
met cool peoples!
nice hotel!
great foods!
dahla tuh. haha

entah~

what
the
hell
am
i
doing
?
?
?

i need a compass to lead the way.

sesat as always. haha

a tiring day for me..
but..
still have time for my shadows of mine =)

it was a great experience for me today..
being a sudden freelancer. haha.
the storyboard presentation held at
Palm Garden Hotel IOI Resort, Putrajaya. ntah btul ke x nama. huhu :p
ramai la ade kat situh kan..
bentangkan storyboard masing2. huhu~
arineh modul membe aku..
sok turn aku plak..
simple je...just present to the client..
then, if they wanna add or remove nything
they'll argue/discuss, and we'll take note.
so tuh jela! haha.
arap2 by tomorrow, they'll give a green light on the
storyboard. so dat the project can move on to the
development phase..
of course lah, lepas da betulkan storyboard tuh ikut
client's requirement..

selain experience. yg best is..FOODS!!
haha. mcm2 ada =)
buffet style. dari ke nasik lauk pauk ke satay ke rojak ke sushi ke bla bla blaa.. haha
cant wait for tomolo! td lupe amek bread pudding. hee~

ohh lupe. tadik balik project mgr kiteorg tumpangkan.
huhu. sian. dia tatau jalan. 2 kali 5 lah yg menumpang neh. HAHA.
so mmg sesat.
smpai ke bangi, serdang, kajang, puchong, subang.
haha. mmg kelaka. last2 she dropped us kat subang nye komuter.
pndai2 la balik sndiri ek. haha. cik v, pasang la gps ekk, mesti x sesat dah. hee =p

kat komuter. kne kejar ngn 2 abg celcom yg xphm2 bhasa. siap men kejar ngn kiteorg. haha
larik msok kedai beli ILT ",
berdiri dlm train. what would u expect? at peak hours nk duduk comfy2 ker kat seat. huhu~
penat. nmpk la td kat subang company yg bakal aku prac tuh.
gile kot jauh nk jalan dr komuter. waa~
bank ohh bank. cpt sket msok duit byk2 dlm akaun saye...mau beli kete. haha =p

satu mesia. lol.

tajuk xleh blah.
gmbar lagi xleh blah.
haha.
knape xleh blah?
sbb bkn nk cite pape yg relates ngn satu mesia pon.
hehe =p

dah tgh2 mlm neh..
ape lagi yg mahu aku bicarakan..
selain..
those underneath the comforter and pillows. haha
lagik xde kaitan. huhu~

i was browsing through..
because now i actually had the chance..
and i realized..
i'm not the only ONE..
how i wish i am..

i'm juz ONE of them..
well that one too is till unsure..
because worst case could be..
i'm not even in the list of them..

what else can i say..
a bit depressed..
coz after all these while..
he is my only ONE..
and never hav i create a list of 'them' in my life..

probably i should just stop browsing..
and start creating the 'them' list in my life..
i noe that's not what i want.
not what my heart wants.
but..~

oii oii..
gi prepare tuk present kat client besok daa..
sebok psl him watpe.
dia x heran pon psl kau.
huhu~
gi gi prepare.
jgn sok memalukan company sudah.
haha =p

takde tajuk~

emm..
adela a tiny part inside of me yg terpk..
bek xpyh kot..
lagi wat hati aku susah..
pening~
huhuu~~

apela aku mepek kan?
emm ntahlaa..
aku pon x phm..

oklah.
xyah ckp psl hati aku neh..
kang cite..berjela xde sudahnye. haha

ok ape aku wat sepjg da abes fyp selama bbrp jam yg lalu. huhu
aku qada' tdo..tak hengat pnye lama. serious.
straight bape belas jam ntah. haha!

pastu dok layan anime dari tadik x abes2..haha
gile addicted ohh..huhuu~
neh pon ngah tngu one tree hill abes donlod..hehe

sepjg aku dok menghirup udara freedom neh..
tibe2..i got a called.
haizz. bru jek nk bersuka ria cuti b4 practical..
tup2..
tomolo n luse. kne pegi putrajaya.
kne replace instructional designer company aku prac tuh
utk storyboard presentation at this one workshop.
uhuh.
big event kot. aku n membe aku plak terheret skali.
kiteorg dah ler xde experience. haha.
apela aku nk merepek present sok.

knape kiteorg? sbb da xde org len. yg sepatutnye present
dua2 skali beranak. huhu~
so, ape nasib kiteorg sok? termalu? dimalukan? memalukan? hahaha :D
kite saksikan bersama-sama. haha :p

aku mimpi kot.

seriously..
the feels nk berblogging sgt laen..
bile da abes neh..
ntahla..maybe sbb all the burdens are gone..
and takde mende nk stress out here..
huhu..
but dun wori i'll still keep on writing..
sbb aper?
sbb saye kan syg blog saye :)

there's a couple of things that happened
recently...
mende yg sgt sgt sy berharap all these while..
one of 'em is FYP lah. hehe..
the other one..
err..no need nak mention sineh kot..
tapi..
ntahla..
rase mcm mimpi pon ader..
mcm bukan mnde btol..
both of dat things..
sbb..
it's too good to be true kot. huhu =p

THE day.

hey guys,

my FYP presentation went well =)
alhamdulillah~
my sv, examiner, and sig okay!
xtembak ape2..sgt syukur~

but i'm still worried.
sgt sebenarnye.
nak kata hepi sgt pon xde...
tngu jelaa..
result few days neh..
i hope i would be smiling =)
but everything is still unsure for now...

kecewa dgn sikap manusia.

current mode: pissed.

so nak lepaskan kat sineh bleh x?
can do la ekk.


aku kecewa.
dgn sikap manusia yg
pentingkan diri sendiri
dan tidak pedulikan perasaan org lain.
org lain disini refer kepada kawan.

kenapa sanggup berbuat demikian?
kawan punya perasaan tidak penting ke?
tidak kisah la jika kita mempunyai masalah peribadi
yang menggunung pon.
itu bukan alasan.
semua org ada masalah.
aku pon ada beribu lagi masalah menimbun.
and i bet mine is more complex and disaster.
tapi aku hidup jer.
aku boleh je berusaha melakukan
sendiri. tidak perlu untuk aku
memberi 1001 alasan untuk tidak
menunaikan tanggungjawab aku sebagai seorang pelajar.
come on laa..
kita dah final year..esok pon last kan,
show some positive attitude please.
i helped.
i was being sincere.
because of a friend.
because i love my friend.
but why in the end,
i was treated like this??
i worked hard.
really hard.
and i guess those hardwork meant nothing.
sebab manusia sanggup jer melakukan
apa sahaja apabila terdesak.
perlu ker?
tak perlu jika seseorang itu memikirkan
perasaan orang yang telah bersusah-payah
selama ini.

kesimpulan: aku bukan kawan. aku hanya wujud untuk kesenangan sesetengah pihak. ohh~

the one.

she loves to write in her diary..
her writings are so neat..
never have i got the chance to see
anyone else with that neat handwriting yet..
her signature is very simple and short..
i always use 'em every time
i signed my attendance in class..
everyone kept asking..
who's sign is dat? coz mine is longer..
i juz simply ^_^

she loves to bake..
i love all of 'em..
cant list down..
coz there's too many..
my fave one is her homemade cheese cake..
never have i taste a better one..
rather than her own..
secret recipe pon kalah..

she loves shopping a lot. haha.
who doesnt? hehe =p
tapi kami bukan dtg dari keluarga
yg kaya-raya..so, the shopping time
is quite limited..
i love to accompany her to shopping outlets..
and just see her goin crazy when it's the sale season. hee~
especially her face..
bile tengok pinggan mangkok yg mahal2 tuh. hehe.
tibe2 i teringat..
ade one time tuh masok kedai mainan..
and i so want that piano..
and i sgt terharu when she said
" mak, takde duit. tapi takpelah amek jelah 10 dollar neh. jom bayar."
ohh my..
she bought me a lot of other cool stuffs too..
i guess i juz missed being adored.
now nobody bought me cool stuffs nymore..~

okayh. better stop now.
there are loads of other stuffs she loves..
and talented in..coz she is very special in my eyes..
i could go on writing..but i'm afraid i'm gonna be too...too..pape jelah~
lastly..
thank you Allah for giving me her as my mother..
thank you shadows of mine for just being here for me to share..

"you are not who you are. your mother is the real you."

happy mother's day to all the mothers in the world ",

sarangheyo~

morning everyone~

i had a gud sleep last nite..
after a few weeks of busy bee of me. huhu~

mmg nikmat ah tdo smlm..
maybe sbb sume mende da settle kot. hee~
tapi nak kate ready sgt tuh xde r..
neh bru nak prepare sket2 tuk present..
ape tah aku nk ckp. haha~
as always..
just say it, never think! haha :p

kesian kat my diary..
seminggu kosong jek. bz banget smpai xsempat nulis..
tp sineh sempat lak! hehe =p
xpe2. i still ingat ape nak nulis..
satgi kite update ek. huhu~

heeee~~
xnak tulih sineh.
tp nak jugak type.
haha.
ngada kan? =p
saye suke.
ske ske~~
sgt suke~
sbb mimpi sy jd realiti kelmarin! hee :)

bru tgk screen da hepi.
ohh~
suda lama dat name doesnt appear on it. huhu~
tuh bru nama da sgt hepi..
so bleh agak kan how in the end,
how i felt? hehe ",

xkesahla it was ape. the beginning ke the end ke the nothing ke..
i dun care. i dun wanna think about nything. haha
bleh plak. saye mau senyum ajer. selagi masih bleh snyum ^_^

~~

misi mlm neh: slide presentation!

hari neh warna lagik hatiku!
hehe.
had a great times lepaking with my sweet darls ^_^
padehal. Tuhan saje yg tahu betapa ngantuknye aku,
gile kau xtdo seharian. haha. xpe2 kawannye psl..hee =p
agak lama xjmpe mereka. yela masing2 bz ngn fyp. huhu~
tadik aku sempat print poster kat fac. hehe so slamat duit aku =p

emm..b4 balik td singgah la kedai..
nk photostat brochure..
sepjg aku balik. sume org msti pandang ape yg aku pegang..haha
sgt cute! thankssss tau Yan =)
white tuh~ u noe my fave one!
hee. xyah kata org la. aku pon pasan bapak aku curi2 pndang gift tuh..
msti ingt secret admirer kasik la tuh. hahha :D

anyway, thank u so much dear...for the lovely words u wrote for me.
SGT terharu okayh~~~
n the gift..what can i say..cute. cute. cute =) =) =)
hav a nice trip again, and selamat kembali yek.
mesti mau lepak as always tau! hee =p


ps: tgh blur jap. td rase mcm ani ade call. tp aku mamai. pe ntah aku mepek dlm phone. haha :p

posterku =)

tuk mlm ke bape ntah dah xtdo. huhu
previous nite bz ngn thesis and fyp.
so da settle sume.
poster bru je siap. nk gi print kat fac.
tuh pon kalo opis bkk. kalo ttp melayang la
duit aku nk print poster A3 neh. huhu~
em, cuma brochure je x siap agi..
ngah cari idea jap. haha

semangat kan nk upload sineh..hee~
santek x kwn2? =p

mimpi ker? =p

it was nice..
it was surprisingly nice..
it was actually a really surprisingly nice..

what am i talking about?

hee~
my colorful hearts ",

i dun wanna think about nything else.
whether it is a nutin.
or whether it is a sumthin.
why is diz..
or why is dat..
and bla bla bla bla..~
all i wanna do is enjoy the colorful heart at the moment~
^_^

pdn muke sndiri.

he left again..
~~~

sedey.
huu~
bukan sbb diatas.
sedey sbb.
sedey la.
sgt down.
huu~
ohh thesisku..apela nasibmu~
mcm2 jadik arineh.
sgt kabut.
pendrive dahla tngal kat cc..
nk amek td..slh msok cc plak..
dua cc lak tuh..
haizz.
apela ade dlm kpala.

tuhla kan.
pdn muke sndiri.
suke take things for granted.
harap ini punye mood down.
akan pergi sejauh mungkin.
sy perlu bersedia tuk senin neh.
hari penentu segalanya.
scary~~~

thank u so much.
at least one thing made me smile today =)
u were there during my proposal days..
kes yg sama. lambat. huu~
and again..
u were there too today.. when i needed u~
thx ",
and yeah,
the good luck too. i've been longing to hear u say dat.
so tqvm ^_~

MWord. kamus. thesis. you ",

it's 3:42am..
still awake..
my thesis is a long way to go..
xpe2..inshaAllah sempat..
kne submit before noon..

i'm freaking sleepy lah!
haha.
tuh yg stopped by sineh. huhu~
penat nk karang ayat wat thesis..
bukannye idea dtg pon pagi2 buta neh. haha
but i love one thing tho,
the dictionary :)

been flipping more than few times already. haha.
ye ye. tau. englishku suda karat. grammar pon ke laut.
haha. xpelah..saye mmg suke kamus pon. leh tmbh
vocabs yg sgt sket dlm pale neh. hee =p

can i juz say thank you here..
i can rite..haha. ade tnye kat blog sndiri. hee~
yeah. i wanna say thanks a lot. really giv me
enuf strength these few nites...
my so called critical hours striving through success..
what did you do?
wanna noe, ask me soon =)

iPod~

pelik.
aku xwat ape pon.
cucuk cam biase jek.
ape?
hee.
saye tgh cite psl iPod saye.
td cucuk kat lappy..
nak backup data fyp..
pastu tibe2..
i realized..
all of the songs inside are GONE~ T.T
adehh~
byk gile kot lagu dlm tuh..
playlist pon confirm2 r ilang..
a bit sedey.
waa~~~
abeh fyp neh mmg la kne..
upload blk..
mslhnye bkn sume lagu tuh aku ade pon
file nyer..huu~

hmm..
xde dahla peneman setia sy naek bus ari2 nnt.
huhu. hp plak headset dia osak..
dpt kat aku ape mende x osak? haha
huhu.
sedey mcm la iPod tuh ilang..
oii oii lagu jela ilang..
nnt da merdeka..
haa...msok la sejuta lagu pon xpe. haha =p

da beli ILT ",

hey..

the time is near
ohhhhhh
chuakness melanda.
haha!

7th = submit thesis
8th = siapkan poster
9th = susun kusi meja kat hall
10th = THE DAY!

sape2 yg xde keje tuh. huhu. dtg la ke hall fac saye.
dewan al-ghazali. hehe. tulun set up kan booth saye ekk.
bukan tnye soalan mcm2 psl fyp. haha :p

mmg critical hours kan? hehe
tp stil ade mase tuk kua..
i juz got back. tadik kua ngn my sis.
teman dia lunch and also...
celebration dia merdeka arineh. haha
her last paper ;)
she also mention bout our vacay togeda on the 22nd. rili lookin forward to it!
a treat for myself after merdeka kan..ala x jauh mane pon. pd jek. huhu
td mamam ayam penyet, hee :)
satu restaurant ngn lecturerku..
leh plak terserempak ngn mereka..hee~

okayh. back to my fyp here. lots more to do..
arap sempat ahh. inshaAllah~
so, i'm glad today..
colorful la sket..
drpd few days..hehe
dpt jmpe my love ones, so color2 lah hatiku =)
thx for the day, sis ",


ps: i'm still waiting for ur millions of supports. sape? you lah! you know who u are =p

asek2 fyp. haha

pembakar semangat FYPku..

introducing..

ILT~













haha :D

knape smpai taruk dlm blog?
haha.
sbb arineh lupe nk gi beli.
so sape2..
leh x wat delivery kat mah saye mlm neh?
hehe =p


ps: semangat fyp suda kembali! after a 24-hour of missing. haizz~ haha. so post b4 this. abaikan. kk mau wat fyp. smgt neh. hee :D

countless.

countless of seconds..
countless of minutes..
countless of hours..
countless of days..
countless of weeks..
countless of months..
countless of t e a r d r o p s..

critical hours~

so many things to get done..
during these critical hours..

the finishing line is so near..
been goin through
so much obstacles to get to this far..
been striving patiently..
for the success..

so little time left..
yet..
still typing here..
24/7 i would say..
what to do..
writing is the remedy..
for a heartbroken soul~

double L double B~

saya ngantuk.

saya letih.

saya penat.

saya rindu.

saya rindu.

saya rindu.

ohh...

happy 25th ",

dua puloh lima!
haha.
encik awan arineh suda tua :p

hepi burfday m!
sowi ahh.
bru recall few days bile tgk ur comment. huhu
i'm surprised :o
i forgot ur burfday! ohh my. ohh my. hehe

nmpk sgt tgh kabut in life..
fyp x settle2 agi. hehe.
it's a gud thing rite?
i forgot. hehe. not in dat way
of totally forgot,
but it gave a wider meaning..
of how..
0505 is no longer one of the important date
in my life. heee~
i know you understand.. =)

again, slmt hari lahir!
be happy alwaysssssss ^_^

a w a k e

i'm exhausted.
in my own journey of success..
if only u're here..
following along the trail..

whatever happens..
still,
you are a part of my success..

although ur light has faded off..
yet, urself..
ur words are what
had kept me awake..
for all these nights..
to run for my success..

my gratitude goes to you, my favorite person..
how i wish you'll be there,
on the day i finally meet success ",

burfday!

0305

abg sulungku turned 37th!
HEPI BURFDAY Bang Jan =)
ntah dia dpt ke x wish smlm text at 12..x reply2 pon. uhuh~
tua suda abgku itu..ade gamba ngn dia tp x byk sgt..
tapi mcm malas lak nk cari nk upload sineh. haha.
sindrom malas + blur2 bgun stlh qada' tdo selama 3 jam. hee =p

at the same time burfday ex-boss aku jugak..
patot la dieorg tuh perangai nk sama jek. berlagak! HAHA :D
so, boss hepi 30th!!

it's the third.
yes, of course i rmbr.
bz camne pon mesti ngt,
ohh~ cepatnye masa berlalu..
takku sangka it'd been 5 months since..
and yet, i still hadnt changed at all..
will i still be the same for another 5 months..
only God knows..
i'll juz keep on praying..I know Allah has put it's best planning
for me in the future..
action speaks louder than words.
i guess,
the silence speaks itself out loud too.
i noe he's out there reading this..
and i know, it wasnt juz a hunch of mine
i trust my intuition so well enuf,
and i noe it wouldnt lie..
all i'm saying..
although the silence had brought us way way way apart..
but..
knowing him still read my shadows of mine..
just make me feel really glad ",
thanks sudi bace..my long lost beloved bf~

mula la tuh atie. mepek ntah pape.
ptot blog neh nama ditukar,
jadi buku conteng harian hatie! haha =p
sbnrnye stress.
paper td susah gile. uhuh~
xpenah saye hanya mengharapkan
lulus for a subject..eh tipu la tuh..penah sekali dlu.
paper buduh itu. network! HAHA. i hate it so much. huhu
tuh yg balik bantai tido.
neh ngah menggali semangat nk siapkn fyp b4 noon sok.
ohh. ohh. sempatkah? mcm biase. ari2 x tdo. penatlah~
haha. xpe2. sbr sbr sbr sbr. tak lama agi. yes, so so near jek lagik.
be strong hatie!
slmat maju jaya =)

tibe2 teringat..
selamat selamat maju jaya..
sekolah kami yg tercinta..
bla bla bla...haha aku masih hafal.
padehal skolah skjp jek situ :p

syukur~

alhamdulillah~

-free from exam!

-date submit thesis tunda on the 6th! thx sir mymy =)

-date anta project se pon tunda. unforch, tomolo b4 noon~ at least better la drpd kne anta today :)

couldn't be more thankful..

thank you ",

the blues ^_~

hello hello people!

tgk helo pon da tau kan mood saye mcmane..hehe
agak hepi sket..
cahaya fyp makin lama makin menerangi diriku..
huhu~
even though i got few more % to go..
still i'm glad..it's on the right track to the finishing line =)
syukur, alhamdulillah~

as much as i nak sgt sgt siapkan fyp..hehe smngt tul kan? huhu
tapi arini takleh sbb..sok pagi2 da exam. so full day arini
kne study. my LAST paper! yippie!!~~
pastu mmg ckop2 a week, kne prepare tuk FYP presentation!
mintak2 la saye dpt examiner yg baek2 hati dan x kemut markah. haha
n also, yg x tnye soalan byk2 a.k.a soalan2 pelik2 yg sbnrnye dieorg da tau da jwpnnye..
saje je nk kne kan student. haha :D

oklah! belambak notes kne bc neh..
aiya.
dahla mlm neh game best.
my team vs his team.
haha.
xdpt nk tgk..tgk score jela.
hehe~
may the best team wins tonite ^_^

9264::

akan datang 2010 ",

tengok trailer da best..
x sbr mau tonton filemnya..
buku da mmg bukan setakat tebal..
tapi sgt best sekali!
filem harap best juge =)
cinta epik kasyah & ayu,
akan datang 2010~

ape ape je la =p

hey everyone..

currently, kpala ku biul sket. hee~
pening ngn fyp arr..
time2 critical neh arr wat tuh x jadik. neh x jadik..
haizz~~mmg rase nk tutop je pc. n ape lagik. tutop mata la sekali =p
seb bek ade solution..
nmpk la sket sinar2 fyp menerangi diriku kembali..syukur~

ptg td baby acir da blk..
mereka blk umah atok di melaka pulak..
mmg aku sgt bz. tp bile dpt tgk muke dia yg kiut miut tuh
abeh ilang segala kepeningan. hehe.
see for urself lah!
ain't he's juz so adorable cute little fella? hee =)
hai sume.
nama shaye Abdullah Aashir..
umo baru setahun lebih.
shaye syg mama sy, ayah sy dan maksu sy! haha :D


tadik ptg..i took a nap.
mimpi mcm2..haha
bgun2 jer.
mule lah.
mood ntah ke mane2. huhu
walking down the memory lane again..
ohh what is with this week? my-walking-down-memory-lane week? haha

107 jalan 27.

okayh~ sy rindu itu tempat.
itu batu di luar rumah.
byk sunggoh memori di batu itu.
skrng batu itu suda tiada.
da direnovate. huu~
tapi memori tetap segar diingatan.
dlm umah juge byk memori indah.
terlalu byk.
knape sgt indah?
sbb ia memori.
memori.
ternyata hingga kini..
umor yg hampir mencecah 24thun..
memori saje yg aku ade. yes, memories~~~
dah tuh je yg sudi stayed in my life..
tq memories~

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something is missing from my wallet..
something precious..
i wonder..
where it is now..
i wonder again..
will i ever get a chance to glance at it once again?
if it's a yes..
i would be really glad..
meanwhile, if it's a no..
i hope..
i would stop hoping it would be a yes..~
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