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haa..
kan da kate ade entry lagik...
sah la kan..
mlm neh mereng..
eh. bukan tiap2 mlm ker..
uhuh~

i am pissed at the moment.
i am depressed at the moment.
i am feeling of cursing here and there.
but for what?
nak lepaskan tensen? emm tak perlu kot..
tak perlu tuk saya mencarut mcm dulu lagik..
saya pon mahu menjadi a better me..
kalo i keep on using harsh words..everytime i pissed..
ape different nye saya skrng dgn saya yg dulu..
susah nk ubah. sy tau. tp sy cube tuk kurangkan..~

eventho i cant get the happiness..
but couldnt i get at least a respect?
plz respect my memory. altho it's past.
nama pon memori. mestilah yg dah berlalu.
still it's mine. mine. mine. actually, it's ours. kalau ye pon
not so precious to sum people..it is so precious to me..
so please..
respect my memory..it is the only thing i hav. juz memory. so plz..~
i noe i dun own the single jpeg. i didnt even create it.
but i own the memory. i made it happen. because of
my words. my phrases. my honest feelings. then barulah
that jpeg came in picture. and yes it hurts to see it today.
even so that jpeg is meaningless to sum people..
then juz delete it. i never force anyone to reminisce my memory.
but...by seeing..my memory..turned out to be another memory of
sumone else's happy days. ohh. huu. it is pedih. coz it's mine. mine.
from the start. my memory. our memory. kalo lah tersgt lah amnesia kan..
bleh je tgk kat blog neh punye past entry. to be exact. the title.
'another jiwang post.haha' so it is mine. tulun la respect.
kan dah bahagia buatlah kenangan baru. please dun use my memory.
now that memory seems meaningless..not to me...to that sumone..
i sgt kecewa..coz...it doesnt reminded of me dah...

mmg i make a big dealkan? after all it's only a single jpeg.
but to me..it is a HUGE deal. i have a heart. i guess..that sumone forgot bout that fact.
so xpyhla tnye lagi whether the footmark already fades or not...
obviously...it has faded for that sumone..
sampai dia heartless sgt utk even to juz respect my memory
when we used to be us..~
and yg paling devastated nyer..
i...maseh buta kot. dat sumone hurt me like hell. still. i waited for another couple of days..
coz i'm a person who kept my word. i said yes. so i kene fulfillkan..
unlike him..i dunno..if there will even be a ring/text from him for another couple of days
to fulfill his words..so if there's no ring or text.. that means he is a man of no words~

i talked bout him constantly..
and yes..i byk mengeluh here in shadows of mine..
tapi...i never reveal his identity...
sbb i tanak mengaibkan dia..
tak perlu...even he hurt me badly..
tak pernah ade pun sket perasaan
tak puas hati...atas ape yg terjadik..this is when the
word redha plays a major role...
so i harap....that sumone..plz erase all of ur tak puas hati kat i faraway please..~
coz obviously....everytime i triggered ur mind. surely only two words popped out.
sakit hati. betulkan? i mmg pandai teka. haha. mcm pelik jek. coz everytime
he triggered my mind. only one word. sarangheyo~
yer aku mmg pelik. i am a freak. period.